today is wednesday ! three hours of break in a row . in the week the days i really look forward to are wednesdays, saturdays and sundays ! today is great ! i mean the break was really needed . had to catch up with the load of homework and all ! did econs and maths during break .

three hours of break spent at the " selling of chocolates " place . because jolene ash and muthu are doing their shifts for the cip trip to cambodia and are raising funds so we always go there to accompany them . its like the whole 112 gathering is there ! :D jolene and joyce were like playing the guitar . first time hear joyce play guitar . it was ok i guess . hahas .

then shannon went to take his guitar too . so we had a " guitar playing session " . i forgot who commented that our class so good . because while we doing homework or studying got music ! still is live . lols . so funny . shannon's guitar keep hitting my head ! i was like doing my maths . then bang . fine . one time . won't blame him . then second time . then third time . then i was like SHANNON . YOUR GUITAR KEEP HITTING MY HEAD ! then he was like covering up for his guitar . no . is you hit my guitar ! then i was like >.>" after that when he went to return his plates he bang onto my head again . i was like . WHO WAS THAT . apparently jolene saw it and was laughing . shannon already walked far . so i didn't say anything . see im so nice ! =x muthu and ash were like comparing jolene with the tennis girls that walked past . so funny . then jolene was like please la . then you two go join tennis la . when the tennis girls walked past muthu was like shouting EH ASH ! JOIN TENNIS LA . lols . idiotic la . but seriously jolene look ok la >.>" when we were doing work , a lot of girls were like talking to shannon . then muthu was like asking eh shannon why u noe so many gers arhs den i was like " eh muthu coz "he's" a ger ma " LOL =x muthu dam idiotic la . say tngs say halfway only ! wad pact ~ stupid muthu !

then after that had maths lecture . maths results like shit la ! just one more mark then pass le ! our class is like damn pathetic . the top scorer was 37/40 . and the thing is there's only ONE person who scored thirty plus which is him la ! pathetic . mr wen was like so angry x.x oh well . im like trying my best . i found so many careless mistakes ! =( jolene gt 25 . and she know how to do the most DIFFICULT question ! full marks for it sia !

ahh . got to go le . bro chasing me off the computer . =l he's like everyday using the computer la ..




i just realised that i duno u at all .. lyk 2 parallel paths that would never cross each other ..

somehow blogger just doesn't want me to blog or something . keep getting error messages . in the end spend a long time refreshing the pages ! :l

sent my bro's laptop for repair yesterday . so currently i won't be online unless my bro doesn't use the desktop which is like today . at first i was thinking how can it be possible he went out with his friends ! normally he would be playing WOW or something .. then i remembered today is maintenance day >.>" no wonder ! thought what happened .

well if you're wondering what about my laptop . its curently rotting in my cupboard . im too lazy to go and fix it because my laptop is from dell and in singapore there is NO dell . the nearest place is malaysia . can't be bothered to call dell . so i can only just let it rot in my cupbopard till something happens !

now that the dance concert is over , i feel relaxed but also kind of disappointed . i mean . i love dance practices and all . now i feel a little empty . oh well . looking forward to dance this friday :D

tomorrow is computing test already . i already forsee that im going to fail or something . its so hard to understand whatever the teachers says in class . im seriously struggling ><" going to have dinner soon .. okays . cyas xD don't really have anything special to talk about actually =l

weirdness .. hopes . hope i understand and figure out what im really feeling ..

these few days the only thought i get when i wake up is " I WANA HAVE A GOOD LONG CRY ! " . it probably sounds stupid to others but seriously . i just wana cry it all out . everything thats bottled up . let it all out or something . i don't wana feel all these stress, emotions or whatever anymore . i just want to sit down have a moment with myself and let it all out . i hate it when people look at you and thought that you are what you look like . it feels dumb . if people treat each other like this , in the end you will just realise that the person you know doesn't exist at all actually . its just something you have created with your own mind .

i was really stressed the whole week because i almost had dance practice everyday because of the upcoming dance concert which ended yesterday in a success . i was quite disappointed though because some of the parts were messy and i should have joined the saturday dance practice too ! then i would be in lyrical ! :l but seriously i hope everyone that went really enjoyed it and all .

thanks for going to the concert . heard from mdm ang that all the concert tickets were sold out . i saw that it was considered a full house yesterday . a couple of the seats were empty . well . enough said . lets look at the pictures :DD

oh yeah . i realised that make up does wonders ! :DD



me and petunia =DD



wen jia and wei ting :DD



me and wen jia =DD



petunia and wei ting



me and petunia :DD



again ~



wei ting ~



janice xD



petunia starting to become " high "



me and janice xD



petunia with her " twit " photo



DA BAI DU ! and wen jia



me and da bai du !



me and jessica



jessica in her indian dance costume xD



the ai people !



ai family ~~ doesnt ying zhu look great in the lyrical costume ? xD







suddenly weiting started to use my phone to camwhore x.x





* grins * she praised that my phone produces nice photos of her xD





DYNAMIC PEOPLE ~



me and suwi :DD



myra , me , wen jia and chi wei !



me and chi wei ~ :DD



MYRA AND ME ! :DD



wen jia and chi wei xD



me and derek :DD



thanks for the flowers jolene, shannon and melvin xDD thanks for the rose chi wei ! ( and derek ? ) the rose is now sunbathing . hahas xDD okays . gotta go do my GPP already ><"

gona look forward to the next dance practice ! hope we learn hip hop soon xD hehe . cyas people ! CHEERIOS !

didn't really have time to blog these few days . have been going home really late ! well . just 2 more days and it would be the big day ! have to work hard to make it a good performance isn't it ? ain't saying that i am important in it but if one person screws up the whole performance would be ruined ! i would not wish to be the one that destroys all the effort that others have put in .

have been getting tons of bruises all around my legs . well . mostly at my legs . hands too . my dad was like telling me that i should go back choir again . i know he's worried about me but i want to do what i like . what i'm really passionate about . and i know this something will make all these bruises worth it and thats dancing :D i may be a newbie but i put my heart in . i want to do my best . i maybe slow . but i'll try my best . so at the end of the day even if i do badly at least i have the face to lift up my head to the world because i tried my best .

jc life is really different i guess . in the past we were all complaining that we always go home late from school . and that "late" is 2pm . yet now we don't even see daylight i guess . when we go home the sun has already set and all we have while walking home is darkness . many friends are getting hitched in jc and its really saddening to see them getting hurt . all i can say from a friend's stand is no matter what happens we friends would always be here forever . the difference between friends and boyfriends are that friends are for forever . no matter what hard times we friends would stand by you and make sure that you have a someone to lean on, a shoulder to cry on, a pair of ears to listen to you and of course heartfelt advices for the special one YOU :DD

so people hang on :D because i would be right here for you :D



You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

credits : metrolyrics

Today i was walking home from school . I was then pondering but i have never figured out in the past why would parents or should i say grandparents love children so much . What is in a child that would capture their heart . What i saw at that moment was a grandmother of around 60 years old looking with envy at another grandmother playing with her grandchildren . At that moment i could almost feel her sadness .
I guess at that moment i figured out what they see in the children . Have you ever stopped and notice a group of children playing together in a playground . Just by looking at them having fun and laughing out loud you would know they are happy . These laughters and smiles on their faces . You know that . Or should i say it can be felt by the passer-bys too . All their smiles come straight from their hearts .
Right now then think about yourself . When have you really smiled . When have you really felt that your friend or people surrounding you are really happy when they have a smile on their face ? When they smile or laugh its not something they are using as a front so that people would not know the disappointment in their hearts .
Then have you ever felt truly happy these whole many years living in this world . Have you ever really smiled from your heart because you want to ..
These thoughts just flashed through my head in that instant . I would be proud to say that I've been happy . I have been fortunate to have my family close by , my friends in school . Everyone that treats me no matter positive or negative true from their hearts . Not a hypocrite . Not a backstabber . Not saying something but mean something different in the heart .


Then before and after dinner . I was reading this book by Belinda Jones . Title the love academy . You might be sitting in our seat now thinking oh well . another love story that only a girl would fancy . Yet what truly amaze me in this book is when you stop in your fast pace life , sit down and think . And start to reflect on your actions , your thoughts for the past of your life then you realise how many people treat romance as something non-existent .
From a part inside , it says

" Romance to me is paying close attention to someone, discreet not of what brings them joy and then engineering subtle ways in to deliver these moments to them . Romance is sneaking up behind someone and placing your hand over their heart to show them it is safe with you . Romance is stopping in a busy moment to say, " Do you know how much i love you ? "

Sometimes its just really funny when you hear guys complain that they do not know what girls are thinking . But its all the same for girls isn't it ? Being busy isn't an excuse ! I mean romance isn't only to your existing girlfriend or boyfriend . But it can be extended to your loved ones . Loved ones as in your family and friends .

Just a small action such as opening the door for your friends . To some people it might be nothing but i feel that to most of the girls it would mean " aww .. sweet ! " . Something easy would just make them melt on the spot . Its these little or should i say minor act of kindness , concern and care that add up to a lot in the end .

I mean in the end , at the end of the day when you look back and think . Who would leave a deeper impression in your heart ? Someone who noticed that you were carrying a lot of books and files thus bothered to ask and help or someone that just ignores you ?

If you still think that these minor acts of kindness are nothing .. think again ..

today met up with my project work members namely yang jie, ming sheng, ash and chen hong . the only problem with our group is that each member is crappy . including me of course . we were supposed to meet at 3pm at amk library . in the end we only started discussing our project like 2 hours later ?

when we chose amk library we decided to change place as many people did not know how to go there . chen hong was the best . yang jie called and told him its amk library but when he called me he said he was at woodlands library . best la . LOL . after that we went amk hub and started to look for a place to settle down . in the end we went to ming sheng's suggested location void deck x.x its like ahh !

the tables are so dirty. Not forgetting to mention that i got so many mosquito bites ! ><" when we arrived at the void deck we were like saying . there's only four chairs but we have five members . then ming sheng was like . just grab a chair from the other table . of course we can .. if the chair is PORTABLE . look at it !




its nailed into the ground . so ming sheng is going to use his superpowers and grab a chair from the other table ? LOL . in the end we spent quite a lot of time just to come out with our GPP ><" well . but its a great idea in the end suggested by ash . which everyone agreed to it :DD after that we went to the playground nearby . apparently they do not have childhood ><"



chen hong was so excited that he climbed up the playground immediately.



ming sheng the second excited one x.x



its like . you look ! they are even taller than the playground the thing . i mean the " second " level of the playground ..



ash doing pull ups . its really >.>" i was there telling chen hong . if you can do one im sure i can do one too . apparently im too confident of myself . i mean he looked so sickly and all . but he can do it x.x ok fine . pretend i didn't dare him ><"



chen hong treating the slide as his bed ..

after that we went home ! :DD

was really busy these few days . so didn't update ><" well . at least im here to update now . because today is a saturday ! no school . lets start with thursday ! THURSDAY 17/04/08 after school went to my secondary school concert ! Parcel . it was a quite a ok concert overall . chinese orchestra still facinated me . at the beginning of the concert, i could see a lot of friends helping the juniors out . there were quite a number of alumni :D chinese orchestra was fantastic . missed the conductor =X his hair is really still that long . =p okok . back to the performance . it was a drama . or should i say this whole concert revolves around this theme " parcel " its a story so they just combine all of the performing arts together . dance was great . drama improved . there was this cute girl in dance . she dance till really nice ! :D what really shocked me was band . there was so little people ! ling lan had a flute solo :D though couldn't really hear =( oh well . jiaying went back to perform too . choir was a little disappointing . but oh well . work hard :D oh yeah . forgot to mention . adib was great in the concert ! :DD rock on people xDD after the concert took lots of photos . saw so many old friends . enough talking . pictures time ^^



chi wei and me :DD in singapore conference hall xD



finale picture :D



look at ling lan and jiaying in the middle xD





kerwin jiahua and derek . jiahua slimmed down a lot ! jia hua and wen bin dam lame la . when i commented that jia hua slimmed down . he was there saying oh yeah . why you never slim down arhs . wen bin was like adding salt to my wounds . hahas ><" at least i grown tall ! :l

cute yiling with pink rose :DD



yiling and me ! :D oh yeahs . and ronald's fingers x.x



sara and me ! when i saw this photo i was thinking that i need a hair cut ! my fringe is like uncontrollable already ! should go and cut it sometime !



khalilah and sara ! still so cheeky . hehe .




khalilah and me ! ahh !



me cindy and chi wei ! it was actually me and cindy . then suddenly chi wei popped in . LOL xD



jiaying and me ! :DD



derek and me ! :DD jia hua was like kidding . saying why not . all the dancers go and take a picture at the vending machine . but he dance really good ! seems like suddenly everyone is interested in dancing . chi wei learning hiphop , joyce learning reggae , jiahua in nyp dance , im in my sch dance . hahas xD hope more people will be interested in dance :DD



jia hua with the cello ! it was so funny . joyce went to tell zhi yu that his cello is taken by someone else . then zhi yu was like . my precious cello ! he ran down and chase the person . i think if we didn't break to him the truth, he would have chased the person from SCH to mrt station ><" poor zhi yu . but he was relieved that his cello was safe in our hands :DD



me and zhi yu . if you want people that act cute . zhi yu is the choice . LOL .



actually finish already . then zhi yu was unstoppable . LOL . he wanted to take more and more pictures xDD oh yeah . not to mention his precious cello in the middle of the picture .



zhi yu and chi wei again . non stop act cuteness ! :DD



motto motto !



jiaying ! :DD with her beautiful roses given by yanrong and yiling xD



ronald and me ! ronald is now in dragonboat ! oh yeah . forget to mention . saw e2 people :D cheelin is really pale considered to ronald ! ronald is even tanner than daryl now . hahas . daryl was like complaining that he was conned into sajc because there were more pretty gals in acjc than sa . ahahahas .



ronald and chi wei ! :D



ronald and jiaying xD



fiona and me ! been a long time since i saw fiona eh ! :DD cheerios :D

well . yesterday had parents teacher meeting after dance . the teachers said that im fine . shouldn't have any problems :DD okays . have to go and study for maths test on monday already xDD cyas people :DD