SMILES PEOPLE ! :D

Feel like vomiting right now ! Must be the mudpie that I just consumed earlier when I was studying with WeiQin . Shall elaborate on that later . Let me start off prim and proper ! :D

Today was a "Can-I-Don't-Go-To-School" day . Since it was the "last" day of school before promotional exams, I really wanted to sleep at home . But when I thought of my results and high risk of retaining, I forced myself to school . Dragged my feet and all . Wore grey contact lens today . Jeannette and WeiQin commented that I look like an alien . Oh fine ><"

Physics tutorial was a hypnotising lesson as usual . Its difficult to not fall asleep when the atmosphere is just so nice . Imagine. You sitting in this room where the temperate is just nice plus some hynotising factor influencing you to sleep . This includes the worksheet in front of you that you can make no sense out of and also a teacher talking in "alien" language . TIME TO WAKE UP !

Jolene cracked us up with her cheesy pick up lines today . The one that I loved most was this "Life without you is like a broken pencil . Pointless . " If anyone tells me this, I'll melt immediately :P Then Jolene continued telling us some others like this one " Do you know where is the bakery ? I need to get a cutie pie like you . " Kind of too cheezy for my taste :X The others are not worth remembering :P

Break was perfect . Was really starving and I need the food . Ate rice with potato *as usual*, vegetables and .. nothing else . Weird . Realised that I've been eating vegetables lately but somehow I just won't do that at home . Its not to my preference . * I'm not saying that my mum's cooking is bad . I'm just too picky * Ming Sheng bought Jolene a packet of VitaSoy . I was telling Jolene to quickly open it because I wanted a mouthful of it . Was really thirsty. When Jolene was drinking it, I asked her if it was sweet . She replied with that really happy face " SWEET ~ You also think sweet right ? :D " I replied with the -_- face " No . Sour " . They got the message immediately . For those that didn't, I meant that it was sour because of "jealousy" . Wasn't really jealous, just playing along :X

After that we went to the library to "study" . Actually I wasn't really studying . Just slacking away, reading the newspapers. Couldn't manage to get a copy of the latest Straits Times, so had to make do with The Business Times . As usual, couldn't make anything out of it with words that seemed to be foreign to me . Clever me, went to get a economic dictionary . Learnt what was tariff today. Import exchange *If I didn't interpret the meaning wrongly* . After that I gave up on the newspaper . Oh wait . Before that, I learnt another word for vulgarities or should I say crude words . The word is "expletive" . After that, I went to read Scientific American . Found out that the brain insulin level affects our memory . People who have diabetes have also a low level of brain insulin and it is different from insulin produced in the pancreas . Quite cool yeah . Therefore they have bad memory skills . Picture this . Before exams, go and get a jab to increase our brain insulin level hence we can memorise better . Impossible yeah :P

During physics lecture, I took Jolene's metal clip that was used for physics notes to clip it on Jeannette's jacket . After the lecture, she has forgotten all about it and went around walking with it . While packing her stuff, Jolene suddenly shrieked and asked where was her metal clip . Unfortunately, I couldn't run away in time . Jeannette heard it and was shouting at me . I bursted out in laughter . Freaking hilarious . She was shouting at me saying how dumb she was to have walked around with that metal clip of Jolene's . Oh well :X

On our way to computing lesson, I pulled out Jeannette's shoelaces . Then it created a domino effect . Jeannette went to pull Jolene's . They started playing around till they realised I was the mastermind . Then Jeannette was there chasing after me all the way to the computer labs trying to pull my shoelaces . Lucky me . Adrealine prepared me for "flight" . She couldn't catch up or should I say in the end she gave up trying . It was then when Jolene caught up with us and attempted to pull mine . So another session of running . This time we ran to the staircase . We then made a pact to gang up on Jeannette . In the end we failed terribly . She was too fast for us . Struggling and kicking her legs in order to not let us have the chance to pull her shoelaces . The time before computing lesson was hilarious . So many things happened . Oh . Did I mentioned that Shannon "wet" his pants ? Funny . Get an explanation from it . Shall not clear his name here :X Melvin tried to prank Jolene and succeeded . He lied to her that her notebook was in the guy's toilet but all along it was just behind him . She nearly went into the boy's toilet . Then we would have a great show awaiting us .

Computing lesson was another laughing session . Firstly, it started off with only Jolene doing her homework . So the rest of us have to stand at the back . While teaching, Mr Ho suddenly said that he have to leave the class for a while . So we all sat . Then when he came back, we all stood immediately . Han Wee was "slow" . He turned around and wanted to tease us but in the end we all actually already saw Mr Ho and stood up . In the end the class erupted in laughter . Mr Ho in the end agreed to let us have a seat . Thanks ! Wait . We haven't reach the funny part yet . It was when someone saw the "things" we were supposed to study for promotional exams . It read " except hashing " . Most of us were shocked and in the same time fascinated . In doubt, Jolene dialed Mdm Myl's number to confirm this good piece of news . And it was true ! So Jolene changed to loud speaker and requested Mdm Myl to repeat it again . We heard clearly " Yes . Hashing is not included in the promotional exams . " The whole class cheered . Well . Someone didn't :X Jennifer was laughing frantically for the rest of the computing lesson :P

Then we went for economics lesson . Ms Kwok scared us . She's really fierce I conclude . But a great teacher :D

Maths lecture was great . Mr Wen told us some maths jokes before the start of the lesson . Check this out .

Sorry for the bad handwriting . Apparently, I don't have a tablet and so I wrote this using mouse . Class 102 laughed in the "opera" way united . So funny :X

Then was project work lesson . Kind of boring . Oh well :P

End of school went to Popular with WeiQin . Wanted to buy books but they were sold out .

Went home had a bath and dinner . Then studied with WeiQin at coffeebean at 8pm . We were going crazy . Or should I say only her :X She was talking with LUCY ! Was so funny . I was seriously "high" and laughed until my stomach ached . I saw Jiaying and Astrini . They were so high . Jiaying was talking at the top of her voice . Oh . I ate MudPie and Iced Fruit Tea . Yummy :D

When I got home, was scolded by my mum . Reached home around 10 plus . She was so angry . Don't like me to stay out late I guess . Even studying was a No-No . So out shopping or playing is definitely out . 

Just completed my Written Report part . Going to sleep now . Really tired . Finally ! I can sleep all I want . Tomorrow is Public Holiday .

its not like its going to ever happen again ...

yesterday i lied to myself,

i told the girl in the mirror that,

"you can do it . its THAT easy".

i fooled her . totally inside out.

today i saw her,

she was dying inside,

and asked why i lied to her ?

i couldn't give a reason,

all i replied was ..

tears

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Didn't have the chance to blog yesterday . Brother was playing and I guess I didn't really bother to ask him for it . 

WeiQin came my house during the noon, we did some work but talked way too much :X In the end completed little . Well . Its a SUNDAY :X Okokays . I'm guilty ><" But well . Watched F1 after that . First time I watched it . WeiQin and I were so noisy . Talking like crazy during the entire race . So fun :D 

Feel bad for Massa . Because of that pit lane incident, he was pushed all the way to the last position from the first . Then in the end he couldn't catch up . What gave us a shock was that Alonso overtook 14 places and hence won the entire race . 

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It wasn't meant to be, 

right from the start .

It was like a perfect mistake,

that was covered up .

They were fooled,

but she wasn't regretting ..

none of it ..

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Today I asked myself five questions and realised I had all the same answer for them . "No".

Are you moving on ?

Have you stop feeling the pain ?

Have you forgotten ... ?

Do you no longer feel the pain ?

Is the love at least .. fading away ?

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Today, arrived in school at the usual time. Because of our achievements, the college photo was taken . Spent quite a long time . In the end most of the people were grumbling . We were supposed to give a thumbs up sign yet some people in the middle gave the thumbs down sign which made some of the teachers really fustrated .

No test today . Studied superposition during break then went for chinese . Seriously . I suck in chinese . I hate it . It seems like I just can't get anything right . And those people around, I wonder why they are so good in it. Its not their fault, but somehow, it demoralises others . A lot ..

Ate rice during break today . So much starch . I can feel the weight gained already . Had hashbrown, curry potato and mashed potato . Plus vegetables and rice . SO MUCH STARCH . I'm crazy . In the end I couldn't finish it at all ><" And the point is it only cost $1.60 . Guess you can still gain more weight even though your meal is cheap ><" .

Computing was kind of .. more fun . Got to sit with jeannette and jolene . Been long since I sat with them in computing lesson . Was normally rotting behind with melvin . jolene was so funny . She got to present and in the end she had to choose such a high spot which resulted her tiptoe-ing like crazy . no matter what . tho i think that you wasn't even helping me or whatever .. still thanks ..

Economics lesson ..

Physics was quite funny . Wondered why mr phang was late . First time I see a teacher so .. I don't know how to say :X Anyways today chee wee pissed me off . For the water bottle event . Actually I wasn't angry . Was just playing along . Think he really believed it . At first I was pretty irritated . Then in the end I was thinking, forget it . Its not some really major matter . So yupp . 

PE . Was hilarious . Jolene cracked us up totally . We were looking for something to play since it was raining and all . Badminton was what was left . We played doubles . Jennifer me jeannette and jolene . Jolene was pretending she was some national player and all . The space was quite small . And every time we hit too high, then it would bang the ceiling . Quite disturbing actually and disrupted our game like crazy . But better than nothing to play .

On the way to PC/CT period, heard jennifer shrieking and saw the nightmare of my life . A cockroach on the staircase railing . Its dam gross ! The feelers were like ... AHHH ! ><" I tried to persuade jeannette and jolene to go the other way but I failed apparently . In the end I "flew" up the stairs . Darn ..

PC/CT . Did my I and R . Oh yeahs . Our group got back our written report . Have to work on it tomorrow after school . Have a date with my group mates at 8pm -_- Oh well .. Best to finish it fast . Got back maths paper . Have to say I'm disappointed . But well . My carelessness .. zz .. Dam . I can't afford to make this kind of mistakes during exams . Promotional exams . I ain't gona retain . NO WAY !

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those words .. reminded me of the past .

it was the same except .. they are to a different person now ..

(: ....

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Ryan Cabrera - Shine On

I've given every moment I had
Still I can never seem to keep up with you
You're done with one mile, and onto another one thousand
Still I could never seem to keep up with you

I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're, you're beautiful
You're beautiful

[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end so
Shine on
You were made to

It's keeping me awake everynight
But I can never seem to give up on you
I send up a prayer and I'm onto another one thousand
Still i can never seem to give up on you

I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're, you're beautiful
You're beautiful

[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end so
Shine on
You were made to

Nobody's wrong
Nobody's right
Keep moving on

Shine on, yeah
You were made to, shine on, yeah

[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
amd even if we can or can't be friends 
You're gonna be brighter than you've ever been so
Shine on

You're gonna be just fine
You're gonna be alright love
You're gonna be just fine
You're gonna be alright love 

credits : lyrics007

But I can never seem to give up on you

fast foward ..

Brother woke me today . SOOOO excited . Dragged me to run ><" Okay . After running, was so awake, then watched like 3 to 4 hours of tv :X Drank warm milo for breakfast :D

In the end, after reading newspaper, couldn't stand it anymore . Fell asleep . So tired . Now still feeling a little tired . Just ate lunch . Yummy :D

So bored now . Exams are coming ! How do you focus when there are so much distractions around T_T

Someone ~ Motivate me by pulling me out to study or whatever .. Darn ..

haix .. 

seems like everything is not working .

zZ ..

can't give up . can't do anything .

i hope time can fast foward ..

Its not me .. its you .

* Edited *

Forgot to mention . Bought new shoes :D

And Dad said that I've lost weight :P seriously I didn't but its fine if I look thin now :X HEHEHEH ! :XX Ok . Think its just an optical illusion -_- forget it .

Plus . I hate people who demands . P's and Q's are so important . I like people who are gentleman . Not till carry bags and stuff . Wait . I mean girls as well . Let me rephrase this . People with manners I love them :D Its not to those extent where you are always the "good" guy or gal . But at least, P's and Q's ... they are basic . They exist for a reason . Please use them (: It makes everyone's day ^^ 

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Limited time to blog . Brother wants to use desktop soon . And yupp my laptop is still under repair . Toshiba's customer service is a little .. Well . I have no idea how to say . Its already been near a week and so yet still .. 

Brother just brainwashed me to jog with him in the morning . I bet he won't wake up again . He even pleaded till that he would wake up and pester me . Well . If he does wake up then I shall jog with him . Been a long time ! ><"

Today went to study at bishan library with jaslyn, chee wee and shannon . Ate subway ! :D Been long since I had subway cookies . Partly because I was sick . 

There was this cool book that Jaslyn found in the library . Its not you, its him . Quite a cool book because its filled with facts . I love that line when they say, most of the time, guys feel that they are so perfect and girls end up with the one thinking too much . True . Inside they teach girls to stop asking why . Stop blaming themselves when something go wrong . Start to accept that there is no perfect man in this world only lovable ones . If they don't like you, it means they are not the one for you . Do NOT change for a guy . How long can change ? This is so true . I couldn't keep up with the change in the end I suffered . Quite lame when now I think about it . I'll find someone who really loves and ACCEPTS me for who I am . Everything I do . Unless its the extreme, I would change . If not it only means that he is not the one for me .

Everyone has a partner in the world . Its just that we often makes too high expectations in the end we miss the chance . And also, the book accentuate on the fact that girls are apologizing too much . Sometimes its not our fact so there is NO need to aplogize . Do NOT apologize over things you have no control over . One example given in the book was that we apologize over minor stuff like " I'm sorry that the movie wasn't good, the reviews gave me the wrong impression " or whatever . Seriously, when you think about it, it doesn't matter anyways . Do NOT apologize when there is nothing wrong .

Did my economics homework . Couldn't manage to finish a lot because there were no tables . I can't really focus when its not a conducive environment . So hence .. Yupp . Did an insipration test . Fared badly with a score of 53 with Chee Wee close behind at 52 and Shannon at 57. Guess we ain't inspirational enough . One part of the question was so funny . Thomas Edison once said that " Genius is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration " What do you think about it ? One of the option was " Edison is a talentless slogger " . Was hilarious .

Today was quite "high" . Laughed a lot . One of the most memorable parts happened when we were in subway having an early dinner . Chee Wee heard Shannon saying that he ordered vinegar oil for his sauce . Then he intepreted it as "vinegar" and "oil" . So he was curious and asked why would someone put oil in their subway sandwhich ? Then I started laughing like crazy because this image suddenly come to my mind .

" Good morning sir, welcome to subway . What sauce would you want for your sandwich ? Sunflower oil ? Palm oil or Olive oil ? " Jaslyn added on " Baby oil " . Which resulted us laughing again . It was so funny . And I concluded that Subway has only one disc . Or perhaps the bishan outlet only . Because every time I go there, they play the same song . Hilarious . But the songs are nice .

Really tempted to buy "Breaking Dawn" today . Heard from Joyce that its a really good book . Well the entire series is nice . And every time I tried to get it in the library, its always loaned out . So I guess buying is the only option . Wei Qin's sister has it but Wei Qin is not going to let my hands on it unless promos are over . Thats really some kind of toture . I want to read the book ! In case you have no idea what book its about, its related to vampires and stuff . Don't ask why I have such a interest in these kind of books . Oh ! Just reminded me of Vampire Knight :X Been long since I read it, but somehow I can't find the latest release ! Oh wait . I think its me who didn't go and check :X 

Been more interested in drama serials recently . And beside this window, I have jaslyn's conversation flashing with new messages about the drama serial she is watching . Lan Qiu Huo . Haven't watch it yet . Really want to start on it . But once I start, I can't stop . So better not . Wait till promos is over ! And there's a new game I've been really wanting to try . Darn . So much stuff . Ah Wait ! I ain't even prepared for promos yet . Gotta fix myself on that first .

Oh . Plus I just read a game review about Rock Band . Darn . Seems so nice . But in order to play this 9kg game ( if I didn't remember wrongly ), you have to buy XBox or Playstation 3 . Ahhh ! Its so expensive for goodness sake . We haven't ended in the other stuff . If only I could get my hands on one :X

Before going off, guys . Here's a tip . I think you all already know but somehow its not knocked into your head yet . There are 2 things that you can never mention to your female counterparts . One of them is age of course . But for females around my age, weight is more of an issue . No matter what, do not say anything . I mean seriously, you don't know how much impact it has . Don't joke around this kind of stuff . Teasing for awhile is fine but in the long run, without realising it, you might have hurt the person unknowningly . I'm not saying me here . Although I have to say I got used to it . But all I've got to say . Fat doesn't mean unfit . So get it in your head . For all you know, those people who you discriminate our there because of their figures or looks might have more substance in them than you . So look inside, figuratively of course . Don't stay only on the surface because it makes you look .. ( you know what :D )

Ok . Gotta turn in for the night . Midnight is drawing near . Good kids should go to sleep :P

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I just realised .. Love is soo ..

BLIND .

ps. jas would understand what I mean :D

its fading .. what a lie

Been tuning into SHE's new album lately . At first felt that their songs are weird . After a while, got used to it and felt that some of them really have a catchy melody and makes you want to listen more .

Well . So happy that I completed the Innova JC paper today morning . Even though I was pretty tired but I had to say I was prepared for lessons today ! Finished my speech and also the paper for physics . First time I felt so satisfied with myself .

During physics lecture and tutorial today, was happy ! Suddenly was able to make what the teacher was saying after such a long time . I'm just too slacky I realised . Thats why I'm always unprepared for lessons and can't make any point out of the lessons conducted . Now I can finally asborb like the others (:

Computing was kind of boring . Took back our test paper . Can't say that I'm happy over the results partly because I wasn't prepared . And I made some mistakes that were careless . Couldn't believe that I would have made them . Should try to focus better . Jolene is always making me laugh (: She's so cute .

My speech today was horrible . Well . Can't believe how nervous I was once I stepped in front of the class . Guess the main problem was that I'm "rushing for the train" . Should start practising more . Darn . Can't believe this is coming from a person who have performed before . Guess its really difficult to overcome stage fright . Ah ><"

Guess it can be seen that I don't have the mood to type this post right now . Watching drama serial :X Well .. never mind . Ciao ~ :D

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all the scribblings on my worksheets,

reminds me of all the memories we had .

and somehow no matter what i do,

i would stoll look out for you .

but i guess that its really true,

that i'm just not the one for you.

somehow i realised that the pain of losing you,

is now fading away slowly ...

what a lie ..

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YUI- AM I WRONG ?

Romanji

Damatteita sore wa YES ka NO dake de
Kimerarerai koto datte sugu ni wakattakara

Me wo sorashi tara
Tabun hanashidasu no ne?
Anata wa...

Kowai mono nante nai no
Ushinau mono nante nai no

Kyou mo uta wo tsukurimashita
Yurushite yukou to utaimashita sore nano ni...

Denwa ga naru ichiji chuudanshita dake de
Warattari yoku dekiru nado miteita

Kigen ga warai dakeda to
Kitto omotterun deshou? 
Anata wa...

Mamoru mono wa tatta hitotsu
Kokoro ni uso wa tsukenai no

Kyou mo uta wo tsukurimashita
Tsudukete yukou to utaimashita sore nano ni...

Wakariaenai ne anata to wa

Komarasetari shitakunai yo
Demo yuzuru wake ni ikanai yo

Ashita mo uta wo tsukuru kara
Itsuwarinaku ikiteitai yo sore nano ni

Sore dake nano ni ah ah
Am I wrong?

Translation

Kept silent that’s not something which can be decided simply by a YES or NO
I soon realised this fact

Once I avert my eyes 
You’ll probably say something won’t you?

There’s nothing fearful
There’s nothing to lose
I composed a song today as well
Sang about forgiveness… Even so…

Just by allowing the phone to ring for a second and hanging up
I laughed and felt that I did a good job

You’re simply in a bad mood
I’m sure there are times when you think like that right?

There’s only one thing which I hold dear
Can’t lie to my heart
I composed a song today as well
Sang about continuing on… Even so…

We can’t understand each other 

Don’t wish to be a nuisance to you
But it doesn’t mean I can simply give way 
I’ll compose a song tomorrow as well
I want to live a life without any deceit

Even so… Even when that’s all I wish for ah ah

Am I wrong?

JUST COMPLETED PHYSICS IJ PAPER ! thanks to weiqin . if nt i would hav went to slp . happy ! xD bloggin with fone nw . hahas . time to slp ! (: so proud of myself !

its a dilemma

so much that i wana do .. and so much that i can't . 

it suddenly dawned on me . what you were trying to say . that it wouldn't work out because we are too different . i couldn't do anything because i din understand how it feels . we r so similar dat we r so different ..

dun isolate ureself .

i can't ignore it but ..

i can't do anytng either .

whatever ...

memories . they stay ..

Finally . After like 1 hour ? I decided to type a post :X Been surfing around the web . What happened to my determination to study ! I'm too much of a slacker man . While waiting for my dinner and Jas to online, I shall blog this ever short post . Don't really have much on my mind now . But I think it will be unexpectedly longer in the end . Has always been like this .

Today is Melvin's birthday . After much scams from him, finally confirmed that his birthday is TODAY ! Happy 18th birthday ! And know what I sent him ? You're 18 and its time to treat girls better :X Okay . Shouldn't be so mean . He's nice alright . Just needed something to send yeah :X LOL .

Was walking to school today . Linglan and Joyce were commenting on how easy the maths paper was . Stabbed me totally . Darn . I should start working hard man . I'm such a slacker . JIAYOUS HWEE ! :D 

PE was unexpectedly fun . At first when I heard aerobics I was like " Oh no . Your totally kidding me man . " But instead it was lots of laughter :D Everyone was issued a yellow elastic band . Smelt like dentist room . Remind me of toothache T_T Scary :X Ok . I'm scared of dentists . Period . The girls were going crazy with it . I started to mimic those chinese dance where normally its the red sash . Jolene Xue Er and WeiQin on the other hand were using it as a weapon to hit each other . So in the end we started to hit each other with it . Really hilarious . At the end of the session WeiQin and Jolene were chasing each other . So funny . 

Chinese was again boring :X 

Break ~ Went to "surprise" melvin with a slice of hello kitty birthday cake . Why hello kitty ? Because his name is " Mel ~ vin " as in " Miao ~ Vin " :X So its a kitty ~ .

Maths lecture . Did promotional examination papers . Kind of freaked me out . Because this question that I was doing needed the answer to be expressed in fraction . And using the GC, you just can't get it . In the end I spent quite a long time asking jolene about it . Suddenly someone called me from behind . But I thought it was just an illusion because for our class, the row I'm sitting at is the last row . Then the person call my name again . I turned around and saw shaowei calling me . He was like teaching me how to get fraction . I think he see me spend so long on the question till he can't stand so decided to teach me . But diu lian sia :X Means he saw me struggling for so long . LOL . For a stupid dumb maths question . But thanks still xD If not I would have spent SO LONG on that question -.- 

Then was maths tutorial . Slack slack .

Break again ! :X Love breaks . Nothing to do seriously . Jeannette and me were helping melvin to photocopy worksheets . He was like shocked by our kindness :X He today birthday . So treat him better . Tomorrow then go back already :X 

Economics was quite hilarious . Ms Kwok was so worried for us . We started to give all those weird answers . She was so shocked . I think all the teachers are more worried than we are now .

I better start working hard ! :D

i've finally straightened out my thoughts . guess i was pretty fine today . was quite sad at first but i guess i should let go . don't want to carry on anymore . you will remain as my happy memories . i still love you but i guess the feeling will fade away soon .. hope that you would also cherish the memories we had (:

its love alright .. (:

Firstly, have to thank my brother who sacrificed the desktop so that I can use it . Just completed typing my OP . A total of 755 words which I hope would last for at least 5minutes. I think it should be ok . My brother just went through it and told me the important points in presentation .

Today was a " I'm really tired " day. In the morning, there was a heavy downpour. Luckily I got my sweater if not I would have frozen to death during class. 

Well. Poor ling lan didn't bring hers and was freezing in cold. Jolene too . Seems like whenever they bring their sweater, it won't rain. 

The maths test today was horrible. I copied the first question wrongly . Cheerios to the blur hwee again ! Can't believe it man . And the bad news is that its the only question that I'm sure of . So now I guess I would fail horrendously. Oh . Jolene and I had a bet . If I got single digit, she would treat me to a meal . If not I would treat her. I think I'll be having a free chicken cutlet soon :P

Chinese was kind of .. I want to sleep ! Tired . Chee Wee was there spreading salt all over my wounds . Keep saying " Don't copy wrong " . Blah blah . Want to hit him ! :X Thanks to Mingsheng for bringing those FuZhou fishballs . So yummy ! And he brought it at the right time . Warmed all of us since it was freezing and also made us smile :D These little gestures just make people happy for the whole day isn't it ...

Then was break . Had fries :X And of course fishballs ! Well . Was quite full . After that went to study . Did maths ! Nearly completed my maths integration tutorial . Was quite a fruitful day today . Managed to at least do some stuff . Was there laming jolene and jeannette . Digging gold yeah :X Hee .

Late for computing ! In the end had to stand at the back . Jolene was going crazy . Hilarious . She just never fails to make me smile (: I'm seriously glad that my girlfriends are all around . Talking about girlfriends . Today chee wee told us about what mingsheng said when we were walking down the stairs after chinese lesson . " Just now mingsheng tell me that his girlfriend overseas . So he want call other girls . " LOL :X Oops . I hope he doesn't read this . He will kill me ! LOL . He was trying to make up for it . But too bad :PP

Maths was okay I guess . Was quite bored since I already did the questions .

After that, studied in school with jeannette jolene weiqin . Was telling jolene how nice I treat my pets . Asked her if they want food not like her ask Dolly go print notes for her . Refill water bottle :P hehe . Completed the MCQ questions for IJC paper . So happy ! Oh NO ! Just remember that we have to do promos paper 2007 for maths lesson tomorrow . DIE ! Forgotten all about it ><" Darn . Have to do it later I guess . But think I would give up halfway . Been sleeping early the past few days .

Been sketching these few days . No idea why . But I kept on sketching an umbrella . 

Idea behind it :

this is an umbrella . that would protect me from all the fears around . prevent all the tears from flowing . an umbrella that only shower love . where pain can never penetrate . i need such an umbrella now . an umbrella that can help me float . help me fly high over the skies . get away from all the pain and tears . all the pain ..

thanks joyce ! :D LOVE YA ! I really appreciate this . Made me smile like crazy but I'm not forgiving you for what you call me ! ><" 

(Above) What joyce pasted on the appreciation board . I love you my blur panda ! :D ps . its my finger :X thanks jeannette for taking it .

(Above) Message for me !

Message for ling lan . Plus . Linglan changed the content of it ! Joyce actually wrote ah lian but she canceled it and changed it to pretty girl instead . LOL .

(Above) Message for wen jia .

(Above) Confession of linglan's love for me :X

I LOVE YOU GUYS . Every single one . All these tiny and minor stuff . They make me smile . They cheer me up instantly (: I hope that I'm there like you're for me when you're down :D

the message i was trying to get across was that i still love you and im not going to give up and also i hope that you won't . its love alright . thats why i can't get over it . but i realised that what you really want is for me to give up . at least thats what i infer from everything that you do . well .. im seriously gona give up now . i don't want to cry anymore . even in lessons . its quite dumb actually . its time to move on and not drag you down together with me . its difficult not to feel sad when i see stuff that would remind me of those times we had together . but its no use now . its all too late . all i can do is to give up and learn to give up . i wonder when i would be able to accomplish that . to get used to and also overcome the pain i feel whenever i see stuff that would just make me cry ..

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Bought S.H.E's new album yesterday . Love it to bits ! :D Personally I feel that Tian Liang Le is a very nice song . A great rap there . People who haven't got their album . GET IT MAN ! I LOVE S.H.E. !! :D

dumb machine !

Edited @ 7.57pm

pardon me .

FUCK.

this misunderstanding is killing me .

i have a million answers right now.

but no guts at all ..

to say them out loud

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TODAY IS A "IM SO IRRITATED DAY !" by this idiotic photocopying machine -.- You seriously have no idea how long I SPENT WITH THAT MACHINE . Its bullying me man ! I just want to photocopy maths ! Its so difficult to even score an A for maths . Sense the irony here . I'm like TRYING to get a good grade for maths FINALLY . And suddenly this idiotic MACHINE here is preventing me to do so . Okok . I think this would never end :X

Well .. I think I'm getting a chocolate allergy . Pretty scary . It seems like whenever I eat ch0colate, I would get a stomache . I'm still trying to get to the bottom of the problem . But now it seems so . On the surface . I hope its not true of course ! CHOCOLATE ALLERGY ! Thats too scary . How do I live without them man . Kill me !

Oh yeahs . Physics lecture was a complete KILLER . Not the topic . Its the venue ! How do you expect people to pay attention when you're FEELING SO WARM ! We were like dying inside can . Ming Sheng was there laughing at me because he feels fine . Xing Jing Zi Ran Liang . Whack him sia . Then Yeow Keng being nice, was fanning us :X Jolene and me . I'm the third party . Get benefit only :P Mr Phang sat behind us . Then I was telling him " For the welfare of the pupils, you should fan us :X " He really tried to fan . In the end YangJie asked him question . So he went over . End of our free wind service ><"

Guess that was what really happened today . Yupp . There's a maths test tomorrow ! Got to study for it . And nope . I haven't got back my laptop yet so now I'm using house's desktop . Got to quickly use it before my brother comes home :P

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Isn't it funny ? Everyone who hasn't been in love before including me in the past would just so hope to be in a relationship . And now I seriously wished that I haven't been in . Then I wouldn't know how the aftermath is . But somehow, I wouldn't want to let go of all those memories . 

Everything seems to be a habit right now . And I feel pretty dumb . Wondering why am I the only one feeling all these . Then I wonder if I was the only one that was really in love . And perhaps the other party was just playing along . Sucks huh . Being the one that was really there . 

If the past me was here observing, she would only say one word . "Dumb . Why make yourself suffer ? Why would you even be the one ? Because if its me, I would make sure that I'm the one loved and not the one loving . If not I would end up like you . Trying to let go but it just doesn't seem to go your way . Struggling through everything that won't meant to be .."

I want to just let my mind control my heart right now ..

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Was listening to this song now . I guess it explains how I'm feeling right now ..

王心凌 - 因爲是你

第一次我发现自己可以这么坚定
不管别人怎么关心我就是爱你
我知道这样的决定也许有一点点任性
我只是忠于自己
爱情不是三言两语就可以说得清
有时一个眼神就能看透真心
虽然你也可以选择逃避或置之不理
但你知道的我还是会等你
别怀疑 我为什么爱你
就像云恋风风恋着雨
其实我也不太懂这是什么道理
我想这就好像呼吸
不用练习 因为是你
爱情不是三言两语就可以说得清
有时一个眼神就能看透真心
虽然你也可以选择逃避或置之不理
但你知道的我还是会等你
别怀疑 我为什么爱你
就像云恋风风恋着雨
其实我也不太懂这是什么道理
我想这就好像呼吸
不用练习 因为是你
别怀疑 我为什么爱你
就像云恋风风恋着雨
其实我也不太懂这是什么道理
我想这就好像呼吸
不用练习 因为是你

because its you im loving ..

and i realise that its not that i can't give up .

its me who don't want to .

i guess all i can do now is to only ..

wait 

until you understand ... 

what i'm trying to get across 

the answer is a question mark . nothing else .

Well . Starting off, photos of my dad birthday present ! :D Cool yeah ! xD Its a miniature mahjong set . 

This happened on saturday night . We took out the majong set and started playing . Suddenly my mum became really high and started to get obsessed with the game . Then she don't let us go . All of us were like nooo ~ I want sleep already . My dad was like faking that he's asleep at the sofa . Then my mum got really fed up and started scolding us . It was pretty hilarious :P

Then yesterday, met up with melvin and weiqin at coffeebean cafe . Drank white chocolate dream . Yummy ! :D Love it to bits . Gulp it down in like 10 minutes or something :X While melvin and weiqin finished theirs in like 1 hour ? :P 

Weiqin and Melvin were like getting distracted by this television near coffeebean . They started to keep staring at it . Then Melvin commented that he suddenly realised why did they retain . Its like they keep getting distracted by stuff all around them . Oh yeahs . Melvin is attracting females of the wrong ages . We were studying then suddenly there was this old lady who sat beside him and counted money . It was shocking ! But as usual, melvin gave that calm expression . I wonder when does he even get shocked or something . Always calm . 

Oh yeahs . Melvin "helped" me with my speech while I went to the washroom . When I came back, he had this long speech ready . Apparently my project is about PREVENTING fast food and somehow he came up with this brilliant idea to SUPPORT fast food . When he read it to me it was freaking hilarious . Weiqin and me were laughing like there's no tomorrow. Shall type it here next time .

After that we got chased out of coffeebean . After voting, weiqin's house was chosen . Went her house and studied . Tried to focus but we kept getting distracted and all . Oh yeahs . I saw lucy ! I miss her ! For people who don't know, lucy is a form of encouragement and I need it desperately lately . And I had a headache hence weiqin got me some sweets and milk chocolate for melvin . I was so tempted by it ! Melvin was like come on . One won't hurt . Then weiqin retorted that if I eat it I won't get to see tomorrow . Then Melvin gave that evil grin and said " one less competitor then ~" Whack sia ! So mean ! :P

Then Weiqin was asking melvin about economics question because we were studying for the test the next day which was today . Melvin was there using me as an example . I'm not a good okay ! Then he was like saying " You see arhs . Somehow don't know why, eng hwee's demand goes up .. blah blah " Want to hit him !

Before leaving her house, we went to check out her bedroom ! 

Weiqin's BEDROOM REVEALED ! :DD

The card that we made !! :D (above)

I LOVE THIS ! (above)

And this music book that I noticed when I went to toilet a couple of times . Apparently, she cut up her music scores, had no file and suddenly this inspiration and pasted all her scores on to the magazine . You wouldn't want to know what we saw inside :X

Well . After that, went home . Melvin was like trying to pyshco me to bring him home because he wants to check out the games my brother has x.x warhammer online .. world of warcraft x.x GUYS ! ><"

Okays . Next . Today was a pretty boring day I guess .

Had table tennis during PE ! Jolene was SO funny ! :P

Oh . During physics lesson, weiqin and I were going crazy . start forming equations like 2 x 2 = 1 . 5 x 3 = 4 . We were too high . Actually we are really tired but in order to not make ourselves fall asleep, we had to use this tatic . Make ourselves really high ! ><"

School ended with a chinese opera . The guy who volunteered was freaking funny . He was there trying out all the stuff .

Well . Thats all . Got to go ! Brother nagging . He wants to play his warhammer ! And I have to do my homework ! So .. CIAO ! :D

Again . I was stabbed . I finally understood the highest degree of pain where you would only feel numb . 

I want to resign to fate . But my heart leads me somewhere else .

Its some freaking ..

jealousy ..

Im feeling not vry fine right nw . n tis post would b filled with shortforms bcoz im usin my fone to blog .
firstly, currently not feeling fine because my peanut isn't .
secondly, .. its nt rly dat big of a deal . nop . it isnt . but i duno y somehow .. period .

today, studied with weiqin n mel . its rly nice to study with fwens .. sad that i was sick . gave them most of d time a black face . had a rly bad headache n most of d time felt like puking .

Until just nw i questioned myself what the hell is wrong with me . y m i sick for so long . i guess d heart affects d body yeah ? hahas . dam .. it sucks being physically n emotionally weak .

whatever it is . i just dun get it . contradictions . procrastination . tears arent a symbol of weakness . nop . it is . to me d hell it is . n i just cnt stop ..

i fkin hate myself . PERIOD .

free ..

Without the computer, its been a long time since I've sat in front of the television watching shows . Its almost like I'm entertaining myself with the television . Today was a warm day . Lots of sweating . The best thing that I've enjoyed was a good long bath ! So refreshing . I SO wana swim right now . Enjoy the cool water on my skin . 

Even now when I'm typing this post, I feel warm . Have to say I'm no longer that sick anymore . Already recovering . Completed only 1 question of integration thanks to shannon's help :P Its like TV the entire day . Transformed into a potato couch . Oh yeah . I created my own wave today . A penguin wave with a wavelength of 1.61m :X Wana know how it orignated ? Ask someone :X * hint : name is mentioned in this post *

Oh yeahs . Lastly, I saw s.h.e's new mv today ! LOVES ! :D The robot moves are soo cool man ! Gona buy their album ~ Oh wait . When have I not bought their albums ? :X Hehe ~ Oh plus . The person who uploaded it has jaejoong's picture as his or her youtube profile ! <33

S.H.E - Yu Zhou Xiao Jie

im glad that i've finally said what i've always wanted to say for so long .. and i'm actually feeling free now without bottling anything up anymore .

tweet tweet squeak squeak woof woof ..

I SNATCHED THE DESKTOP FROM MY BRO ! YAY !! Actually nope . Thats a lie . He's beside me now reading his "bible" or should I say the guide book artworks on the game WarHammer . Can't believe thate he actually spent 120 bucks on it . Give it to me and I will save it to buy a keyboard ! Darn ~ But since he "sacrifice" and let me use the desktop for a moment, I shall forgive him :X

Oh well . This shall be a short post as I only have 40% more time to type . 40% referring to 40 more % till his game loads finish and then he will shoo me off the desktop and have a new adventure ahead ~ It sucks without a computer . And I can't imagine it later . Guess I can only study and yupp . Nothing else .

Today was kind of a "should i go to school" day . Yesterday night, most of my friends were trying to persuade me not to go school but oh please . There's too much lessons to miss . Friday is a long day and I can't imagine me missing the lessons . I did intend to have early leave from school but forget it man . Undetermined . 

Walking to school with ling lan, joyce and wen jia always proves to be a happy experience because of joyce being so "cute" and all . Always doing some weird stuff that makes us laugh . Its quite weird actually . Almost everyday we will talk about our breaks and stuff and its like we can still compare it every week when we have done it last week ! Quite fascinating yeah ? Kind of dumb too .

During assembly, VP Luk was briefing us about the human condition . Well . To people who have no idea what this is . And after inference from what he was saying I think it means human traits . One of the examples he gave was about the technical assistant not able to make it for work because her family member was sick . And he said that this is human condition and hence he understands . 

I guess he meant that human have traits that other species don't have . We have this perplexed brain which is able to have all kinds of feelings mixed into one . Most of the time people wonder why would human beings respond to different situations and I guess this is what he meant by the human condition . And some times we just have to sacrifice some things to make other things possible isn't it .

Sacrificing is just part and parcel of life . Yet sacrificing ain't that easy . To be able to sacrifice some time to do other stuff is what we call opportunity cost . But the point is that its not just about money, its about our feelings, the environment all rolled into one . By sacrificing something, you might have caused a domino effect . As in maybe you have already set a date with your friend but due to family matters, you won't be able to make it . And hence thats the "opportunity cost " . Not only you won't be able to spend time and enjoy the date with your friend, your friend would also not be able to spend time with you . And also maybe there might be other factors . 

Okay . Lets get back ! x.x Digressing too much . Well . Project work lesson was a "I HAVE A HEADACHE AND I WANT TO SLEEP " lesson . We were discussing about our OP plan and everything . 

Physics lecture was fun as usual . I just love the lectures conducted by Mr Leong . He's just so good . He doesn't really do anything special but somehow we would be absorbed into the lecture and also everything he teaches . Weird huh . Sometimes teachers try so hard and get nothing in the end but I think that he is just enjoying what he is doing . Or maybe its the age gap :X Jolene "sabo-ed" RenZhi today . Forgot what he did . Then Jolene went to volunteer RenZhi during the lecture to answer questions . Pretty hilarious . The best part was when he was showing us young's double slit experiment . So when you shine the laser through the slits, there would be bright spots on the screen . Jennifer was helping to conduct the experiment for the torchlight case where rainbow colours would be seen on the screen . As Mr Leong is tall . but not really that tall, something really "mean" happened :X Xue Er was like saying " Lift it higher " . And Jennifer being blur really lifted the torch . In the end, Mr Leong wasn't able to reach the spots on the screen . Its was so hilarious :X But oh well ..

Then was 2 HOURS OF COMPUTING ! Mdm Myl apparently CAN'T remember my name . She called me han wee . Like -.- Han Wee is a guy's name can ? Then next worse, chee wee . HELLO ! CHEE WEE ! Insulted me throughly :X And finally with the help of others, she got my name right . She wanted me to sit in front as I was blocked by many people behind . So yupp .

Then was chinese . The more I feel like sleeping ._. I HATE CHINESE MAN ! x.x ~

Break . Finally I felt like eating :D Ate hor fan . Some dam crappy thing happened.  Xue Er, Jolene's "doggy" hid my bag in Jolene's bag . So until the end of break I was still looking for it . Then I was so anxious and all . Xue Er finally revealed it in the end . Its so dumb la . Jolene was like telline me don't worry . Her doggy will help me find my bag later . Yeah . Using her good sense of smell x.x 

Project work lesson . Finally got our OP plan out . Gave comments for each group's presentation and all . After our presenation, Yang Jie was like saying that we have to make sure we don't get sore throat during OP if not we would die . I was like . Eh I having sore throat now okays . And I thought that my level of loudness was fine . Then my group members said you're different . What sia . Lols . Chen Hong is my pet "doggy" now :X His name is bobbie . He named himself . Then Ms Mok asked us to put our bags on the floor so I asked him to . So he replied " Being your dog, you should help me . " I rolled my eyes and said " HELLO ! Jolene's dog can even help her print notes . " He was like " WHAT ?! " and obediently placed his bag on his lap . *smirks* Oh yeah . He created a new species for dogs . Exotic Cockroach Dog . I said that he was a shaggy dog . But he don't want that and said that he wants to ask the SPCA to catch me for possessing an exotic animal and hence naming himself a "cockroach dog" .

After project work lesson, Melvin was dam lame . We were finishing up our last bit of physics h1 paper when he suddenly shrieked as he realised he was the only guy and was surrounded by all girls . Being bored, I commented that there was another guy with us and giving jolene that "look" . She retorted " you very free hor . must shoot me " . I was like laughing away and with the others joining in . Then, I needed my superposition notes so I asked her to pass me my bag . She demanded me to say that she is a girl before she is willing to help me . So I agreed and said that " Melvin is the only guy here " and she finally helped me . Melvin started teasing her " so you gona pass her her bag with one hand and then say nah " . At that moment, it was damn funny because she was supposed to be a girl . Eh no . I meant she IS a girl . Okay fine . Never mind .

Then went for physics tutorial . I realised that friday's tutorial is always so short ! Its like we didn't even go through much and the lesson ended ! x.x 

Walked to the mrt with WeiQin, Jeannette and Jolene . Oh yeah . Jeannette is my pet black mouse named Jeanie originally . But now she is squeaky in tie with WeiQin who is my pet bird . Her name is tweety . They make noises like tweet tweet and squeak squeak . Dam cute . When jolene was leaving, Jeannette was like trying to say bye by squeaking . She gave this really long and fully pronunced " SQUEEAKK ~ " . We ended up in laughter .

Went home and slacked till now . Gona study later . Oh well . BYE PEOPLE :D

Its a guessing game with millions of answers . And somehow, I just can't predict any . I'm lost for words . I have no idea what I should do . Its contradictuve how I feel happy when I see you smile but also feel disappointed that I'm no longer the cause of it ..

Forgot to mention . Later bro gona bring laptop for repairs ! Hence, not going to be online unless I manage to snatch the desktop away from him . So till the laptop is back .. I'll be struggling to survive without a computer ! And I'm going to be SOOO bored . I would love a sms so much ~ :P sms me anytime ! Without a computer as distraction, I would reply REALLY FAST ! I swear ! ><"

confusion ..

600th post ..

im moving towards this unknown destination which i hope is what i want and now without any support . its gona get difficult . but its going to get better right ? its all a superficial maturity . i know whatever i typed was contradictive . nop . i coulnd't move on nor could i stay at the same spot .

Taiyou ga mikata suru hi ni yaketa kimi ga te wo furu kara
Kitai shiten da yakusoku no kisetsu ni tobikomu ningyo mitai ni

Kousha no sumi ni himawari ga saku terete bakari ja kakko warui ne
Aozora ni ima sakebitai hodo kimi wo omotteru

Natsu ga kuru kara umi e ikou yo
Chotto dake tachi tomatte mayou hi mo aru kedo

Hekomu mainichi torimodosu hibi kimi ni atte waraiatte
Hajimaru yo natsu yasumi lan la lan la~

Hashiri dashita senaka ni wa uso no nai kimochi ga utsuru kara
T shatsu no mukou gawa kira kira kagayaku mahou mitai da

Hanabi no oto ni kaki kesareteru kimi no kotoba ga yokaze to kawaru
Kanjin na koto kikoenai kedo wakari aesou sa

Ah long long long time machi kogareta
Seishun tte hon no chotto ijiwaru dayo ne

Hekomu mainichi torimodosu hibi kimi ni atte waraiatte
Hajimaru yo natsu yasumi lan la lan la~

Sunahama ni suwari konde futari de tokei ki ni shiteita
Nami no oto kiki nagara yakusoku nante dekinai mama

Natsukashiku naru itsuka kanarazu
Suna ni kaita mirai nante ate ni dekinai

Hekomu mainichi torimodosu hibi kimi ni ate waraiatte
“Makka na buruu da”

Natsu ga kuru kara umi ni kitan da
Niji ni natta ano sora wo wasuretakunai

Hekomu mainichi torimodosu hibi kimi ni atte waraiatte
Hajimaru yo natsu yasumi lan la lan la~

The sun is on my side because you’re waving to me, suntanned and all
Have been anticipating this Diving like a mermaid into the season of promises

In a corner of the school grounds the sunflowers are blooming Just being shy will look uncool
To the extent of wanting to yell into the blue sky now I’m thinking of you

Summer is here so let’s go to the sea
Though there may be days where we stop in our tracks and feel lost just for a second

Disheartening days Revitalizing days Meeting you and laughing together
The summer holidays are beginning lan la lan la~

Because true emotions are reflected upon the back of my running figure
It shimmers on the other side of my T-shirt just like magic

Your words which are being drown out by the sounds of the fireworks, dissolve into the night breeze
Can’t hear the important details but I seem to know what it is

Ah long long long time I have been longing for this
Youth is something which is a teeny bit mean isn’t it

Disheartening days Revitalizing days Meeting you and laughing together
The summer holidays are beginning lan la lan la~

Sitting on the sandy shores Both of us taking notice of the time
Hearing the sound of the waves and being unable to make any promise at all

Definitely will feel nostalgic someday
Can’t depend on the future written in the sand

Disheartening days Revitalizing days Meeting you and laughing together
“It’s a bright red-blue”

Because summer is here we came to the sea
Don’t wish to forget that sky where the rainbow has formed

Disheartening days Revitalizing days Meeting you and laughing together
The summer holidays are beginning lan la lan la~

(Credits - YUI-lover’s uchihamel) 

splitting headache

Freaking headache . Seriously I hate it man . My brother is like pissing me off every second . While I'm supposed to take a nap and finally rest, he was listening to music so loud . Making my fever even worse . During dinner, he was nagging and nagging . He just can't stop . He's even naggier than my mum . Just because he go to NS doesn't mean he have the right to nag me and my mum . Its complete nonsensical . 

Have to complete physics paper later . Thinking if I should even go to school tomorrow . I feel so sick . And this stupid headache my brother caused me to have . All the stupid demands he give . Can't he just put himself in my position right now ? I think he's trying to raise my temperature to 39.2 degrees . Good job there . Might as well just kill me so I won't need to listen to you at all .

 

I could just fall asleep typing this right now . So tired . The nap that I'm supposed to have was completely destroyed by my brother .

I wonder what you're thinking and what am i in your eyes . Its hard to bear hope when there's no one supporting u on . When there is no answer in the end . If only it could be that simple . A yes or no question and also an answer that I want . If the answer is not what I want to hear, i would give up right now so that my disappointment won't be that bad . And also stop my hopes from getting higher . 

Contradictive huh . Because if thats really so .. I have no idea how I would feel .. Yet I don't want to go on with a false piece of hope ..

Fever ! 38.2 Degrees ><"

Whee ~ 38.2 degrees . Shouldn't have went to school today . Was feeling really sick in the morning but there were important lessons in school hence I couldn't skip it . Now I can even feel that my eyelids are really warm ><" Darn .. It sucks being sick plus a fever . 

Today went to school floating. Lucky I didn't went for pe or else I would be in the hospital right now instead of being here . Rope skipping was hilarious . There was this girl in front of us getting nearer . Then pras started getting really nervous, afraid that she would hit us with the rope hence she went up to her and tell her to move in front . Then in the end causing the girl to give up and stop skipping .  

Chinese was complete boredom I guess . Teacher gave us a break and I fell asleep . Was so tired . And somehow felt that the room was cold . I think I'm really sick . 

Break was more of a chit chat . Didn't eat . Seriously, when you are sick, there's nothing edible for you . 

Maths lecture was more integration . Thanks to doing my tutorial worksheets during lecture, managed to get 4/5 for integration test during tutorial :D Got back my test paper . Poor score . your smile . its too contagious .. i just can't help smiling too .. 

Ate an apple during break again . Had a meeting with my pw group to complete the OP worksheet . Quite sloppily done though . Couldn't focus ><" Darn ~ Was feeling really sick . Guess what . I refilled my water bottle 4 times today . Which means I drank 5 litres of water already ! Record ><" But I need the water ! Need to get the toxins out of my body .

When I went home, it was really literally "floating" . The heat was unbearable . And here I'm now . Bathed already . But really tired . Guess I'm going to take a nap first then wake up to complete my homework .

Lala ~ Bro nagging . Like whatever . zZ ..

you lift my spirits with your smile totally .. 

sick ..

Tired ! Today was a tiring day I guess . Went to school with a bad sorethroat . In the morning I was using hand signals to communicate with others and proved the theory that my class people are bad with hand signs :X ling lan . cheer up . i don't know what happened but once tears are shed, a better tommorow will come .

Lucky me . There was no weekly test in the morning hence for the 4 hour break for the entire school . Did some maths, revised a little for the test . Jolene brought mooncake to school today . Weiqin have this pyschology problem :X she has a phobia for mooncakes . LOL . weird huh :X I LOVE SNOWSKIN ICECREAM MOONCAKE ( CHOCOLATE ) . 

Got back my chinese test results today . Quite disappointed but already expected it . It was the best and the worst I ever got . My chinese idioms dragged me down totally . Mingsheng said that I should try and break down into each indiviual word but the point is . Even in their indiviual forms, I don't recognize them . They are a total foreign being to me . Got 77/100 . If I didn't count in the chinese idioms, I would have gotten 51/60 . Hence, demoralized totally . My chinese seriously ain't up to the mark yet . Gotta work harder then .

After that was break . Didn't eat again . Studied maths again . Oh yeah . Did I mention ? I have maths class test hence I was studying . The entire break didn't eat at all . Just don't have the appetite partly because I was sick and .. Well . Not much to type about for break . i missed how i normally go through wednesday breaks and felt that they were too short . yet now . it seems forever .

Computing lesson was quite .. shocking in some sense . We just got a shock of our life that we still have another huge topic to cover for promos . Its totally madness . How am I supposed to squeeze so much into this tiny brain of mine ? I need some help here ! haix ..

Maths was .. Well . No words to describe at all including the test . Have to say I ain't prepared at all . Forget it . I seriously feel like giving up on myself but when I think of that, the word "retain" would just float in my mind and motivate me to try harder . Then mr wen went through some questions on integration by parts . Total blurness . high hopes would only bring about disappointment .

Dance . Thanks to Candice, we managed to get this little theory about what we were doing during warm ups . Because of the lack of time during practises when the instructor was with us, we couldn't manage to figure out the purpose for each warmup and hence slacked on them . In the end defeating all the intended purpose . She made me realised how INFLEXIBLE I am . But I'm going to work hard ! She've taught us how to practise harder and of course next year during SYF, do our best :D Go dance !

Went to play basketball . Actually didn't want to play but was tempted by linglan and janelle . Anyways congratulations to yj girls team . They won DeYi secondary . Heard from linglan that deyi was really strong . Anyways back to the topic . We played pressure . Thanks to luck, I was one of the last one standing with wen jia . But she eventually emerged as the winner . Guess all of us owe her a drink . Free drinks ! :X

Then went home . On the way home saw linglan's eyecandy and qinaide . Hence walking home together . Just realised that linglan's qinaide lives in sembawang too . But another part hence I've never seen her before . But oh well :D Made 2 new friends today . Linglan's eyecandy lives in BukitTimah . SO FAR ! It kills me to just travel to school . If it's me, I wouldn't sacrifice the sleep . NO WAY ! :P

Now I'm back home refreshed after a cooling bath and of course a filling dinner . The second meal I'm eating for the day . I guess I do eat three meals per day . First meal is breakfast is the morning, next is dinner and then fruits ! :D

I'M STILL SICK ! And its getting worse . I deserve it :X

its alright . i can get over this missing, with all my friends nearby . i've learnt that high hopes would only bring about disappointment . hence it really hurt today . but who can live without a single piece of hope right ? this hope of mine would always resides in my heart and hope that one day, it would get fulfiilled . Till then ~