Haha...me changing blogskin soon..u all must be bored always looking at the same old thing...haha...i also duno what type of blogskin i will chAnge to..but i will change..really...never bluff...

sad again lor..feeling insecure again..juz feeling tt everyone dun care bout me..i feel like i m juz a extra person on earth..nobody needs me like a fren liddat..i duno..it seems like only other ppl have right to persuade ppl not me..everybody have to make choices..u have to think bout both sides of each choice..e good and bad side..and it means tt u may gain from e choice or other ppl around u will gain..if u thik tt other ppl r more important then u yourself den make e choice tt other ppl gain from it..but if make both choices..i think u r just trying to runaway from the problem..coz it will surface again after sometime..it is just like being sick..if u eat e medicine of coz u will get well but if u dun wanna eat e medicine just bcoz of it is not tasty or others..u will get worse..ur illness will get worse..so make e real choice tt u want..coz u might regret ur choice..and sometimes u wanna live for others not for urself..when u feel like tiz..dere will b a problem coz u will b ignoring ur wants and ur needs..if u think bout urself onli..dere will also b a problem coz u will start to think that everything u do u should be gaining from it...so u will start to ignore others...and things around u coz u think u r e most important in ur life not others...so u shld just balance it..and make sure that u gain from e choice and e ppl around u gain it too..what u shld do is do wat u reali think shld b right and try to fufill another one next time..tts my advice to ppl hu r troubled at making choices..

Now is holidays le..feeling more and more extra..think tt ppl onli dun need me..i m just living for nth..tiz is call insecure i noe..i m scared tt i will lose my frens...and scared tt i will start losing ppl tt love me..as a fren...i reali duno..i m just confused..i feel that i m not a person tt ppl need to b concened of..i m so sad.. so confused of my own thoughts..it is like i dun need to know what others think or what i think coz it wun make a difference as nobody cares..I feel so left out..tts e thing..left out..its like i m smth tt is left a side for very long as i m not needed..
i reali hope other ppl dun treat me as if i m not dere or ignore me..plz share ur problems if u have..i will surely help u and i reali hope tt u all will help me when i m troubled and need help from u guys...

Today is Chi wei's bday..So juz wanna wish her a happy bday on my blog..um..feel tt alot of ppl r trying to avoid me..duno y..if u noe plz tell me k..wun be angry..promise..

Haiz..

So sian..today nth to do lor..so write a post..also nobody tag my board so sian leh...so waiting for someone to tag lor..no comments so sian..so always go me e blog its e same ting except got many posts tt i made onli..haha..anyway..e frenster ar. after maintenance nobody got testi le..so sad..my 70+ testis all gone..nvm..my last time e pri sch fren found out den tell me immediately and write a testi for me..so happee..and so touched so i wrote one for her also lor..so glad i have a fren like her..hehe
so hope u all will drop by mine and write a testi for me also k..and if u write one for me i will surely write one for u de k..thz..

~Trying not to be sad~

listening to the song graduation day(frens forever) sang by vitamin c..actuali no matter it is leaving our school to another school anot..i mean like we are promoted from one year to another year..we will still miss our happy moments together..those moments that we never regretted doing..those moments or things that cannot be done again..

e lyrics of the song->

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels




1 - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with a tan
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat 1

La, la, la, la…
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la…
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Repeat 1 (3x)

It was coz of u and me..that was y dey created tiz song...

Flu and cough...

Ah..today got flu and cough..so sick already..haiz..so can't go choir..so..maybe god gave me a day to think bout myself..my life..e year in sec 1 or maybe my whole lifetime..time passes by so fast..it seems so slow yet so fast..it seems like it was only p6 ytd..well,everybody must grow up right..but sometimes i really wish that we will never grow up..never to have more troubles..but actually i tink it isalso a good ting..make us feel that..that..i mean we get another expereince or shld i say a different..a feeling to be sec 1..to be somebody..to be in tiz world..today i wonder wat if i never met all of my frens..wat if i didn't went into tiz school..maybe the things i regretted i would perhaps nv have a chance to regret..or perhaps i would not have so much happy moments..i duno..just hope someone is looking at all e posts i added