wanted to change my blogskin . but i was well .. too lazy =X its always like this ! do until halfway then forget it . wait till im free again then i do or something :D now im reading newspapers . yupp . you didn't read wrongly . in fact i find reading newspapers more interesting . =pp

oh yeahs . i realised that there is another version of " when you look me in the eyes " by ashley tisdale and zac efron. the lyrics changes a little but its almost the same . but its seems nicer to me . because they are like singing in a form of duet or something :l



When you look me in the eyes

Oh, yeah, oh, yeah


If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I never make it on my own


Dreams can't take
The place of loving you
There's gotta be a million reasons
Why it's true


When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side


When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes


How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
In the best way that I can


I can't take a day without you here
You're the light that make my darkness disappear


When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side


When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes


Movin' on, I start to realize
I can reach my tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
And it's all because you're by my side


When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side


When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just got to let you know
I never wanna let you go


'Cause when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's alright
When you're right here by my side


When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes, oh, yeah, ah


* continues reading the sunday times *

wow ! i didn't know that actually if you need an organ transplant though you have different blood types, u can still have the operation . this practice have been first done in sweden in the 1970s then progressed to Japan and other countries . This guy who has different blood type which is O+ would be receiving his wife's kidney but her bloodtype is A+ . The operation is risky and there is a chance that his body rejects the transplanted kidney . but since there's a chance . why not try it :D good luck to them tho xDD

cigarette peddlers in geylang caught . A box of cigarettes sold is 5 - 6 bucks which is cheaper than whats sold in singapore by half . But Seriously its like whats the point of buying from them although its cheaper and stuff . Smoking is bad for health ! The best way to save money is not to smoke at all isn't it >.>" If u want me to list all the harm smoking does to you it would be endless . If u want me to list the good thing about smoking .. i can't even think of one .

3 cats die from suspected thinner dousing ! They were found in pasir ris . These cats have died with blood in their mouths and nostrils ! Call spca if you now anything ! 6287-5355 . People who abuses cats . Nope . people who abuses all kinds of living things are inhuman ! they are living things too ! they can feel the pain too you know ! you should treat them with love instead ! =DD

People . we better start to buckle up our seat belts if you don't want to lose your life and cause your parents to die . Because its says here that .. if the car is traveling at 80kmh when it crashes, the dynamic force of the backseat passengers can weigh several tonnes . omg . imagine if you do not put on the seat belt . not only you harm yourself you also risk your parents sitting in front . I confess that im always lazy to strap the seat belts . but from now . for safety sake . i think i would buckle it on ! ><" And people sitting in front beside the driver seat i mean . if you do not buckle your seat belt when accident happens, do not think that the airbag would be safe enough to save your life . because it says that the airbag could hurt you instead as you are not in the correct position . means you're too front . and when the airbag appears it will in the end hurt you x.x thats scary . cool . something that links to my project . hahas . junk food ! students stop eating so much junk food ! this article talks about students buying junk food from minimart next door because school canteen doesn't sell them . thats scary x.x and its says here that they are primary school students . oh well . its true that school canteen should ban them as a healthy diet starts from when you're young right ? cool . maybe next time we should just sell nutrient tablets instead . imagine all your meals are tablets but you still get the same nutrition you need daily . oh yeah . then you would not complain about having short breaks . because you only need to pop pills . unless you tell me you need half an hour to pop like 5 pills into your mouth ? =l oh well .. go and eat breakfast now xDD

i doubt you notice me or even care ... im tried of guessing . ain't strong enough i guess . perhaps i would just give up ..

was reading joyce's blog just now . 165cm yeah joyce . are you sure =X LOL . really wanted to type what happened here . but you see . Joyce is my GOOD friend and i shouldn't ruin her reputation . those that want to know go and ask her personally xDD hehe .

okays . the long awaited PARTYWORLD PICTURES ! and of course not forgetting the VIDEOS !


singing by chee wee and shun yu ..


singing by zi yan . he was really shy when i wanted to take a video . but he sing really very nice ! :DD



Jas and me !! =DD smiles !!



Another picture ! hehe :DD



All of us after the singing ! jas and me agreed that WE DID NOT get enough of singing . 3 hours . i mean 4 hours is like NOT ENOUGH ! while walking home jas and me were like still singing :DD



Zhi Peng ! Don't you all miss his goofinesses P07 ? :D



Taken by Zi yan this time :DD SMILES PEOPLE !!



us going home ! so sad ! i wanted to spend more time with everyone ! especially jas ! missed the times of P07 ! :DD

yesterday night i was FREAKED out totally by a cockroach in my mum's toilet . i was just like going in when i saw this MONSTER with its feelers . oh my god . i shrieked and ran out of the toilet and the fastest speed . i think even faster than shuttle run . It was SO SCARY . i mean come on la ! its gross and all . my mum was like totally giving me the " lame " face . seriously . i live on the sixteen floor . for the cockroach to appear in my house it is really skilled in climbing or something .

Apparently i think it got shocked by my high pitch scream, when my mum went back to check with my maid . They could not find a trace of it anywhere . But i was totally freaked out ! i stayed in the living room which was really far from the bedrooms for like 3 whole hours till my mum achieved success of finding the cockroach .

In the meantime i was chatting on msn while my mum was finding the cockroach . Ling lan and shannon was having fun laughing at me . Ling lan was like saying come on la . its just a cockroach . whats so scary . you dam funny la you . LING LAN U DIDN'T SEE IT OF COZ U NOT SCARED LA ! Both of them said that maybe later at night it would be appearing in my room and worse off on my bed sleeping with me though they were in different conversations . Some people are just similar in some evil ways huh ! ><" Below is a photo taken before chinese lesson .

Oh yeah . For those who have not seen this before . Its the RETAINEE PLEDGE OF YJC ! scribbled on the table . For those that cannot see clearly it says :

We drunk,
We flunk,
We sunk,
soon ..
We stand,
We withstand,
We understand.

Cool yeah . not that i want to be part of them but its really cool xDD


forgot when this was taken but its really cute ! yang jie's friend erasers !

its jeannette's soft toy eating macdonalds ! hehe !


joyce playing guitar while jolene is acting as a stand =p



My favourite mogu mogu grape drink ! its really nice and everyone should try it . i think its only available in cold storage in d fruit juice section :DD

today morning before going to physics make up lesson in school went to have breakfast with weiqin at sembawang mac :D yummy ! a good breakfast is needed to focus in lessons !

we were late as usual =X for me i guess . since im always late ><" today's physics lesson was planned with much effort by mr phang . he had this game with slides and all . Who wants to be a millionaire but in physics aspect . so both classes 112 and 102 would compete with one another and the victorious class would get a box of chocolates from him .

at first we had the fastest fingers first to get the first contestant . Xue er sent in her sms first and she got the answer correct . But the point was she didn't even know how to answer the first question . In the end we sabotaged melvin and he exchanged places with her . Melvin got lots of questions correctly without using the helpline . I was glad that i was able to answer most of the quesions ^^

102 was really clever and they won us . congratz ! we learnt a lot today . in the end they still offered us chocolates to share . so nice of them :DD

after physics lessons, ibrahim and syaf were armed with the class list to ask jeannette and wei qin and some others who have not taken the class poll . with questions like who's the hottest guy in class and stuff . I was like forcing answers into jeannette's mouth and all =X hope the results would be out soon then we would post it in our class's blog ! :DD yeah !

12am

" Hello ?! Heys ! Jacq ! You there ? "
Silence. hm .. weird . could it be that her phone had ran out of battery ?
I dialed Jacq's house phone number in a hurry.
" Hello ? Is Jacq at home ? "
" .. Jacq . She .. She has fainted . Uh .. we are sending her to the hospital right now .. " Upon hearing that, my heart skipped a beat. Fainted ? What happened . She was fine a moment ago .
On the way to the hospital, i prayed for her well-being. I was seriously starting to get worried . Images of Jacq suffering in pain flashed through my mind. No. She would be fine . Stop scaring yourself, Jaryl !
" She's not in critical condition anymore but i'm afraid she only has 1 more week to live .. " the doctor's voice trailed out of my head. ONE week ? I bet the doctor is kidding. This can't be . No it can't ..
Jacq's mother broke down in tears. She was pulling her husband's sleeve not believing what she had just heard. Her silent whimpers continued in loud wails of crying. All her husband could do was to hold her tight and comforted her though he himself was still in shock. I could see tears welling up in his eyes.
Nope . Am i dreaming? How could all these be possible. This afternoon during our date she was still fine. She was healthy and well . She was NOT like this now. With a heart so pure how could god end her life so early ? That's too selfish . She's not even 17 yet . My heart stopped. Could it be God's playing ? In one week's time is Jacq's 17 birthday. And yet she have to face death . This must be God's doing. Tears cascaded down my cheeks. Wake up Jaryl ! Jacq should be feeling worse right now. And as a boyfriend what are you doing . You shouldn't be here blaming her fate but be beside her to give her support . Show her our concern !
I breathed in, deep. I braced myself up and approached to the door of her room. Silently, i peered inside.
" JARYL ! You're here ! I'm so sorry ! I'm sure i made you really worried. Come over here and sit down. " She patted the spot on her bed. In disbelief, I staggered towards her. She must be feeling really terrible . How could she still put up a false front ? Daryl ! You ought to be ashamed by yourself. Even your girlfriend is stronger than you ! I wiped the shocked look from my face . Looking at her pale face, it tore my heart. I could feel my heart breaking . It's really difficult to accept the fact that she's going to be non-existent in this world just 7 days from now . Just mere 7 days.
Time. Never enough i guess. I'm not going to let myself be weak . As long as I'm here i have to be her wall. I have to be strong. From this point onwards it would all be joy and laughter . No sad memories . No more of them.
I spent the night in the hospital with her singing for her. Songs that we both loved since the time we were together. I closed my eyes when i finally believed that she has fallen asleep. Then, i felt her cold hands on my shoulder. She was whimpering softly. I could hardly make out the words that she was muttering. All i could hear were " Jaryl .. sorry . I couldn't show my true front to .. sorry " after that it ended with uneven sobs . I tried my best to pretend i was sleeping . My heart was shattering into pieces. Finally i couldn't contain my tears. I hugged her tight and we cried all the whole night till dawn arrived and fell asleep.
Every day was spent because i wanted happy memories till the last day . I want her to go in peace. I want her to leave this world in a smile.
2nd May 2008 . The day has arrived . Just these 7 days . I tried my best to give whatever i could to her . I gave all my love . Today would be a day filled with love till the end . The last hour, the last minute, the last second.
" Jaryl , could we sit the ferris wheel tonight ? I really wanted to sit it together with you"
"Sure jacq . I'll go buy the tickets. no worries . Pick you up at 11pm tonight ok ? "
" Thanks Jaryl "
11pm sharp. I waited outside her house. She trotted out from her house in her beautiful white dress. The one i commented once that i really loved it . She remembered till now . Sourness filled my soul. The feeling of sadness could almost overcome me in this moment. No . Get a grip on yourself . What she needs now is memories with you . Happy ones.
Looking down and with her in my arms i wished that time would stop forever . Yet i knew deep down in my heart this naiveness would never come true.
11.55pm . 5 more minutes . Suddenly something struck me . 7 days . But the doctor is not god. How could he have predicted her death . How accurate can it be?
Yet still i hugged her tighter. Deep down below i knew i doubted myself too.
" Jaryl . Thanks . For everything.. " Her voice trailed off as she touched her lips to mine. Closing my eyes i returned her kiss. I could feel her energy draining away.
12am sharp . My shoulders suddenly lost the touch of her hands. I opened my eyes. All i could see was her smile . A smile deep from the heart.

" The one left in the world would be made to suffer,
yet the one that has left would attain happiness in heaven... "

today went to part world ! not gona insert pictures . because apparently im using the desktop now and it does not have pc suite . so when i get back my laptop tomorrow then i just upload the pictures and VIDEOS ! :DD

went to party world with jaslyn, chee wee , zhi peng , zi yan and shun yu . dam funny la . that stupid chee wee keep giving comments when we singing . comments to the lyrics i mean . dam crap .

den we picked the song bu de bu ai and i forced zi yan to sing the girl part while i sing the guys part =p he sing dam nice la . and he can sing so high ! :DD

well . hope that my singing didn't suck and beocme noise pollution . but overall it was fun . maybe with the pictures i can blog better . i will update them tomorrow .

when i was on the bus home i saw liamg jie and jia hua . both of them were like complaining say i no sincerity . didn't invite them to the dance concert . but even if i invite u all wouldn't go right . lols . after jia hua went down the bus liang jie was like saying . wa lao . u talk lehs . don't like so awkard like new friends like that . then i was like come on la . the unatural person is u ! hahas . oh yeah . he got the same phone as me sia . say i copy him . please la . is u and jia ying copy me la =x oh . then it was dam stupid la . he ask me to give him my number then in the end i go save his name >.>" AND HE SAW IT ! he was like what are you doing . then jia hua was adding oil to fire . imagine eng hwee later save your number as eng hwee . then when she call you she say hello eng hwee arhs . idiotic sia . im just too tired so i made these kind of mistakes . LOL ><"

hahas . missed all the crappyness we had in secondary school !

yays ! good news ~! my brother told me the laptop would be repaired by tomorrow so NO MORE without laptop days . its hard to survive without a computer you see . i mean its like me without a limb ~ computer IS my social life . i don't know since when i hated chatting using smsing . its some kind of weird disease i developed overnight or something. now im so proud of my handphone bill because my sms has dropped to 300 ! its a OMG for me when i was in secondary school . i mean last time 1000 is already pathetic . i had to use 2000 last time . now its like 300 . i guess its mainly because my phone makes it hard for me to sms . when i use the keypad, it feels uncomfortable . and its heavy ! makes my fingers tired easily . so i rarely sms now .

now its all in the computer . i can type much faster using msn to chat . moreover my class uses msn everyday seriously . so we live with msn while doing our daily chores . its cool yeah . its our reliance on computers and of course the internet . its kind of funny . this relates back to what vp luk said when launching wireless in our school . we are digital natives . means when we are born, we are already in the world of technology . and we can't live without it . i understand that COMPLETELY . i mean who can live without electronic stuff ?

just to name some on a student . The first obvious item is their handphones . Next mp3 players . which student doesn't have one ? and digital watches ? unless you say that you carry a clock around . and now for jc and poly students its their laptop too . imagine ! just a student and you carry SO MUCH stuff with you . i remember reading a newspaper article about how much valuable stuff they carry with them . i counted mine and i was really shocked !

if i counted everything .. my bag , watch , handphone , itouch , nike shoes .. i think it has overshot $1000 . suddenly i become so aware of myself . no wonder dad was always saying that we must be careful of our valuables . i mean COUNT IT YOURSELF ! you would realise that YOU CARRY MORE THAN $500 on you . im sure . just count it . its getting freaky . i think i must wear saftey gear out from home from now on or something !

oh yeahs . just read joyce's blog . this is really funny ! check it out :D

Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One to design the new bulb, one to manufacture and test it out, one to write a proposal on it and one to market it.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They can study without light.

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’re too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They’ll rather use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a light bulb is in the first place and to demonstrate how to change the light bulb. (So how do you think they’re able to change it for ACJC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’ll prefer it to be darker. (Hmmmm?*raises eye-brows*)

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they made their macho male physics teacher cry.

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Would they even bother?

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Huh, what litebarb?

Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to get promoted.

Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are Innovians. They’ll find ways out of the dark.

Q: Don't you guys wonder who wrote this?
A: TJC!

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change the light bulb?
A: None. They think they are very bright already.

Q: How many PJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Heck the light bulb lah, the principal would do something about the rightbarbs. Let’s do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.

after reading this i was laughing like mad . i mean its really funny . but this is just a joke so don't be offended people . don't take it to heart . i mean im also laughing at yjc's part . funny yeah xD

oh yeahs . if you're wondering why my posts these days are all words because im TOO LAZY to install pc suite into the desktop . so till my laptop is back . photos would not be updated . unless i use bluetooth .. but nah . im too lazy . come on . give me a break sometimes =x

finally my long waited dance is tomorrow . i hope that we will learn hip-hop soon ! AHHH ! im just like waiting and waiting . oh anyways . thanks everyone again who went to the dance concert ! because of the great response from everyone the dance club can continue to dance modern dance and not change back to chinese dance :DD so thanks again !!

later im going to partyworld with jas chee zi yang and maybe shun yu . ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I SEE JAS !! missed ya so much . school without you is just borinng =x not saying that the others are boring . i mean jolene, jeannette, shannon and the others are fun .. but if you're around perhaps it would just be better a lot :DD cyas later jas ! TAKE PICTURES YEAH ! :DD loves !

what i really need these days is someone to talk to . someone to listen to me . someone to hold on to me when i fall . really feel like crying yet no one is there ..