Guess what . Jolene just sent a text to me saying that she would arrive in Sembawang mrt station in 13 MINUTES ! Which is Oh My PENGUIN ! But the point is that I'm still here ! Oh well . 5 minutes walk up to the mrt . Should be fine ~

Going engineering quest later . NUS ~! The place we got lost when we went for maths trail . Good luck to us . I hope we end up in the same group . Ain't really in the mood to make friends lately . Been tired . Really tired . Emotionally I guess . 

Been blog hopping earlier because Jas was complaining that I ain't reading her blog :X But I DID . Its just that I can't remember what I read . And the point is I can't even remember what I type in my posts . Most of the time when I read their tags, I have to read my blog post again . Darn . I'm getting older .

17 . I feel so old seriously . What happen to the I'm so young ? Can't believe every year passes so quickly . Then I will hit university where the peak of my life appears . Then family, old age . And DEATH . Everything just happens so fast ain't it ? I'm trying to treasure every moment now . But somehow its slipping through my fingers . 

Now now . Before I am late, shall switch off the computer and get out of house ! Cyas people (:

Plus . I'll change my skin soon .. If I have the time . I mean I WILL . 

i don't know what i'm doing .. sometimes i picture myself alone in the dark with no one else around and i wonder if this is what i want and what i can do to change this . and somehow .. a person's strenth is so tiny .. so little to even change a person's thoughts ..

LIVE LIKE A HAPPY PENGUIN ~!!

THANKS JOYCE . I'm COMPLETELY ADDICTED BY THIS SONG . LOL . TOO LAZY TO BLOG TODAY :X SORRY TYPING IN CAPS BECAUSE I'M REALLY HIGH RIGHT NOW . FOR NO REASON THOUGH . SHALL POST AGAIN NEXT TIME ! ANYWAYS I BORROWED A LOT OF PHYSCHOLOGY BOOKS TODAY . SHALL POST THE INTERESTING STUFF NEXT TIME !

OH FORGET IT . SINCE IM ALREADY HERE MIGHT AS WELL TYPE THE POST :X

Today had dance ! MUSCLE ACHES . Guilty guilty . I feel stressed when I'm in dance . Everyone just seems so good and I suck like crap . I guess I really need extra practises . Darn . XueEr with her toe nail . So hilarious . Should have taken a picture of it . Dance practise was so funny . Well . XueEr was SO TIRED because of basketball training yesterday . And yeah . She is in ! JIAYOUS :D

OKAY ~ Went to the new northpoint . First point to make . THE CARPET IN THE GROUND IS SOOO IRRITATING ! Every step you take, you sink in . Sooo ><" Actually I spent more time in the library than shopping around . OH YEAH . Saw Jennifer and Kenneth in the library . They were doing CIP . HEh ~

OKOK . Time to sleep . Have engineering quest tomorrow . And GUESS WHAT . I realised I have dance practise on thursday, friday, saturday , next monday, tuesday, thursday and SATURDAY ! I'm going to make sure I can do a SPLIT MAN ! HAHAHHA ~ Okay . Stop being so high . 

ENJOY THE SONG . IT ROCKS :D

너도 날 좋아할 줄은 몰랐어 
I didn't know that you'd like me too
어쩌면 좋아 너무나 좋아 
What do I do, I'm so happy
꿈만 같아서 나 내자신을 자꾸
In case it's a dream I keep 
꼬집어봐 너무나 좋아 
pinching myself, I'm so happy 
네가 날 혹시 안 좋아할까봐 혼자 얼마나 애태운지 몰라 
Do you know how much I worried about you not liking me
그런데 너도 날 사랑한다니 
But you love me too
어머나 다시 한 번 말해봐 
wow, say it again

Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me 
나를 사랑한다고 날 기다려왔다고 
That you love me and that you waited for me 
tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me 
내가 필요하다 말해 말해줘요 
Say you need me 
tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me 
자꾸만 듣고 싶어 계속 내게 말해줘 
I want to hear it all the time, say it to me again 
tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me 
꿈이 아니라고 말해 말해줘요 
say it's not a dream 

어쩜 내 가슴이 이렇게 뛰니 
My heart is beating so fast
가슴이 정말 터질 것 같아 
I think it's going to pop
네가 날 볼 때면 전기에 감전된 사람처럼 전기가 올라 
Whenever you look at me, I feel like i've just been electricuted
얼마나 오래 기다린지 몰라 
Do you know how long i've waited for this
얼마나 오래 꿈꿨는지 몰라 
Do you know how long i've been dreaming for this
그런데 네가 날 사랑한다니 
But you love me too
어머나 다시 한 번 말해봐 
Wow, Say it again

tell me, tell me, tell me you want me, 
want me, want me too 
Tell me, tell me, tell me 
you love me too, love me too 

얼마나 오래 기다린지 몰라 
Do you know how long i've waited for this
얼마나 오래 꿈꿨는지 몰라 
Do you know how long i've been dreaming for this
그런데 네가 날 사랑한다니 
But you love me too
어머나 다시 한 번 말해봐 
Wow, Say it again

Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me 
나를 사랑한다고 날 기다려왔다고 
That you love me and that you waited for me 
tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me 
내가 필요하다 말해 말해줘요 
Say you need me 
tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me 
자꾸만 듣고 싶어 계속 내게 말해줘 
I want to hear it all the time, say it to me again 
tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me 
꿈이 아니라고 말해 말해줘요 
say it's not a dream 

credits : forums.boajjang.com

"STAND UP FOR YOURSELF " - A PENGUIN GUIDE TO LIVING HAPPILY ~ ITS FROM A BOOK ~ !! :DD HEH ~

at least i can feel that i'm trying hard . so hard .. that sometimes i get lost

me :D

Today I feel so like blogging, but there ain't any content except that I've played audition and maple the whole day . An aimless life with a little voice in my head telling me that I still have holiday homework to complete . 

Bored and more boredness .

When you're bored, you try to make something out of nothing . And yeah . Shall type something out of nothing !

1. I love garlic bread

2. I love pasta . I can eat it for every meal without getting sick of it .

3. I love cheese . I can pour cheese all over Pastamania's baked rice .

4. I love pink dolphin . I've never found a nicer drink than this . Too bad the school doesn't sell it .

5. I love to crap a lot .

6. I regret a lot because the decisions I make are always on impulse .

7. I hate how temperatual I am .

8. I hate it when people leave me alone .

9. I don't really like to gossip about others nor am I interested in hearing other people gossip about other people's affairs .

10 . I have a mind of my own and I stick to it unless you provide me with something that convinces me that you're right .

11. I get irritated most of the time by the tiniest things that can ever exist .

12. I could never understand why people just can't stop procrastinating themselves though I'm one of them .

13. I get hurt easily by words .

14. I don't let anyone into my world . I rather keep silent than tell anyone how I really feel inside .

15. I'm quiet in phone conversations if there are a lot of people inside . What's the point of trying to make your point across when there are so many people trying to speak at one time ?

16. I would never say out whatever that I want .

17. I make sure that I have my P's and Q's and also apologize when needed . Every time I say sorry I mean it from my heart . I say it because I feel that I've offended someone .

18. I hate it when people accuse me .

19.  I don't see the point of wasting a lot of time beating around the bush when you can just go straight to the point .

20. I'm happy when people care and ask how I feel but I hope that they can undestand when I don't really want to say them out .

21. Every girl loves to be pampered and I'm one of them .

22. I feel that every time we do something, we should think it over because impulse often leads to someone getting hurt easily . And regret is something I hate most and yet always faces .

23. I contradict a lot .

24. Often I don't say what I feel and don't express them in any way unless its just a minor thing .

25. I tear easily nowadays .

26. I love to watch horror movies because of the fact that they don't scare me anymore .

27. I hate it when people ask me out the last minute .

28. I prefer smsing or msning as compared to phone conversations . Or perhaps face to face talk .

29. I think a lot and wonder a lot about things . Sometimes I may think too much and I'm glad that some people would be there to correct the misunderstandings .

30. I would never want to hurt anyone although I prefer to be straight forward .

31. I try to reduce reuse and recycle whenever I can .

32. I hate my things to be dirty . Although I ain't really a neat person .

33. I like to write .

34. I like to sing .

35. I get influenced easily .

36. I've learnt a lot of things lately .

37. Once someone tells me to kick a habit that really irritates them, I try my best to do it . Such as .. I'VE STOP DRAGGING MY FEET !

38. I've learnt to enjoy the silence .

39. I'm trying hard to stand in other people's shoes and understand what they are thinking .

40. I get confused easily .

41. Most people describes me as a blur person though I don't look like one.

42. I'm often described as independant not wanting any help from others .

43. A majority would have the impression that I'm a quiet person unless they know me better .

44. I don't mind a lot on grades .

45. I would never cry in front of anyone because I don't want to explain what's wrong .

46. I used to think that tears were a symbol of weakness .

47. In the past I've never tried to appreciate what others have done for me . Now I have, and I thank everyone for all the love they have showered me with .

48. I'm a girl and just like them I love it when people use sweet talking .

49. I can never understand why my mum likes to buy bags that are really small because when we go out, she can't stuff all her things in and hence had to put them with me . This is really weird . Why not just get a bigger bag ?

50. I eat a lot of rice .

51. I prefer soup . 

52. I don't like vegetables .

53. I don't eat seafood .

54. I don't really like salty food .

55. I hate coke .

56. I don't like coffee because its bitter . But I love dark chocolate .

57. White chocolate ain't really my type because I once puked after eating them .

58. I don't eat a lot usually unless I'm in a extreme good or bad mood .

59. I pout a lot .

60. I hate it when people say I act cute because I'm not . So most of the time I will respond by using a really deep voice to answer them .

61. I don't take pictures when I smile because I hate how small my eyes would be ><

62. People envy my dimples but I haven't really found a use for them yet .

63. I use " >< " a lot .

64. When I don't feel like talking, its because I'm tired . Not because I'm depressed or anything .

65. I may not look like it, but I love reading ENGLISH storybooks and I'm more interested in ENGLISH than chinese though I come from a chinese speaking family .

66. Do not criticize my family members .

67. I look like a push over but I'm not . You know what kind of temper I have .

68. I would do anything to make sure that others do not misunderstand me .

69. I haven't found a use for friendster yet though I had that account for a long time .

70. I'm not rich . I just like to save .

71. I hate it when people say that I'm rich or whatsoever and give me that "you are just born with a silver spoon" look because firstly I'm not . Secondly, I did not steal those money . Thirdly, the money I spent are from what I have worked from .

72. I hate to get money from my dad because he's the breadwinner of the family and is already under a lot of stress .

73. I hate it when people demands for things .

74. I feel that smiling is an important gesture .

75. Everyone looks best when they are smiling even though not everyone have straight teeth .

76. I admire babies for being so naive .

77. I feel that the world is not as simple as it seems .

78. I ain't a happy go lucky person .

79. I ask for directions .

80. I'm a direction idiot .

81. I don't feel ashamed asking help from stranger . I believe that everyone is nice in this world .

82. Treat people how you want to be treated . I believe strongly in this .

83. I can spent a lot of money on a person I treasure because I don't feel the pinch .

84. I can see through people easily .

85. I'm superstitious .

86. I'm most of the time lucky.

87. I take time to open up to people around me .

88. I'm too practical for good . But I do dream a lot .

89. I try to find a function when buying things and not the appearance of it .

90. I don't know how to cook . But I don't mind learning how to make pasta :P or pastries ~

91. I use the computer A LOT .

92. I can use it for the whole day . Today is one example .

93. I just realised how fun shopping actually is .

94. I do bizarre things somehow . Its okay when you say you don't understand me because everyone says that . And the point is, me myself don't understand myself too ~ :D

95. I like to smile a lot .

96. I don't really bother about other people's affairs unless it concerns me in someway .

97. I believe that everyone have their own reasons for doing something .

98. I try to live up to expectations .

99. I feel that guys who can play a musical instrument is really hot .

100 . I get attracted to guys that are gentleman .

101 . I feel that everyone is the best and most respected when they are just themselves .

people always try to hold on to things that they know are impossible . why can't we just let them go . our feelings are too attached . too emotional for good . memory might just be a harmful thing sometimes .

lalalala ~

YO ! Its going to be a long post ahead . I wonder if I would even survive through because the time now is 12.51am ! And guess what ? It has been such a long day or should I say night ? :D Oh well . Was doing Japan trip stuff . Now going to start typing my blog post officially I hope . Time now is 1.31am . Let me start .

 Friday, 14 November 2008

Let me try to recall . Friday was the last day of school . The day that most people feared most because all that were to welcome us was long holidays of boredom without friends to chat with nor have fun with . 

It was the last day of school and the last thing I would want to have is to drag my mood by lessons and more lessons . The first period was off because Ms Kwok decided to let us off . So it was a break . As usual YangJie was the first to reach . Next was me arriving . Then saw Joyce and WenJia approaching us . CheeWee came too . It was a small group and I was wondering why they were so late because we were supposed to meet earlier to do physics homework together . I placed aside that thought thinking that they might just be late because they overslept or something close . 

So I started "doing" my physics worksheet . Joyce on the otherhand was using my phone to send her songs . Korean songs ~ She's a little crazy over Wonder Girls lately ever since she went for the KPop concert that just ended . There was this CLASSICAL scene that I think I've already shown to everyone but it wouldn't hurt reiterating it here once more . So both of us were walking up this slope and she was playing a Jewelry song . And just nice it came to the part where the singer sang " Baby, One more time " . So at this moment, she sang along . Not just this . This ain't enough to make this "CLASSIC" . In addition to this, she spinned around and pointed her fingers at me with that mischievous look on her face . Now that's CLASSICAL . How to forget that I wonder ? :P

WenJia in the meantime was trying to occupy herself with what I couldn't remember now at this point of time . Anyways she should be in China now, her hometown SiChuan . Hope she's having fun . She was really excited :D Well . Melvin came along and kind of "brainwash" me with ease of going to have breakfast . In the end we skipped computing lesson for Macdonalds breakfast . Yummy . Hotcakes again ! In Macdonalds were Melvin, WeiQin, Melvin, CheeWee, YangJie, Jolene and me . And the offer thing is still going on . Where when you buy an extra value meal, you get a burger free . We got Jeannette Sausage MacMuffin Burgers ! :D with egg of course . 

I sent her a really funny sms . Shouldn't type it here because .. basically, I'm tired :X And lazy to go check what I exactly send her . Want to know ? Just ask me and I'll show you . Its in my phone still . So when we came back for physics lecture, saw this real cool physics documentary about scientists . People who have changed the world . As usual Jolene was yawning . I wonder why but these stuff just attracts me . Maybe I'm a real nerd inside ? I have no idea seriously . 

So we went to the benches near the physics lab and the guitar room . Sat down, chatted while Jeannette ate her burger . XueEr came along and grabbed one . Next up is a picture of her . In depression mode . You can guess what happened . Pretty obvious over there .

What exactly happened was that Jeannette and her walking happily to the guitar room then suddenly she lost her balance . She got shocked and dropped her burger . Yes . You didn't read wrongly . She didn't drop the burger because she lost her balance . It was because she got a shock of being inbalanced THEN she dropped the burger . After that she was crying at her own stupidity and was also grumbling because she had only consumed 1/3 of the burger . Oh well . Accidents happened . At least you managed to even get a bite out of it :D

XueEr brought a parting gift for Jolene . Here it is . Limited Edition bag . Cool yeah . LOL :X

There was me drawing my bears as usual ~ This is a new version . Its wearing a scarf ! xD More versions to come I guess . Wait till inspiration gets me and I shall decide .

XueEr and me then went for dance self practice . Did 100 crunches as promised . We nearly died halfway but persevered on for a flatter tummy . Came out really tired and warm ! XueEr on the other hand was dry . She spent half of the time going out of the room, getting food and drinks ><" Oh well . It was self practice after all . 

Food . Did physics stuff . Vague memory . Can't really remember what happened . Anyways REC anyone ? In case you have absolutely NO IDEA what I'm saying . Its a horrow show . And its got to be a good one since I'm watching it and am looking for people to watch . If there's anyone who is going to watch this really good horror show, ring me up or text me yeah ! :D I've watched the trailer and I guess the really awesome factor of this movie is that it is very ORIGINAL . From the fact that its all recordings make the movie SEEMED more real and everything coming to life . No more of those computer graphics . I've read reviews and they fared great . So I guess I'm going to catch it .

Went for maths lecture after that . Had some reflections thing going on I guess . After that was classroom cleaning ! And there came the time for the class to go crazy ! First up was MingSheng I guess . He started going insane by borrowing my hairclip . Look at this . The new fashion of a cleaner . Cool yeah :X Setting a new trend . The new fashion STATEMENT .

Others having fun ~

They aren't shooting a movie . No way . They are in fact SLACKING off while the other classmates are doing work . 

The result of a duel between Husnain and Ibrahim . They used the most "FEARED" weapons which is the legendary broom and dustpan . I mean come on, what can you find in a classroom ? This is the best . And yeah . The consquences .

At least they tried to fix it you see :P

CheeWee outside . Nope . No movies still . But lots of water ! It all started with YangJie spraying others with water using Jolene's water bottle . Then came the water fight !

Everyone was wet . I was a little I guess . Managed to run away . Oh yeah . It was hilarious . YangJie and MingSheng trying to escape from their GSC teachers . MingSheng suddenly hid behind the wall . YangJie gave him out . Shouting " MingSheng, where your GSC homework arhs ~ " MingSheng then gave a tit for a tat when YangJie's GSC teacher came along . YangJie immediately hid behind a chair . But MingSheng still got him . Pretty funny :X

Below is JiaKiang, absorbed into his PSP world . YeowKeng beside me was laughing when I took this picture . Come on ! You two are into this together :X

Not clear . But I was so shocked and amazed by this . It says "LingLan" . Must be her ! :X So cool . What a coincidence !

And also I was the main "victim" . First up was "Mystery of the calculator" . Jeannette borrowed my calculator and when she opened the lid, she gasped . She showed me what was shown on the screen . All I could remember was a message left by someone saying " You suck . Loser something something ~ " . It was a prank of course but I wanted to get down to the entire matter . The first suspect was Melvin . CheeWee claimed to have seen him typing the message yet he had no witness . Melvin retorted and had an alibi who is Shannon who claimed that he was with him all the time . I spent the whole day questioning Melvin trying to make him confessed . But I'm sure he was the one ! I mean its pretty obvious but I couldn't get him to apologize . Oh well . Forget it .

The second thing was that YangJie kept pulling out my hairband so I had to chase after him to get it . So I left my handphone on the table so that I could run faster . Little did I knew when I got back my phone, the screen was blank . I thought it had the battery was empty so did not suspect anything . Then I came to realise that there was really " EMPTY BATTERY " as in there was no battery inside -_- Idiot MingSheng . He took my battery ! ><"

School ended . Went to support the basketball girls for their match in SRJC . XueEr was really good . Her accuracy is good and her height just gave her an extra advantage to shooting . Rebounding balls would just make their way to her hands somehow . Quite cool . The coach was fascinated by that and asked her to join basketball . She was already interested so promised to go for monday practises as wednesdays and fridays are already booked for dance . The coach also wanted to train her so that with Shell and her they would be twin towers . Nono . With JiaWei, they would be THREE towers . How can the others even manage to get a shot with them blocking ?

Was quite suprised that Shell remembered my name . She's the first and only person that remembered my name in such a short period of time . Just because of one basketball match . She got it right . Thanks ! Finally I see some hope for my name :X Hehe . And I finally understood why the basketball girls were trying to recruit people into the team . At first I thought it would be like the shows, be bench managers and stuff . I realised that no one can be that . SRJC had a strong team of at least 20 plus members and for one time, they substitute the entire team . That's why they don't seem tired at all but for our side, they had no one to substitute except some members only . Therefore they were SO TIRED . 

All the best :D You guys are good ! Pras(hope the spelling is correct) and Sahira's accuracy is just great . Shell's blocking made it so difficult for the other time to have any shots in (: Cool match ! XD

Okay next up .

 Saturday, 15 November 2008 

Went for Kbox session though they were only three of us . Laopa(lanyuan) insisted on going so yeah, we went . Laopa was late . YuanXi and I strolled the entire AMK hub many times . Bought anderson icecream ! Yummy ! Cookies and Cream . Belgian chocolate . YuanXi had a prata sausage . He recommended it . Good stuff . Shall try it next time .

K-ing was boring without the others . YuanXi was trying to be high while we just can't reach the mood . Poor thing :X Hehe ~ We sang a lot of oldies . Not those kind of "oldies" but like DuYiWuEr and MeiFeiSeWu . We also sang With you by Chris Brown . That one was really good . We turned the music really loud and sang like crazy ~ Cool XD 

Found out a lot of nice songs . And perhaps its because I sang so much, some songs that I have difficulty reaching didn't pose as a problem at all . The notes were reached somehow . Was shocked myself . We sang a lot of high songs and stuff . And guess what, this time we are facing the other room too . I guessed they they are a gang of girls because they sang songs according to celebrity . FIR, SHE, AH-MEI and others . In the end they run out of songs and started singing children songs . YuanXi took the mic and sang along with them . LOL . Was so funny .

Had a lot of fun though it was only the three of us . Hope they had fun too xD Memorable experience .

Completed watching Lord Of The Rings, HotShot and Batman movie sequels . I wonder what's next . Mum has been pestering me to learn how to cook . So I guess I would do just that xD

Lastly, YESTERDAY !

SUNDAY, 16 NOVEMBER 2008

I rarely go out on sundays unless something special is going on . And it was CANTARE 2 ! Quite a good show . Better than expected . Alumni choir's songs perked me up . And following which, Romeo and Juliet left quite an impact on me . From a trajedy, they managed to change it into a comedy . Hilarious . And entertaining . The 12 bucks is worth it . 

Some stuff happened in between . Shouldn't talk much about it . All I want to say that everything is part and parcel of life . Things do happen . And when that do happen, we have to take it in our stride and face it . Confront it straight on . Only then we can move on . Things happen for a reason and looking at it, I'm sure it would be a good purpose . A strengthed friendship . Hold on guys, for we would get closer from these ups and downs (: Cheerios to our everlasting friendship ! :D

Well . Saw Adib . SHOCKING ! He just suddenly slipped in on us and all . Then met Laopa . Wanted to have Swensens ice cream ! But the shop closed so we had to settle for Macdonalds icecream . Oh wait ! CHECK THIS OUT !

YAY ~ Mindy was busy critizing the actor's looks . At first I had the same thoughts but they said that he's a great actor and I have to believe in that . What good is a vase ? Can't wait ! XDD

We slacked in Macdonalds, rushed for the last train . First time in my life rushing for the last train because I always have to arrive home earlier . Shocked myself . Reached home around 12.30am plus today ? Had a lot of fun and all ! xD Meet soon again guys ! Asked them the mrt joke again regarding the priority seat thing . I think I posted before . So shall not post it anymore .

Okays . Time to sleep . A short post without pictures ! How can it be ! Wait till I grab photos from my friends okay :X How can I even dare to whip out my phone when they are using cameras ! :P Okays ~ Sleepy time ! 

SLEEP TIGHT ! LOVE PEEPS :D A song to end the night .

I wish that the dream would last forever and I would never wake up . But it seems reality always seems to settle in somehow without our concious . And then its all over .

save the fool ..

When you're bored, you would find weird stuff . And yeah . I did and I had fun with it for like .. 30 minutes or so . Here it is :P

YO people :X

This was kind of random . But I thought it really fitted the magazine cover . So yeah xD

Whee ~ 

Should have one vampire one . Then I would put this again :P

Hehe . Fitting ? :X

Now enough of this nonsense ! Let today's exciting day unfold :D

Today was a FREEZING day . Not just cold but FREEZING . A warm up for my Japan trip during december . Warm up . What a word . A little contradictive in the humor sense . 

Walked to school in the morning with WenJia and Joyce . Linglan ~ Don't think she is sick though :X But she didn't go to school . Heh :X Joyce helped me to carry my heavy laptop to school ><" THANKS ! Love ya lots :P I owe you one okay . Heh .

Saw Jolene on the way to toilet . Went to talk to her and Jiakiang . She was teasing JiaKiang saying that his english name is Sophie . Then I realised that his sister name is Sophia . Just nice :P Then we started to sing " Sophie ~ Bodyfit :X " Blehs :X Apparently he ignored us, which was expected . So yeah . Its okay . Then saw Jolene suddenly gasping and saying " JOYCE TAN YU HUI . Don't walk this way . I don't want to talk to you . " . Turned around and saw joyce walking towards us from the girls toilet . She started "suan-ing" Jolene . I interrupted " Joyce . WHAT HAPPENED . You weren't like this when we first met ! Who influenced you ?! " She was giggling and all . Then she realised that she had to bring the "Same Same but Different" shirt that was bought in Cambodia . She had forgotten to bring it so tried to borrow from shannon . Then came a blow to Jolene . Shannon told her " Oh . That shirt .. I want give other people . So small la . Cannot even wear . " Jolene had that Im-SO-HURT look on her face . Pretty hilarious :X So she started saying that " How can you give a present that someone gave you to other people ? " . Well true ><" If I'm the person who gave the present, I would be really hurt . Then Jolene continued saying that he could wear the shirt at home and all . Then it started to get really funny :X Heh . Shall not type it here . Cause it sounded gross to me somehow ><

Well . After Joyce left, I confessed to Jolene that it must be me who have influenced her for the past two years because we sat next to each other during class . I think she's one of the people that really know me well and can stand my everchanging temper that even me myself can't stand it . I know this sounds like corny but its really true . Sometimes I hate myself for how I respond to things and blame myself after everything happened . Often I would scold myself for behaving that way .

Okay . Back to the story . Well . Went for maths lecture . XueEr was late . She signed on my hand ! Took a picture of it . Would be seen later .

During computing lesson, we did a survey . Spent A LOT of time on it . Really funny . One of the questions was how to improve on lectures . Wrote " Should be more engaging . Teacher's voice should not be too monotone " :X LOL . And yeah . We all agreed that they are too passionate and patient in teaching :P Hehe . The last part where it is "other feedbacks" . We wrote " Mr Ho should treat us to sakae . Teachers should make their house available during chinese new year and make sure to give hong baos filled with money" . When Mrs Liang came in and read through, she was laughing . And even corrected our english . But she didn't change the content at all .

After that bought baked macaroni . Waited so long till I'm not even hungry . In the end felt really bloated ><>

Okay never mind . Went outside guitar room, did the dance booklet thing . For Japan . Spent quite a long time on it . XueEr spent the time watching HotShot in the guitar room . Melvin got out of school . WeiQin and RenZhi slept till it was literature lecture . YangJie slept at first in the end was playing games . Jeannette and Shannon were playing guitar . Jolene was doing labour work for guitar . Finally finished my work . It was sooo cold ! ><" Freezing cold . And the wind was blowing like its nobody's business . Nearly froze to death .

Then went out to buy salt with Jolene . Came back and helped her do labour work . Melvin came back and gave us a treat . Drinks ! xD Heh . Learnt new stuff today . Melvin said " EngHwee, I found out you're quite good at this . Next time you can be a salt colourer or something . " Thats roughly what he said . I retorted that I would earn enough . This job is not needed . But its quite fun . Heh . Shall be our idea for CVD next year . Then use chalk and drew on the guitar room's board .

Oh yeahs . Shannon and XueEr were watching HotShot . Then he asked XueEr to translate it for him . There's one part that he couldn't understand . I told Melvin " Two people . Chinese not good . Watch chinese together . Die together . " :X Then in the end XueEr also didn't understand . Asked me and Jolene . The words that they didn't know . First "JING3" = Well . Secondly "HuangGong" = Palace . Lastly, can't remember whats the chinese word already . But it meant passage way ><" Oh yeah . Haven't watch finish yet ><" Still stuck at episode 13 . Shall finish watching it soon ! I have a lot of shows to watch . Haven't finish watching " The Zero's Familiar ", " Lord of The Rings " , " HotShot" , "Get Connected " and also .. uh . What's that show that YangJie told me to watch ><" Can't remember =/ Going to be really busy the next few days . Don't think there would be hope for this . As in watching the shows . Have physics and computing homework due tomorrow .

Then we cleaned up the room . Jolene lost the cover of one of the "jar" ? Don't know what word to use for that . So we started finding . Managed to brainwash Shannon to search through the dustbin :X In the end he dragged me in -.- And I helped too . I started to wipe my hands on Melvin's shirt . Then him thinking that he's clever went to touch Shannon's hands . Then in the end he just realised that Shannon rummaged through the dustbin too :P Hehe . Pretty hilarious . Didn't know slacking in the guitar room was this fun .

Went for economics lesson . Shannon went home . Ms Kwok released us early . Hurray ! Did the dance thingy with HuiLing till 5pm plus . She makes me laugh a lot :X I mean she's so cute . Haha . If you want me to type everything that happened, its going to be hard . But I'm glad that I got to know someone better today (:

Oh well . Just finished playing audition and yeah . AH ! Nearly forgot about the photos !

XueEr trying to mimick someone in HotShot :P Obvious right ?

The bear that I drew on guitar room's board .

Jolene's writing and XueEr's dog house .

Posing !

The signature . 

Time for physics homework . Bye guys . Sleep early and tight . 

Peace out :D

The smartest thing is to give up everything
Only the foolish ones will hold on, hold on
But the fight in me wants to cling to everything
Save the foolish one, I hold on, I hold on

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I need to give up on some stuff .. Help me please ..

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I have no idea what I'm doing . Sorry .. I didn't mean to vent my anger on you today . It wasn't supposed to be . Nothing was your fault . Darn . I need to learn how to control myself better . But sometimes , I just feel that I'm going to collapse . All I want to do is just to cry . Leave me alone .. Or maybe I didn't want to be left alone ..

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Its time to set us free . Or should I say set myself free ? Its more selfish actually . Well .. Enough of these . Breathe the fresh air and move on . Fly towards a brighter tomorrow . I love surprises (:

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One year has passed and now I feel so old . How can it be .. We just became friends and now we're parting ? What is happening .. ? I don't want it to be this way ..

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I can't believe myself . How can it even be possible . I never really did hate anyone before . Its too much of an extreme word . Usually its just detest . Detest of some behavior and actions . Never was hating someone into my world . All those "hate" that I've always muttured were too extreme for the true meaning . Now I wonder what has happened . Am I getting too narrow minded for good ? Maybe its time to reflect on my actions and take time to understand others . Everything that the person does just irritates me . Darn . Its time to start thinking . Let me wonder on ..

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I hope you won't feel stressed when you're with me because a good friend is all I really want to be now . I really like the way we are now . take cares, friend (: