yesterday talk to mindy on d fone.. trying to console her. she crying.. well. bcoz of fwens n everytng.. haix.. at first it was just ling lan asking me what happened between me n ying.. everyone can see it wad.. our fwenship has fallen.. juz bcoz of one guy.. she liddat.. suan le lor.. everyone juz kip saying. dun liddat la.. she juz fall out of love ma.. plz la.. she always potray herself SOOO kelian.. like ppl no problems liddat.. she most ke lian in d world la..

seriously lor.. everytym smth happen.. i muz b d one to clear d misunderstandin.. she also doesnt give a dam to it wad.. if she dun feel that our fwenship means anytng to her d hua den suan le lor.. on d surface she like nt angry wif me.. but its obvious she stil holds a grude towards me abt dat marcus tng.. stupid lor.. is she juz paranoid.. n start doing stupid things nia.. liddat also my fault?! plz la.. im not interested in him at all lor.. y d hell would i so wu liao to break ur relationship wif him.. everytym gt prob u also blame others.. shd start reflectin n start thinking if ure also wrong sometyms..

suan le la.. all this so stupid. is she say d ma.. now her life is sooo happy.. coz gt her CLIQUE that is d bf3 n joyce can le. doesnt matter d ma.. now we're juz strangers lor.. or shd i say worse dan strangers.. coz even though we noe each other.. i noe if we see each other.. we wun greet d.. everytym go out.. like ytd afternoon.. i n her so awkard.. also no one cares.. joyce in d world of her own so happy wif ying.. den ling checkin her smses.. den suan le lor.. feel so extra dere.. go home better.. since i also not in their clique n hav absoutely nth to say to dem.. everytym i wan say smth i muz think like siao juz can say.. if not sure will de zui dem one.. dats y now i hang out more wif sharine n chi wei.. only wif my choir mates i feel dat i can b myself n everytng lor.. even mindy can see dat when im wif dem. i juz realy hapi.. coz THIS CLIQUE RIGHT NOW is too UNSENSATIVE to other ppl's feelings.. dey only care abt demselves.. dats y it has fallen apart.. on d surface everyone seems rly gd fwens.. but underneath it is another world..

joyce today morning was like saying. dun liddat la.. fwens for 4 yrs.. i realy hope u all patch lor.. joyce.. sometimes ure juz too naive.. u wan patch i also wan wad.. budden fwenship is two ppl build d lor.. even if one person puts in alot of effort.. d other dun care.. its no use.. seriously.. u dun see it coz ur simple minded.. u always only see d surface of everytng.. d only bad tng abt u is dat u dun understand d real thing behind.. n often bcome to unsensative to others..

even though she dun say it in front of me.. i expected dat she will say bhind my back or smth d.. its expected alr.. but when u hear other fwens telling u truthfully abt dat.. it still hurts.. it still creates a huge impact..

she always type those things onto her blog.. she doesnt care abt ppl feelings.. she changed.. she isnt d person i used to noe.. d jia ying i was gd fwens wif is d one when i was sec 2 n sec 3.. i noe every action i do she also criticize in her heart.. say i attract attention blah blah.. wadever she can say she sure say d..

everytym also scold ppl.. complain abt ppl.. u think ure perfect meh.. no one is perfect wad.. n its like.. frm last time till now everyone can see dat mindy dun hav d passion for band.. ure nt d head of d band.. u dun hav d right to say her.. or even scold her.. plz think abt it.. u critcize ppl abt dem nt going for band like ure d band major or smth.. plz la.. dun act boss if ure not one.. u say u nt hapi her coz she go out wif her stead instead of go band.. u last time also skip band b4 wad.. wad gives u d right to scold others.. bsides saying others u stil use vulgarities.. seriously la.. which person.. even a fool noes dat fwens will nv scold ppl in blogs. see how u shoot ur fwens.. hav u ever tot of their feelings.. if SHE IS ur fwen.. n u value d fwenship.. u would nt say dat.. instead of scolding her.. u shd understand her n help her in d other way.. INSTEAD OF HUMILATING them in ur blogs.. its public lehs.. u noe how much humiliation ppl gets? its juz shows how much you "CARE" about them in ur heart..

till now.. its juz disappointing.. to think dat in sec 3 i was so proud of my clique fwenship.. like it was so strong n everytng.. but now.. we can rly see.. hu's d TRUE fwen.. n hu is not..