so late..

it so late alr..for me i mean..11:16 already..haiz..nth to do..nobody tokin to me on msn..but it always been like tiz..nobody toks to me at all..i jux feel lyk dey r all avoiding me..i duno y...especially someone..ar...suan le..tok so much more sad..haha..haiz..now listening to superstar..by jamelia..nice..haha..mindy's blog is tiz song..my blog's song is fall to pieces..haha..love both songs..nth to do mar..so ....haiz..some ppl owe me testiomnial for so long..still haven write for me..dat hei ren ya gao..haha..nvm la..sharine say cannot force ppl to write de..if nt later...dey anyhow write...sian..now gt someone tok to me le..finally..haha..haiz..but still very sian..listening to i swear now..haha...i hav nth to swear...swear dat one day i can dun sms at all ar??haha..i can't do dat..surely will sms de..if not i will die..haha..Now more and more sian le..coz e person stop tokin to me le...haiz..i realy need some crapper in my life man..when it is so so so so boring..u will juz fall asleep once u step in..okok..tok about wad happen today...eric help me write testimonial..haha..he very unusal today coz very hapi..duno y..dots...keep laughin..siao le..coz normally he will keep scoldin me de..den he tell me dun too jie jing ling lan later i bcome mushroom..haha..den..i accept his and beeying..my mama de testi lorx..den...haiz..duno..forget wad happen le..haha..i gt stml memory...means short term memory loss..actually my fren name also stml..sabrina tan ...duno wad..forget le..haha..zui jing bu dong wei she me(tiz days duno y)keep forgettin me..bleh..i mean forgettin things..haix..duno y...gt any medicine nort?tmr morning gt tution...ke lian rite..exam over le still lidat..haiz..today morning also hav..is maths and sci..tmr is maths only...my maths results very lan(bad)...haiz...gt only 51/100..haha..put here means tell evryone..haha..hu cares..marks only ma..nt wad top secret...haiz...but iv ery hapi..coz science gt 81..wahah..hen(very)unbelievable rite..maths so lan sci so gd...haix..all subjects very lan..okok...going to log off soon le..coz very sian..before i go..put down superstar de lyrics...
SuPeRsTaR...
People always talk about (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
All the things their all about (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Write it on a piece of paper,
Got a feeling i'll see you later.

There's something bout this,
Lets keep it moving,
And if its good lets just get something cooking.
Coz i really wanna rock with you,
I'm feeling some connection to the things you do.
(you do, you do).

[Chorus:]
I dont know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
I dont know who you are,
But you must be some kind of superstar,
Coz you got all eyes on you no matter where you are,
(you just make me wanna play)

Baby take a look around (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Everybody's getting down (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Deal with all the problems later,
Bad boys on their best behaviour.

There's something bout you,
Lets keep it moving,
And if it's good lets just get something cooking,
Coz i really wanna rock with you,
I'm feeling some connection to the things you do,
(you do, you do).

I don't know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
I don't know who you are,
But you must be some kind of superstar,
Coz you got all eyes on you no matter where you are,
(you just make me wanna play).

I like the way your movin' (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
I just get into the groove and then (you just make me wanna play),
If you just put pen to paper (ey oh ey oh ey oh)
Got that feeling i'll see you later.

Make your move, can we get a little closer,
You rock it just like you're supposed to,
Hey boy i ain't got nothing more to say,
Coz you just make me wanna play,

i don't know what it is,
That makes me feel like this,
i don't know,
Gotta be, gotta be a superstar,
All eyes on you.

[Chorus x2]

okok...bye..=)

guess i was so stupid..trying break some record of writing many testis for my frens in a day..somtyms i really dun understand myself at all..so stupid..doing stupid things..feel like i m those kind of ppl dat u teach dem a hundred times i m still dat stupid..and guessw hat..i m feeling nth now..yea..nth is the word..i m so bored nth to do..nobody to chat to..do u blieve it?dere are 15pp online on msn but dere's no one to chat to..lets list them..hm..e first contact is liyi,peiting,zining,eileen,sara,qineng,killer,cherry_lurve,jun wei,eldwin,ailing,han wei,jasmine,sindhu,terence and han wei...haiz..dun feel like chattin to anyone..no games to play..any suggestions?wad i m feeling now..is juz live till i die...sianx!life is so boring without frens..but i feel even wif frens..y is it still so boring..haiz..very sianx leh..go play tetrinet le..bb..haha..still remember introduce tiz game to jun hong den didn't hav time to play with him den kena scolded..wahaha..sianx..haha..hahaha...haiz...zzzzz...i realy need some ppl dat can light up my boring life..how can ppl b busy when i m so bored???huh?can anyone answer tiz simple yet difficult qn?anyone..toking to the com..talking to space..sianz...eek..smth is on my com screen..duno wad is dat..so small only small dan tiz small little fullstop -> . ee..so gross..how?i dun wan to kill it but i also scared.....help..anyone?i m scared of a bug dat is smaller dan a fullstop..wah...hellp......eh..duno fly to where already..dun care la..wahaha..y m i laughing lidat?so nt girlish..make me think of liang jie,.muz b him influence me de..muz tok to others..others hu laugh is haha only..nt some kind of funny laughter..haha...great..back to normal le..go play game first..back..sobb..i lost..haha..me still noob la..haha..rarely play dat game ma..so here i m..trying to built myself up..so i ply very gd lor..hehe..haha..den tiz guy here..only he wants to play so he is playing by himself..hm..so stupid ehz..tmr..teacher gonna gib back result le..so scared..all the subjects..scared ...later i get heart attack..or what so ever...haha...ok..dun write le..anyway..today gonna introduce tiz song..air one..very nice..i mean e anime air,..e song is call aozora...nice song really..

Ano umi dokomademo aokatta tokumade
Ano michi dokomademo tsuzuiteta massuguni

Ichiban hayaku sunaoni warattamono gachi
Ichiban sukina anohito waratteru

Dare yorimo toku e ittemo koko kara mata waratte kureru?
Hitomi wo tojireba futto natsu no nioi

Ano kawa asonderu futari kiri doro darake
Ano kumo otteiru todoitara shiawase to

Ichiban hayaku kono saka nobotta mono gachi
Ichiban sukina ano basho mezashite

Takusan no omoide ga aru hoka niha nani mo iranai kurai
Hitomi wo tojireba sugu ano umi no nioi

Mata natsu ga kuru giniro ni hikaru
Minamo ni utsusu futaribun no kage

Dare yorimo toku he ittemo kokokara mata waratte kureru?

hm..sry..can't find the english translation..sry..if hav den i post again...
Hitomi wo tojireba futto ano hi no aozora

juz came back from swimming!!Today went swimming with yiling...and mindy lorzz...haha..and found out smth dat realy hurt me..my pri sch fren say e meeting was canceled..i mean outing..den my another fren saw dem on bus..if dey mind me going dey shld juz say lor..it hurts u noe..sad man..sobb...wah..haha..ok la..yeah..juz now went swimming..saw a frog..haha..we were so scared..den...e mindy and yiling so stupid..a twig drop on them dey tot it was a stick insect or whatever..it was just a twig..lol..okok la..lets see..now making another blogskin...haha..nothing to do..thats why..i can't figure out the code for the navigates!!so angry..so tired of everything..haiz..wana juz drift off and sleep..and never wake up..mayb all my problems will end of wadeva..i was realy very sad..aiya..suan le la..too bad..haiz..ya..juz reemember smth..e burton and e eric..especially e burton..loves to fight with me during msn..den e burton keep calling me a bitch..i realy duno y..i only fight with dem..e other guys no way..they not gentleman at all..so wad..hate them...hha..haiz...tmr goin to search for job..during the school holidays..if not school holidays nth to do...and i might as well earn some money..den can buy what i wan tand everything...haha...i love the song "fly"...very nice..and "so yesterday" and "anywhere but here" all by hilary duff...e lyrics are nice..okok..gtg..bye..and to do my blogskin...buaix..

Sianx..

Exams end already...finally!!yay!haha...okok..but abit sad though..bcoz some ppl tell others dun hang out with who..feel like telling him to shut up..stupid ww4..(world war 4)...they are so childish..telling people this telling people that..i can't stand them..actually not them..him only..propenganda ppl..nth to do..always tell ppl to side who..hate him..ah!!!they like that..the victimes are the ppl around them..not them..so childish..so old already..i mean that guy only la..hey..don't be friends with blah blah..nth to do..dun feel like talking bout them any more..siao one..i write other things better..anyway..yesterday i use the computer for whole 10hrs..haha..break record already..wahaha..hehe..siao ar me..then yesterday my eyes so pain..haha..nevermind..anyway..i change blogskin already..nice right?hehe..i love it..especially the song call...fall to pieces..very nice by avril lavign..haha..nice man..it rox..okok..praise myself..haha..
okok..anyway..yesterday..i went jia ying house having the intention...to swim..but..yesterday is black friday..so cannot..sobb..so sad..her ,mum dun let..i dun mind..coz i dun blieve..haha..anyway i m so angry..now all the horror movies NC16..how to watch..sobb..i underage until like that..haiz..since..don;t have horror movies then i don't want to watch already..haha..go play tetrinet le..bb..

i'm just tired..

I m..tired of all this..all this that is happening..tired of keeping everyhting to myself..why can't i just say the things i want to say..i guess i'm afraid..afraid that ppl will start making fun of whatever they will say or gossip about..yeah..i m very tired..really very tired of bottling everything to myself..i just want to let it all out in one breath..just want to get out of all this..all..of THIS...well..but i guess i can't..i can't..cause i do no have the courage..the courage to..say it all out..i don't want anyone to talk about it..haha...i really wana say..but i don't dare..how..who will give me the courage?the friends that say they are?its because i m scared of them..its friends that take out the truth change it and anyhow say it..i m so tired of all thi nonsense..y can't everyone juz b mature and think of other ppl before they talk..before things go out of their mouth?i can't..can't believe it..i..just wish that i b taken away..make me think of avril song..take me away..kind of describe my feelings..haha..yeah..this make me think of syeh ying..she hates songs that describe the situation she is in..of cause she hate it..who will want to listen to them?listen to their own..life..and how bad it is..i m afraid..afraid that i will always be like that..haha..be what?be forever here..where i have no one that can be trusted to talk to..sianx..thats the truth people thats the truth..ppl..r selfish..dun think how some words can hurt some ppl..and do u noe once u said it..u canot take it back?even if it heals..it leave scars..and nobody's heart will be perfect with no scars..no way..haha...its true..sad isn't it..i can't see my haert but i noe my heart has lots of scars now..and its going to burst soon..with all the things inside..all the things inside that has never be let out... I feel like I am all alone,
All by myself I need to get around this,My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you,If I show you, I don't think you'd understand,Cause no one understands,the black aprt is the lyrics..haha..its true..nobody understand..ppl always say..if i were in ur shoes..If i were..u never b..coz u r not be all these r just IMPOSSIBLE...i realy want to stop all these..i m so confuse..my world is in a confusion..dun say that u understand how i feel..coz u will never..nobody will understand..no one..forever..no one understands..except me..i dun even think i understand myself..what i really want..i have no idea..i have no idea at all what i want...i dun want to know..i guess...thats the truth..the situation i m in..is the worst thing...that happen to me..its a major thing..i m just scared i can't get over it..this is the worst thing i have encountered..anyway..whateva u read here..plz..do not tok to me in person..coz i noe i will feel very uneasy...i dun wan to tok about it..juz say i m avoiding it..but i duno hwo to face it..no one can teach me how..except myself..but right now..i guess i can just..avoid it till i know what to do with it..how to solve it..wad i can do is..just to avoid it..bye..

I wana say wad i realy wana say

well..i was thinking if i was truthful enough...and the truth is..i have never been truthful..i keep everything to myself..then whats the point of havin a blog?just to have fun or what..what i really wan to say.. that..i try to say the..but if i say it..everybody will keep saying this and that..so i don't really know..haha..i m in this state of mind that i should just keep things to myself..cause once i post it..once ppl know it..they will say..so..i really duno anyway..exams coming..so hm..gd luck to my frens..girls guys..and...wadever..haha...hm..i telling everybody to work hard but i m still here writing posts..tmr is..geo and maths...exam..so must work hard...must...must...work hard..yeah..haha..well..bye..people..bye..

intresting post..

well..i was reading tru my last tym posts..bcoz i wan find inspiration...for art project...when i came across tiz post dat i have wrote...so i decided to post it again here...
When u see a smiling face,you assume that the person is happy..But do you know that actually the person is crying in the heart?It is very difficult to understand feelings because humans have this special thing call feelings that makes us special from other things..We can make our face impression happy and convince other people although we know that in our hearts we are decieving ourselves...But many times,evn we ourselves dun understand what we are doing..It just seems like someone had taken ur brain away or shld i say the ability to understand urself.Humans are reali very special..They are some things that robots can never achieve..They are something with a heart that know what is right and wrong.Plz never believe that when someone do wrong things all the time means that the person duno what is right and wrong..But actually the person chose to do it because of some motive or he just do not want to care what he does and how it affects the ppl around him and him himself..

Sometimes we think that we are correct but when you know that you are wrong,you must accept the fact and admit your mistake.Never ever think that everyone is perfect because everybody is not the same..so when you think you are not perfect..ppl might think tt u r the most perfect person in the whole world..So never look down on yourself because everyone have their talent..Only that they have not realise it yet..


Cinderella Story or Snow white?

From fairytales to fairytales,all stories starts with a wicked stepmother and ends with a happy ending.Well,real life is the same but u can't be sure that the ending is the same.In life we experience obstacles,tough events and many other things but they are part of growing up.Reading storybooks like fairytales wun get you anywhere because you will start to believe that in the real worls there is such wonderfull things and endings.Then you will be blind by your own world..Having a world that is unrealistic and wonderful doesn't mean it is totally harmful but you know that too much of it will land you in great trouble because you will start to have impossible dreams like you want to land and live in pluto forever or whateva..I am not here to discourage you of reading storybooks but i hope all of us will face the real world and admit the fact that we are living in a world where there is evil and good..And there are lots of things that you will need to learn..Knowledge cannot be gained overnight.You have to work hard for it..

Well...thought again...

E thing i wana say is dat ppl shld not look at the surface of things only because there might b a deeper meaning inside and once we miss it...we might never get it back again....like when u lose a opportunity...u nv come back again..so ppl shld cherish everyting in their life and think positive..coz life is short so y dun we enjoy it instead of wasting our time thinking dat ppl's life is more intresting and waste our chances of being happy...well...i m tokn further and further away from the topic..i realy duno wad to do for my art..haiz..any ideas?tel me if u hav..thanks arh..haha...

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sianz..i hate my blogskin..so i gona find one again..but cannot connect to blogskins.com..sianx..nvm..change next tym..today went ctz hse to study..geo,sci and maths...s,wb and me went..at first is i and sharine go first den study...den..bout 4 smth wb juz come..haiz...slowpoke la him..use 2 hrs to comb his hair and bathe..can u blieve it?slower than girls and vainer than girls..haha...sianx..nth to do nw..muz go study le..but dun feel like studying lehz..so how ar..haiz..also duno..i duno anything..i feel so sianx everyday..i feel that tym passes so fast yet so slow...its like..in a blink of eye its 2 years..but everyday..e tym passes so slow..when will b tmr?
i hope my life ends soon..haha..so i can have more tym to rest and dun need to think bout..other things..and worry wad i need to do..haiz..WorldWar4 started..luckily i not invovled..my frens are in a mess..xcept me..nth actuali happens in my life...nt life my frens..dere's are far more intresting..haiz..gtg...and duno do wad..bye..