sianx..still gt hmwk haven do..haven eat dinner yet..so bad ar me..ok la..i come back from dinner surely do hmwk de ok..no online write post den later go hm lorz...and do hmwk..so sian..nth to do..no game to play..play wad..no one chat wif me also..dats wad dat is more boring..well..i very slack le..very bad hor..exam coming..beta buck up..okok..ppl..plz..write a testi from me k..thanks alot..in frester i mean..if u haven add me..plz do it..thanks..my nic is baby hwee..i m sure u can find it one...ok..dats all..bye...

lalala..feeling better le..senior step down today...i didn't cry..duno y..all my frens say..aren't u sad dat e seniors r going and tiz is e last prac?i juz feel like..i can't imagine it so next wk during choir mayb i will cry..sob..crying in my heart..haha..well...i m reali sad..i can't imagine how e choir ill b without e seniors..everything..was dem..dey r e ones..dat deserve all these...come on plz..how can choir b like tiz without them?but..i noe..dat dey will come back and visit us right..and..ya..i wana take neoprints wif dem..plz set a date..and invite me..so we can take neoprint together..haha..i so hapi thinking of tiz..mayb can watch muwee den take neoprint..yeah..nice..so seniors plz tell me when u free..k..haha..go eat lunch now first...beh...i mean dinner..back..yeah..yummy..haha...go watch tv..bye

haha..now all my openigs r haha...aactuali i m very sad..juz nw tution maths test so bad..so sad..get very lan..realy..can't blieve it..but i also haven study yet..haven even memorize e formula..so how to do haha..its algebra la..die..expansion and contraction..chee..i mean factorisation..i luv science..i hate maths..so tough..luv science...lala..my score haiz..so sad again..sobb..realy very bad lehz..dun tel u all..only me cassandra and me tution teacher now..hahaz...muhahahaha..ee..become monster le..coz me bro bside me..influence me to bcome monster..hehe..haha..hoho..huhu.. whee...anyone..hu say i m an idiot..breathe...hahahahahahahaha..i m an IDIOT...my brother say one..can u blieve it..he so evil hor..haha..evil pig...hope he get slaughtered by e butches..u noe how dey kill pigs?dey hang it up den slash...u see e intestine flying out..cool huh..my bother one wun..coz fats too much..so fats keep flowing out and flooded e whole room and e butcher drown in my bro's oil..wahahaha..nice story..okok..me go do hmwk le...bb...('' ,)

haha..even passer-by pass by..dun even noe hu is dat..finding all e pictures dat is "all alone"..hah..i didn't mean physically but mentally..i m left out again..hav problems juz tok to my pillows..at least dey wun laugh at me..wad hurts me e most is dat no one remembers me..no one at all..even at e last moment..its not even a teeny me ppl remember...One day..if u dun hear from me anymore..dun get shocked or anything coz its e way u treat me got me to do wad i shld..dats is to give up myself..i dun realy show myself in sch..to everyone i m a cheerful girl..hu hav no problems no troubles and walks around wif a hapi face..i dun realy like to tok bout my problems..i hav a whole bunch of frens..frens dat dun care and everything..to me frens r nt ppl hu tok or see each other everytday..to me..dey r someone hu concern and care..for dere frens..and..those dat will remember to keep in touch..old frens always say dey r busy..its juz and excuse..no matter how busy u r u will hav time to keep in touch..even a small little sms wun hurt..a small little sms might mean nth to u..but it might mean e whole world to dat person..y can't ppl think more for other ppl dan demselves?y can't ppl spare a thought for me?y dey always like hurt her also nvm one..coz i m nt going to b her fren foreva..do u noe wadeva u say would b always in their hear..wadeva u said to hurt dem would leave a scar in their hearts..dun keep saying its nt ur fault..y dun u think and c..c if its ur fault..har..feel like scolding one million bad words at everybody..i juz duno y..no matter where..in sch..i m always e ODD ONE OUT..y..it has to b me?e worst thing dat happen to me is..me being born in this world..it mus b e same to u all..too..e worst thing dat happen to u all..is knowing me..

Can't cry hard enough
I'm gonna live my life
like every days' the last
without a simple goodbye it all goes by so fast

and now that you're gone I can't cry heard enough
I can't cry hard enough
for you to hear me now

gonna open my eyes and see for the first time
I've let go of you like
a child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky
there it goes beyond the clouds
for no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enoug for you to hear me now

gonna look back in vain and see you standing there
when all that remains is just an empty chair
anad now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough, I can't cry hard enough
for you to hear me now

There it goes, up in the sky
there it goes beyond the clouds
for no reason why
I can't cry hard enough, no I can't cry hard enough
for you to hear me now

Luv my blog's song..so sad..juz kind o describe my feelings..haha..wad e hell m i..whr is e eng hwee dat always cheers ppl up when dey r sad..i can't blieve i change so much..i was actually someone hu..is always hapi..u nv see me sad..i m e one consoling ppl and a light hu brighten up ppl's life..i can nv b e one hu brighten up and brin laughter to ur life anymore coz..i m kind of at e losing end..and now i m startin to believe dat ppl being bored to e world is juz to b totureed by nature..and dying is juz e way to end e suffering..e suffering of everything..everything....y everything has to b like dat..i m alr trying my best..i struggled as hard as i can..but juz seems like i m still drowning..when i can b e one i used to b..givin up seem like e only choice..say gd bye to e cheerful eng hwee..haha..wad e hell..i wun stop strugglin..i blieve dat if i try..one day i will reach e shore..though wad i c now is only a water all around me..i m sure someone will b..b..e float dat lead me to shore..i blieve dat would hapen...

lala...haha..today achievement day le..end le..at hm usin com..listening to angela song again..asking around again..hu hav e song..wad ar..wads e title..wait i go check..oh ya..look what you have done by jet..if u all hav..plz..send me ar..thanks hor..haha..so tired but still wan go online coz very sian..so here am i lorz..sianx..facin at tiz screen..thinking of wad to write..wanna add my junior at msn one..but forgot her e-mail again..yeah..i think is jace_nutty@hotmailcom..check first..duno corect nort..yay!ii got gd memory..corect addres..tokin to no one nw..and no one wans to tok to me..hahaz..no la..lazy o doubleclick someone and tok to dat person..wad i realy wan do now..is snuggle up my bed with my pillows and hav a gd nite slp..yet i m nt doing dat..wad m i exactl doin..duno..tiz few days i funi funi de..feel so left out..i m juz an extra..like e saying gos..2 is company 3 is a crowd..so everytime pair work no one wans to pair wih me..i m always e one hu takes e leftovers..so sad..sianx..wana cry..and..seniors steppin down le..wad wil happen to choir?
where will e happy memories go?whr will it b kept..willl dey b forgotten once dey live choir..wana giv dem smth but duno giv wad..ar..so sad..if i think too much i willl cry den think of many things..haha..funi me..imagining things again lorz..haha..dun care bout me larz..later ok again..

haha..listening to yi shi de mei hao now by angela..anlog a bit lorz..and juz kind of change my blog by abit lorz..and..ppl..if u can't see e words change ur encoding to universal..yeah..den u can see e words..e english words r juz translated from chinese..
yeah..so..well..tag my blog more often k..anyway..lol..my brother being bullied by me..dun care..lalala..ah..he poke me..sob..big bully..i hate him..wah..only i can poke him..he canot poke me..so huai ar him..noti boi..so childish..haha..u all like e song?so sad rite..haiz..nice song seh..i luv it alot..hehe..its a sad song from e anime..Air..tiz anime air is very touching..toks bout a girl hu wants to fly in the sky..and well..dats all i can say..coz its too complex..ut if u hav e chance to watch it..watch k..coz u wun regret it..=P...hehe...sian..i like promoting anime lidat..haha..E other information bout it u can find it at..wait..it is in jap language..tink some places hav eng subtitles ba..

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Sianx..exam coming le..mum dun let me use com le..write blog post also canot..so sad..haiz..too bad la..gotta go study le..but dun feel like..and ya..anyone hu hav e song"look what you've done"plz..send..me...thanks ar..haiz..today go run lor..den wan to skip but also canot..so very scared me..sian..today no hmwk..wad suject shld i choose to study today..yeah..history..nice choice..only 3 chapters and i always got pay attention in class so very fast can finish one..den can online again..yay..haha..hm.. listin to tong hua by guang liang...put e lyrics here for u all..hehe..aiya dun wan la. hm..mayb other song lyrics..to end my post..lets see..wad song..yeah..e song i want..look what you have done..ppl..if u hav e song plz send me..and another question..how to upload a song in blog?coz iwebmusic got spyware..so if u hav suggestions..plz plz..tag me blog..thanks alot!!hope u all get solve my problems..my headache probs...

Look what you have done

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

yay!!we won a silver..well..but tiz silver caused many tngs to happen coz of rumours dat band r saying dat if we such a lousy choir can get silver dey can easily get gold..well..i dun care if tiz is true anot..coz we put in our effort and i noe dat we deserved tiz silver like u sow what u reap..its true ok..e silver might b low silver..but its a huge improvement..so here in my blog i wana say"THANK YOU MISS ONG!"thanks for guiding us though i m well..always nt diciplined..and always very noisy causing u to stop everytime and waste lots of time..but i m sure dat i m trying to change so i can make myself better and can prove to the sch dat we got wad we r supposed to have and not of other reasons..and i wana tell others plz do not look down on choir..u all think dat choir is very easier but have u ever sing a song and let others judge it?u think it is very easy?actuali it is very hard to hit all the notes and most of all we have to blend together like all for one..and we sing songs dat r not realy nice..come on..we r a choir..nt a pop group or wad..no matter how ugly u think it is do u have e courage to stand in front of the stage and sing it in front of your frens?yes..u will think but once u step onto e stage..do u dare to sing it?u will think dat is e very embarrasing..and lastly wad i wan to say is..i will b trying my best and prove to u dat choir is not just a easy cca where u sit in a air-con room singing and relxing better dan e other ccas..we tried so hard juz to reach this standard if u tell other ccas to sing together do u think u can b better dan us?every cca has its own difficulties..since i join choir..i will put our hearts into it and make sure wad i present to u is e best of myself..and i m proud to say loudly dat i m from choir.Even though choir's syf is over but i m going to work even harder..to make myself better..and of coz..GD LUCK to e other ccas for ur syf and hope dat u all will also put ur heart into it and bring glory to the school!! well..(all e things i say is based on my opinion..if u feel u r offended plz do not blame e others)

At my cousin hse now..writing blog..hopin ppl will tag me blog..haha..coz no one tags my blog de!!ah..anyone plz...if u read my blog give comments..thanks..sian..my brother tokin nonsense bside me..saw wad i wrote and tickle me..so itchy..haiz..nth to do leh..chatting wif syeh..and nth to do except dat..listening to music now..e song is mirror mirror by m2m..ice song..haha..write wrong..shld b nice song..nt ice song..sianx..