Fighting..

I dun understand..how can the best of frens become enemies in just one night..hiaz..
maybe our relationship is just not strong enough..haiz..and now i m e middle man..but actuali i m not reali i mean i noe tt my relationship with them is not strong too..haiz..me and chi wei have a fight den we patch up again den fight again..now its ok..i duno i we will fight again..haiz..i reali duno us now..although yiling dey all like to tok but dey are jus abit talkative..tts all..haiz..but dey seldom fight or shld i say dey nv fight be4..i reali hope that our relationship will be stronger...although we already went through alot of obstacles together..but its no use..our relationship can be broken easily..i wanna patch them up but instead create another fight..i reali dun understand y tiz will happen..i feel like giving up..but i can't coz they are my frens..i can't juz dun care about it..and it is the other frens tt keep me going on tilll now..i hope i can survive..its so complicated now..i reali hope our relationship will get stronger...

Frens...

What exactly r frens?I always wonder bout tiz..we seen so much poems bout frens but have we ever wondered tat the frens we have is exactly like e poems?one tat stands by u when u r in trouble..one hu will share his or her joy wif u...to me no...e answer is no..i haven met any fren tat ever stand by me when i m in trouble or wat..
Frens r actuali e same as true frens and it is just that true frens are closer tahn frens to u...well..since i nv met any frens be4 so wat have i met so far?dey are just ppl tt are one rank above strangers..so ppl..if u reali have frens..plz cherish dem..if not u will regret it..u will..u will..

Wrong or correct..

Everytime we tok to another person..we often tink tt e person noe wat we are toking bout..but actuali we r wrong..we often sent e wrong signal to another person..and we does tt we will say tt another person is so chi dun(means slow in understanding in tiz text)...but have we ever wondered maybe it was over fault?ppl often tin tt dey are rite but dey jus dun care..dey dun bother to tink twice be4 dey say or do smth which often result in many bad tings...we r al ppl hu likes to push e blame on others...we dun like ppl saying tings tt are bad bout us..but we still say other ppl..and we noe tt dey dun like it..when ppl say negative tings bout us..we often tink of smth to say dem back..actaulli..we shld tink bout what e person said and change our mistakes..

How Hard Have I tried?

No matter how hard i have tried to forget them and live my own life..i can't do it..is it becoz tat i did not put in enough effort?i reali dun understand..I hope dere will b someone standing b side me always and help me to clean up my mess..but it seems impossible..its impossible..for so many frens tt i have met..none of dem seems true..all of dem seems so full of demself..e onli time i can reali feel tt i m myself i when i m studying..maybe when i have things to do..i wun tink so much den..
seeing me cheerful is possible..but it might not be a real one..have anyone of u ever tink tt u touch somebody's heart with ur own efforts?Ever help someone by yourself and ever tink tt u have a real true fren?if u have one of e questions answered yes...e fren muz be fortunate to have u as a fren..

Sometimes...

Sometimes i tot if i avoid dem..i will feel beta...i reali m lost i duno wat is happening at all...i dun understand myself..i dun even noe y i do some things..i duno if i wan to do smth anot...it feels like i m lost in a world..a dark world that locks me from the outside world..i just duno..perhaps...i shld juz avoid dem..when i avoid dem..i will find back my happiness...my cheerfulness..now..i can't..i juz can't believe tt i m lost in a world of darkness tt locks me from the outside world..i feel so sry saying i will feel beta but e more i tik i will..the worse i feel...

Haiz...

Now e blog and e tag-board all so lag..so see blog e music also so lone juz come...haha..btw u all muz be lamed by e pop ups i put..but at least if u were feeling bad it did make u a little cheerful rite?i hope it did..coz that was y iput it up..if i did not make u feel better..tag it at my tag board..i delete it rite away..

Feeling Beta coz of u dere for me~~~

Thx..hehe..I reali feel better but i m sure i can do beta than tiz..i will listen to all my mama de advice de..Thx Sindhu mummy and yvonne mummy..Haha..So chi wei yiyi..
U wun be left out de..I felt it..I knew u r trying ur best..I hope i can reali go back to myself..Sometimes in sch wif frens i also feel tt i m too quiet..haha..when i m "cured" i m sure i be more talkative de...Thz everyone..I felt encouraged all becozed of u always dere for me..so remember to link me!!if u wan me to link u juz put it at my tag board..I will CHEER UP!!

My Life is a disaster

Guess after reading other ppl's blogs dey agree with me tt life is a disaster..tt time i met my pri sch frens...I feel so sad..I regretted everything i have done so far..And all the frens i made are so close yet seem so faraway...After reading chi wei's blog i just realise how selfish i was of thinking everything was other ppl's fault..And no matter which frens i made there is smth wrong wif the relationship..
Maybe its reali my fault..In pri sch..I was surrounded my frens of all levels hu were so envious of me as i at tt time have no worries at all till i came to sec sch...Eveyting seem to have changed...Me too..Maybe i was the one who had changed..I once tot tt bottling up feelings is wrong but i just realise u shld not be too truthful in life too...It seems tt everything i did in life was wrong..Every single ting or action i did..I m starting to regret..I tot i was reali one of the cheerful ones among my frens...Well..haha tt was a big mistake..i was the most unfortunate one..My life turned upside down once i went sec sch..I tot i would feel beta if i juz confess my feelings to my frens..Well tt was wrong..I reali starting to regret it..Most of the ppl see me as a happy person..A person tt have no worries at all..
Maybe tt was what they shld noe onli..I shld not have told dem wat i felt..maybe life wun be tt bad for me..I regretted saying how i felt..I regretted everyhing..I think i shld not have chosen such a happy pic..I shld have chose one that i can express my feelings..So here i m looking back at my past..I reali hope tt i can go back to pri sch and stay dere forever..den i will not be here..In such a sorry state..Feeling so lost in the real world...Sad to say frens..I m not the kind of bubbly person u tot i was..I m so sori...

Mayb..Mayb..

This few days..I was thinking about the time i spent with my friends and i just realise what a sorry sate i m in...Everytime i send message to chi wei,she will surely reply the message with charmaine saying this and that..Hu cares what she says?Who i m smsing is u not her...True frens are always beside you..It must be a load of crap..or tt you are not even my friend...Frens stand by each other when they are in trouble...I m always standing by u but u chose not to tell me so what can i do?But why when i m in trouble you are always not there for me?You are always busy or with charmaine..If things turn out liddat i rather be with yiling dey all although they are sometimes a bit talkative..They welcome ppl dey dun make u feel taht u r invisible..Why when u all want to tell someone smth i am always the last to noe?Am i reali a extra or what?And it doesn't even matter that i m there for u anot?
Everytime i have troubles i want to tell u but u were always busy..Even if you are there you would just nod your head and continuing saying your troubles to me and hoping taht i will console u.Then waht about me?Is it taht i don't need anyone to console?I feel so extra everytime i just dun understand..Does the problem lies with me or what?Den u all always say about what a great time u all have at each other houses..I know taht you all are having a great time..But u all shld make me feel better mar..I don't live near u and i can't be with u all at all times and when i m..U all keep saying what u all did together..Sometimes i reali feel like crying..I was thinking taht maybe it was my fault but i reali tried to change but no matter what i did it was no use at all..And y does charmaine always have to break my relationship with another friend?For example tt time me and sharine were great frens den she came in between and made me feel extra so i went to find u..But she like played with sharine and feel tired of playing with her so she come in between me and u..Y does she always want to make me feel so extra?You all dun like me to keep spending time with yiling dey all but u all forced me to..I had no choice as i seem so extra with you all so i have to go and find them..Dey treat me beta..They help me when i m in trouble..I have evidence..Like tt time i 4got to tell the pupils what to brong for their home econs..U all didn't help me at all..And u all just continue toking about other tings..Ya maybe u duno how to help and instead of sharing my troubles u all continue to say about your troubles hoping tt i will think tt u all are so poor and shoul console u...But when i go and find yiling dey all..they immediately console me and end their talk and help me think of A idea..Ya..Maybe i made the wrong choice..of FRENS...

Advice fora guy hu called me to shut my bloody asshole mouth up

My advice for you is not to scold others without thinking about yourself..Don't scold me for interfering in your conversation with someone..So waht if i want to interrupt.If you don't want extra trouble, you better also keep your bloody asshole mouth shut.Whateva we put at our blog is none of your buisness and none of your buisness to scold us.We don't need your idiotic comments and after u read this u better behave yourself.Don't think that you are 2 yrs old older than me then i m scared of you..So waht if you are tall..What matters most is the attitude shown and i want to tell you the truth..Your attitude sux so if you want less enemies yopu better change it and stop contolling other ppl's life.What they do is none of your buisness..And u can't control their friends..You are so childish on telling the friends of a person you don't like about fake stories that they are bad or what. The ppl who believe you deserve my pity.But i want to tell you smth..Bad guys always don't live long..So u better change your stupid attitude and SHUT YOUR BLOODY ASSHOLE MOUTH UP SUCKER!!

Story blog...

Chi Wei and i have created a webby just for the stories we create..It is http://int-stories.blogspot.com...Quite nice..Should take a look if you are free..And i m sorry if we had use your names but we only use part of it and those who are not ivolved in the stories we created please don't be a busybody and KEEP YOUR BLOODY ASSHOLE MOUTH Up!!(the words i scolding refers to a guy and not the others and i m sure if the guy read this he will know it is referring to him)

Words for somebody..

Everytime i m the one left out..C and u all always together..den s and y together...
Onli me..Everytime i odd one out de..So sad..Den u all dun like me to hang out wif yiling dey all rite..coz u all dun wanna be wif me or always left me out mar..Huh..
U think i like to be with dem meh..I had no choice..U all always treat me as invisible...I hate u all..U take me for granted..And e C always object to whatva i say..example go 7-eleven..she object and say she wanna eat in e sch..In e end i have to find yiling dey all lor..

Words for some ppl

Everytime i m the one left out..C and u all always together..den s and y together...
Onli me..Everytime i odd one out de..So sad..Den u all dun like me to hang out wif yiling dey all rite..coz u all dun wanna be wif me or always left me out mar..Huh..
U think i like to be with dem meh..I had no choice..U all always treat me as invisible...I hate u all..U take me for granted..And e C always object to whatva i say..example go 7-eleven..she object and say she wanna eat in e sch..In e end i have to find yiling dey all lor..