MOVED .

HELLOS EVERYONE ! I've officially moved to www.hwee-ified.com which means I won't be bloggin here anymore . A little sad . I mean this blog has been with me for so long . I won't close down this blog because it contains all my archives and posts which I've decided not to export to the new blog . So if you ever want to read what happened in the past, you can still come here and visit . Like I would ! :D So yeah people . Relink . Thanks (:

TGIF ! :P

Gosh . Been so long since I've felt this kind of ache . I remember that when I was in secondary school, I loved to play badminton with my friends after school . And it's really those kind of insane type . We play for really long like 4 5 hours ? And after that when you're really thirsty, you're wrist is so tired until you can't even hold a can drink upright . So it's completely "puppet" .

Now, I feel EXACTLY the same . It's a little crazy but yeah . I can't really move my hands much . It's like stuck to the table top ? The ache starts kicking in when I start to control it . Yupp . And the reason for it ? I've been lifting someone up a lot of times . And the person is .. FLIPEE ! I mean ANGHUILING ! :X LOL . So cute yeah ! Flipee ~ I love it . I mean the name :X YingZhu and me were the flippers :P I'm really weak . My arms have no strength . I finally understood how it feels to carry someone . It's totally exhausting . Usually I was the one being lifted x.x well .. 

School was okay I guess . Wasn't as long as yesterday . Managed to endure it all . And the reason is most probably school started later today . So I could get a little more sleep ~ :DD Actually I didn't because I slept later . LOL x.x 

Met up with WeiQin in the morning . We were both late but we came the same time which is like way cool . Then we walked up to SunPlaza's mac . Was queuing when I suddenly felt a white prescence behind me . As in there was someone wearing white behind me . I turned around and saw Melvin . LOL . He was like " WeiQin why did you look here ! " . I was like "I could feel someone behind x.x " . So we cleared up the misunderstanding and WeiQin wasn't the reason why I turned around . It was a little weird as WeiQin smsed Melvin during midnight . And somehow, he woke up around 2 plus and read it . So somehow, we didn't expect him to come but he did . So yeah . WeiQin gave him that pencilbox she had . Perfect for him . On top it wrote "For whole human beings only " . He was like so happy with it and said that he would quickly make the transfer . Hilarious .

Reached school like quite early . Melvin was still worried that we might be late . Well . Can't blame him because he usually takes the bus to school . Oh . And the message that WeiQin sent to Melvin . LOL . So funny :X Shall not blog it out or she'll KILL me :X

PC/CT was a little lame . Didn't do much . Went for maths reflection . Well .. I feel sad for teachers . How hurt they would feel when the students ain't paying attention or don't fare well . Because they would feel that it's their fault that the students get such results . And Muthu was playing PSP under the table ?! x.x

Physics lecture was quite okay . Sat beside YangJie and WeiQin . We were freezing ! And YangJie lent WeiQin his shirt . Guess what did WeiQin say immediately when she got hold of it ? "It stinks" . LOL :X So mean . Hehe ~

Computing . Had practical . Basically I was trying to fix that stupid error . And Mr Ho was so mean to me ! I asked him what's wrong with the program because I seriously couldn't solve it . Okay . I shall type it properly so you all could visualize what happened .

Me : Mr Ho ~ I NEED HELP ! SERIOUS .

Mr Ho : Okay what .

Me : I have no idea what error this is .

Mr Ho : Oh . Read it .

Me : (started reading)

Mr Ho : No . I also can read . You read then figure out on your own (walks away)

Me : What ?! x.x 

Thanks YeowKeng for helping -______- I was like AHHH . Mr Ho is sooo unfriendly :X LOL . After that he was helping Jeannette . She was complaining that he was so mean . I told her that's he was already good to her . Mine was much worse . Jolene added in saying that if it's us . He would just walk away . Which is what happened to me apparently x.x Well . But the practises are making me get the hang of it already . Quite happy :DD

Break . BROKED inside out . I couldn't buy food . Well .. I guess someone did lend me money . Haix ~ :l Oh well . Forget it . Saw XueEr . And I found out that Jeannette is Lynnette's OGL . Lynnette is SO CUTE ! I was telling them that she's always teaching us WonderGirl's dance during our dance practises . And she immediatly perked up after hearing the word "WonderGirls" . I was telling her about what happened yesterday when she was asking Kyung to teach her korean . It was so funny how the others believed that she was half korean .

Did the card for Ms Huang during break too with WeiQin . It was a farewell gift because it was the last day she would be attached to our class . She would be teaching J1s from next week onwards ): Never mind . Shall meet up next time since she only live so near us ! Sembawang ~ :P

Had Physics lesson after that . Was really tired . Then went for dance . Learnt new parts . Lifting people is seriously not an easy job . Disappointment ? What can I say . All I could do is make the best out of it right now . Hold on people because we're in it all together ..

Thanks Daph for the picture ! She took a photo of WenJia and me using her polaroid camera . It was SO COOL . And I'm keeping it :X Sorry WenJia . Heh ~ Shall show it next time . Because WenJia wanted to take home and scan it into the computer . And I realised that WenJia and me look alike when we wear the Canberra house shirt . And also after I went to cut my fringe . LOL :P

After dance, WenJia and me sat at a bench near the mrt . It was dark and windy . Felt really good to sit down and relax while eating subway cookies :P Peanut butter and Macadamia . Talked about stuff . I guess she's the only one that really knows what's going on in my life right now . Because we are like so much alike and all . Thanks :D I need a friend and you're there for me .

Anyways I heard this song just now when I was visiting Jonathan's blog . It was the piano version . It's really good ! I love it :P 

Bright cold silver moon

Tonight alone in my room

You were here just yesterday

Slight turn of the head

Eyes down when you said

I guess I need my life to change

Seems like something's just aren't the same

What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

And every time that I try I get tongue tied

I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars

I wonder just where you are

You feel a million miles away

(I wonder just where you are)

Was it something I said?

Or something I never did?

Or was I always in the way?

(Was it something I did?)

Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

And every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end

Don't want to be here again

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

What it takes I don't care

We're gonna make it I swear

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

But every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit

Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet

Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end

Don't want to be here again

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

What it takes I don't care

We're gonna make it I swear

And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again 

credits : lyricsreg.com

Ahh . Before I forget . Two pictures I've taken in the past . MingSheng's new Meiji bottle . He was so happy over it and flaunt how good it was . Then I shot him . Wow .. Good but ..

It leaked ? And his whole bag was wet . LOL .

A little happy . LOL :P Shouldn't say why  . Lala ~

JASPER .

tell me tell me tell me too ~

Well . I'm comfortably on my chair now, waiting for JiaKiang to teach me question 6 of the physics tutorial . So till then, I shall blog ! :D Today is a LONG day and hence I bet the blog post is gona be long too :P

During assembly, there were talks on Floorball's trip to Japan and Band's trip to HongKong . Well . I was quite envious of how they managed to see the snow because they went to the other part of Japan while we stayed in Tokyo for the entire week . And also the homestay . I really wanted to see how it feels to live in a Japanese home . They also showed us a video on cheerleading . Gosh . It's not that kind of cheerleading you're thinking of . I recently just read a manga that featured cheerleading during their school's sportmeet . It was really cool . And looking at the "real" japanese do it was a little funny at first because they were so serious . But as I watched on, I realised how serious they were and how much they value it . They play a huge part in lifting the students' spirit during important events . I guess if we see it in a different perspective and we stop how we view people based on popularity, maybe one day we can do it too . It may seem funny to those who can't comprehend and lack the courage to do what they want . In the end, they just go with the flow and in the end, they can never achieve what they really want .

Okay . Enough with all this . Band's way of presenting was really cute . Brought a lot of laughter and all . Was totally engrossed in it . It was way COOL ! How they managed to perform in HongKong's Disneyland . I mean it's an experience not everyone can get to have . Totally envious ! :P Not to forget, the last part of the presentation when they were showing the video, there was a live performance by Jonathan . He was playing the piano . Gosh . It was so heartwrenching ! The tune was so good . And the melody is still stuck in my head right now . I turned around and told Jolene " Either I learn how to play the piano, or my future boyfriend must be able to play it " :X LOL . I mean .. it's seriously .. yeah . LOL .

And also people, please vote for YJ ! yishunjc.does.it Mr Phang is in it ! And he spoke really fluent Chinese . Way to go ! :P

GP lecture was a little boring I guess . I'm tired of the intense comprehension exercises . Felt like sleeping . My vocab is really bad . I didn't know most of the words . In the end, I only got one mark for it . I guess it's normal in some sense . It's not like I got more than 2 marks for vocab before -___________-

Economics lessons was stoning again . Computing was ahhh x.x I guess Jolene is sick of me already . Because I don't have a single clue what Mdm Myl is saying . I think today's one was the first time I got it . Yeah . The previous ones were x.x Haix . And guess what's the best part ? There's a test on it next monday . All the best to me !

Break was the best . Half an hour only for the entire long day of school plus extra malay lesson and dance . Ate all I could . Finally I came to realize why MingSheng can eat a plate of beehoon and get full . Mine was like 1/3 of his and I couldn't even finish it . Felt really full when I've eaten half portion of it .

Physics lecture, I was "lost" . Maths lesson . There was a test . Guess I fared okay . Starting to get the hang of vectors like finally ? Showed Jolene Wondergirl's music videos . Lynnette is driving me crazy with them and I'm infecting the others . Good job yeah ? I sang "Nobody" and "Tell me" for the entire day . Jolene was exasperated by my actions but she couldn't have a say in whatever I'm doing . So she had to suffer :PP

GP lesson . We had a vocab pop quiz . Couldn't retain any words in my head at all . AHH ! Need to start using the words . If not, I think I would never get to master them .

Computing was Mr Ho's lesson . Everyone was quite high at that time . After that, ate 2 buns and went for Malay lesson . Everyone got a chance to introduce ourselves in Malay and I really sucked in it . RenZhi, YangJie and Cheewee were posing weird questions to everyone . Jeannette's one was who does she like and stuff . CheeWee's one was how many times did .. :X LOL . Better don't type . Later he kill me :X But seriously, they made the lesson more fun . If not it would be a dead one . Talking about dead, YangJie killed an insect and left the corpse on my paper . I was totally freaked out . I was about to tear already and I was telling myself that I can't cry over the fear of a stupid tiny insect in class ! So I was holding on to it . They thought that I was depressed and all . Actually I was trying to breathe properly x.x Jeannette eventually helped me to get rid of it and wrote RIP on it . Oh well .. 

After that was Dance . Practised more . WenJia was really cool . She should join WuShu . When she did the "hah" thing . It was really fierce . And when I tried, it was a COMPLETE failure . Mine was "hah" but it was a little high pitch ? When I raise my voice, it starts to get higher -______- I shall sing instead . This ain't for me . Lynnette was dancing to Wondergirl's song when the security guard auntie saw her . LOL . She was so embarrased and all . But she's really good at it . She's joining talentime . She couldn't get anyone to dance with her so I think she's gona sing . So support her people ! :DD Anyways the juniors really make my day . They are so hiliarious and we had a fun time bullying WenJia :X LOL ~

Went to have dinner with WenJia at northpoint after dance . Showed her all the music videos . I think she might get infected with this "wondergirls" disease soon . Oh yeah . Lynnette lied to the guys that she was half korean and they said that she looked like Kyung . LOL . Funny . And they tried to converse in Korean . It was totally like a korean drama . They were so natural and all . For Kyung, of course . I mean it's his native language . But for Lynnette, she was cool .

Then I went to find my mum and maid at Sembawang Shopping Centre . Walked home after that . It was nice to have the wind hitting gently on your face :DD 

Okay . Time to sleep ~ :DD Bye people . Have a good night !

tired ><"

It's late right now . Oh wait . Is it ? Lately, I've been sleeping earlier and this would be counted as late already . I've realised how important sleep is to ensure that you're awake most of the time during school .

Was really tired in school today because yesterday night I couldn't sleep properly . Kept tossing and turning . Even when I slept, I felt like I was subconciously awake . It was freaky . Been long since I've felt like this .

Shall keep this post short because I want to sleep !

There's these juniors in dance that are really cute . LOL . A korean fan . She was teaching us how to dance Wondergirls songs . Learnt some steps in So hot and Nobody . LOL . It was fun seriously . She was like going crazy over all the dance and stuff . Was happy that there were people like her . She claimed that in secondary school, all her friends didn't want to join in so this time she was really excited about it . She's so cute seriously . The other juniors too . Oh well . Seems like dance is going to be not that boring ...

Lessons were as usual today . Used Jeannette's magical eyedrops when I felt like sleeping . Ash was hiliarious during GP lesson . Every group took turns to present their mindmaps . So HanWee and Ash were together presenting one of them . When it reached the end, HanWee said " stand " to Ash . And he stood up . Actually what he wanted was the stand ot the essay . LOL . It was really funny . We were laughing like crazy and all .

PE was disappointing because I ran slower than last week . Darn . I guess I'm further away from Napfa gold now ): Need to buck up even more !

Chatted with WenJia when we were on our way home after dance . It seems like I'm not the only one feeling this way right now . Our lives are upside down right now . They were peaks and now we were the opposite . So it is so difficult to get over this period . She totally understands how I feel and everything .. Haix ..

Anyways, I was reading the newspaper just now . Saw this short little post . There was this sign with "a couple smooching but with a cross over it "put up in .. Can't remember what country . It was put up in order to prevent from couples from kissing goodbye when their spouses leave for work every morning . It was quite cute I guess .

And MingSheng showed me some pictures of a transparent LCD . So cool ! And it seems that Apple has it xDD

if today was the last day ..

YAY . I got myself screwed all over upside down inside out and I've decided to stay here until I've settled the new website . And I'm not gona waste any more time on it for now because I have school ! No time at all . So I shall leave it to the weekends . Meanwhile, lets start with my ultimate boring post . LOL .

Today was a .. no idea what to comment day . LOL .

GP was kind of hilarious for my group because we are really unprepared ? Or should I say we did a slipshod work, not adding CheeWee's totally -____- presentation . He seriously has no idea what was going on . I applaud him for having the courage and initiative to even go up and present it . Oh well . All's forgiven because other groups were no where better . We were all suffering under the clutches of Ms Mok . So the verdict was to redo all of them until she accepts them . I see more work coming .

Physics practical was a .. Well . How do I explain this ? Today's experiment got to do with circuits, something which I am really WEAK at . You would understand why shortly . So I was a little nervous, fixed everything up with help from the diagram we had . And VIOLA, I've started a small barbeque . The only thing missing was the marshmallows . Yeah . You've got it . Short circuit . Jeannette, Jennifer and ShunYu were laughing at me . Told me to put out the fire and all . I was rooted to the floor, literally . I mean hello ? It's burning and it was a total shock . What could I have done ? Whip out a satay stick with yummy marshmallows and start having the time of my life ? It was totally hilarious . Well . I did put out the fire . Ms Huang helped me a lot . Thanks !

Shall not elaborate on computing and break . Economics lesson was a tug of war between my eyelids and my perseverance . The little voice in my head told me I shouldn't sleep repetitively while my eyelids rebutted that a little sleep won't harm . I tried all kinds of measures such as pinching myself, using my fingers to spread apart my eye lids and all . After that, a tiny little action did the trick . EYEDROPS ! I felt totally refreshed and awake at that moment . Suddenly whatever Ms Kwok says started getting into this little brain of mine .

Maths lecture . I was trying to do the assignment due tomrrow . 4 questions in total and I did like 2 parts . Not a bad accomplishment ? LOL . Okay . I was distracted most of the time and my dry eyes didn't do anything to help . 

After that I rushed to complete my Physics SPA . Though I "rushed", I used more than 1 hour to complete it . And hence, getting the award, slowest girl ever . Everyone finished earlier than me . Oh well . My brain is just not meant for this kind of stuff . Logic ? You can't find it anywhere in me . I'm a random girl . Yeah .

Reached home, meddled with wordpress, gave up and here I am . Gona do my maths homework next and transfer some songs into my itouch . This has been onhold for so long . So I've got to do something . Okay . Time to go . Bye people .

"If today was your last day

Would you make your mark

On ending a broken heart

You know it's never too late

To shoot for the stars

Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes

Cause you can't rewind

A moment in this life

Let nothing stand in your way

Cause the hands of time

Are never on your side"

Hellos people, I'm currently moving to a new site (:

Actually I wanted to export all my posts there but it ended up really messy and yeah . I've decided to leave all the past here and move on to a new place ! :D

So please go to the new site hwee-ified.com .

It's currently still under maintainence . Still fixing it and stuff . Yupp (:

Just thought I should at least mention that this site might be moving soon . Perhaps tommorrow ? I'll see how much time I would need . But it would be in the near future which means like by this week or something :D

A brand new blogging experience .

My mood has still been in the fluctuation mode lately . Thanks everyone for bearing with me .

Yesterday, went to Sembawang Shopping Centre . Didn't buy Subway cookies . AHH ~~ ><" LOL . Oh well . Can't really remember what happened except I was really pissed off with Physics and stuff .

Today was better I guess . School was a good place to relax with all your friends around .

I got AMETHYST colour contact lens ! IT'S COOL . Maybe I'll wear it tomorrow . Depends :P

firstly, i apologize for everything im gona post . if u hate to see vulgarities, den dun read any further ..

i think i can spout like a million expletives right now .

i need a break, a really long break from all of these .

not just school work and dance .

everything . my life . it's crashing down at a freaking high speed .

till i don't even know what is going on . 

i'm too lost . i can't find my way out .

it just keeps on coming and it's not stopping .

it's even difficult to breathe .

and when i tell myself that i should try harder .

or perhaps its me that im too weak .

stop running away and avoiding everything .

it just keeps on crashing down .

one by one . doesn't stop does it ?

when would it happen ?

when im finally dead ?

damn it .

damn you .

damn everything that's happening .

damn all these nonsense that im facing .

damn shit .

freaking hell .

brain dead .

whatever .

ass .

damn .

i hate everything right now .

a thousand hate posts also won't do anything .

im gona be selfish .

so selfish tomorrow .

and i don't freaking care if i hurt anyone around .

'cause that's just too bad .

your too unlucky to be around me .

or should i say you deserve it ?

hah .

freaking shit .

whatever .

you suck .

well . don't worry .

'cause i suck more than you ..

all those voices around,

if you can't be there for me forever,

then don't come near me in the first place .

i don't want any superificial care and concern,

makes me feel worse .

one moment you're there, and then you're not .

it's better if you're not even there at all .

Runaway - Avril lavigne

Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah

Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late

My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range

Looks like it's just one of those kind of days

You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground

No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow

Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no

Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud

And I feel so alive

I can't help myself

Don't you realize

[Chorus]

I just wanna scream and lose control

Throw my hands up and let it go

Forget about everything and run away, yeah

I just wanna fall and lose myself

Laughing so hard it hurts like hell

Forget about everything and run away, yeah

So-so's how I'm doing, if you're wondering

I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning

Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk

Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch

And I feel so alive

I can't help myself

Don't you realize

[Chorus]

Run away, run away [Repeat]

[Chorus X2]

keep thinking . thinking of what she said . darn . what's wrong with me . it doesn't matter really . and am i doing all these nonsense . all these unnecssary things that won't make a difference . 

not just insane . dumb is part of the factor . or maybe there are more things around . there won't be just one method of course . many others just waiting for me to implement it . and now i've gotten to the next one . maybe this one would work after all . maybe ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate you ..

i hate this ..

i hate that ..

i hate everything ..

i hate .. hate hate hate hate hate 

Was watching Underworld 3 : Rise of the Lycans when a bug suddenly disturbed me :X LOL . I was like AHHH ~ then I ran away . Really far away from it . My dad was like x.x "so small you also scared" . I replied " so gross T____T . I know it is not it's fault that it is ugly but .. " LOL ><" Ahh . My dad replied " wa . next time your husband sure very pitiful " . I was like -______-

But now I think of it, it's so true :X

Since it's Val's day . I shall type this and when I come back and read this next time, I should be able to have a good laugh ! :P

These are like the basic requirements :XX

He must

- not be scared of bugs and catch them any time . LOL

- be able to make pasta ! :X or don't mind eating it . Unless I learn to make it x.x

- love manga(s) and anime(s) because im an addict :P

- be able to stand my lameness and randomness . hehehe

- remember my birthday ! :X Or I'll kill him !

- buy a chocolate cake for my birthday :P

- bring a sweater around everywhere because I'm scared of cold ! :X hehehe

- be able to stand my messiness :X

- enjoy watching movies all day long at home while munching finger food :P

- be able to stand my "1 hour to prepare to go out" illness :X

- be able to stand my "I get really long to get up in the morning because I often say okay and go back to sleep" illness

- be able to stand my addiction to black, white, and bright colours ! (esp. hotpink)

- be able to stand my long nails :X

Oh gosh . Sounds difficult . LOL ..

happy valentine's day

happy valentine's day

shouldn't really elaborate on what happened . and if you're trying to guess, it has nothing to do with love .

it sucks . like crazy . am i too weak ? why do i accept facts so easily . how come i can't find the determination anymore . why isn't hard work = results . why is life so unfair . or maybe i'm the one at fault .. whatever . darn .

aches . bruises . disappointment and tears 

a masked black friday

A slacker blogger ! Yeah . I guess I can be considered one lately . Just ain't in the mood to blog . As in, I can't remember what really happens in school and all . A little off perhaps . I wonder why x.x 

Well . Today is Friday the 13th . Anything bad that happened ? Not really . Moody ? Well .. Can't say I'm really happy and all . But I guess it's okay . I'm fine (:

Went to school quite early today I guess . Was tending to the flowers stall by Dance . Everyone put in so much effort ! ><" Great job guys . They didn't sleep at all to make sure those roses look good with ribbons and all . And when I saw the bouquets, I was like "waa . professional . " They look real good . WenJia was fantasizing that someone would give her too and all . And suddenly it was marriage already x.x She's a little insane . LOL .

Saw two guys wrapping flowers into a bouquet . So sweet . Oh well . Although it wasn't really that well done, sincerity is all that counts right . I'm sure the person who receieved it felt the love *hints* :X LOL . Okay ~ But seriously . Looking at guys trying so hard to do art and craft stuff just because of their loved ones . So sweet ! :DD

When to class late . Thanks everyone for your gifts ~ Should I list one by one ? LOL . Actually it's not really a lot so I guess it doesn't hurt to thank them . Anyways a picture of my peg and card ! xD

Aren't they nice ? :P The hotpink one on the left . Nail polish from thefaceshop .

LOL . Yesterday when my mum came into my room, she was like " you very rich hor . use nailpolish" . I was like I have no other choice . LOL . But nail polish was good in making the clip all glittery . The only thing was the smell I guess . Choking on it all night x.x LOL ><" Oh . Shouldn't say where I got these from . Joyce knows right :X LOL . But they are nice aren't they ! :DD

Gifts from everyone . Thanks guys ~!! :D Who said that Valentine's is a day only for lovers ! :P Oh wait . Today ain't Valentine's yet . Tomorrow would be a different story x.x

Thank you's . They are in random order of no preference of any kind .

Thank you WenJia for the flower ( though it's fake :P)

Thank you WeiQin for the heart and safety pin (we got it together :D)

Thank you LingLan for the red rose (love ya lots too, always !)

Thank you Joyce for the rocher flower (so that's the reason you were looking for balloon sticks huh . LOL )

Thank you Jolene for the flower and chocolate bar (Come on baobei ~ Fake flower doesn't mean anything . It's the person who give ~ You know you're important to me ! :P)

Thank you Jeannette for the flower (pink pink pink ~ lalala :X *hehehe*)

Thank you Jaslyn for the ribbon rose and the nougats (why never wrap yourself in ribbon ! :X)

Thank you Jennifer for the fair faced flower (Smirks at Jeannette :X)

Thank you JiaWei for the pocky stick (It's strawberry though :l)

Thank you Shannon for the red rose (roses are nice ! Learn to like them ! :P)

Thank you MingSheng for the ribbon rose and rocher (great effort there :D)

Thank you YangJie for the nicely wrapped rocher with ribbon (wow . great ideas . hm .. LOL)

Thank you Husnain for the chocolates (yeah . we rock ! xD)

Thank you RenZhi for the chocolates

Thank you JiaKiang for the chocolates

Thank you Muthu for the lollipops ( and Shannon, you treat me as dustbin is it ! ._. even CheeWee agreed ! x.x )

Thank you Ms Huang for the insiprational postcard to the class

Thank you people ! :DD

Oh . And thanks to my brother for losing my ipod and getting a new one back :X LOL .

Second Generation of ITouch :D I missed my old one though :l

Lessons were a little depressing . Especially since maths reflections . Vectors . Darn . When I thought it was an okay topic . Haix .. Physics I couldn't really focus anymore . Was quite disappointed in myself and all . 

Comp was fun ? LOL . It was quite okay I guess . Melvin was being lame again . I was trying to make him give me the dark chocolate that Jeannette gave him . Oh well . LOL . He couldn't be bothered with me . But I mean, if you don't like dark chocolates, you could give it to a dark choco lover like me ~~ :X LOL -______- Yeow Keng, Melvin and Shannon helped me with my program . Thanks . Everyone was going a little haywire I guess . The OGLs were lost . All of them calling for SOS . Luckily I didn't miss lessons if not I would have died . I meant I couldn't have survived . 

During break was in computing lab still . Ate a potato pie that Jolene helped me to buy . Oops . I realised I owe her money . LOL . Gotta return her on monday . Did the CVD thing . Mr Ho was sitting beside me discussing about the proposal . Halfway through, Joyce came to pass me a Valentine's day gift . Then when I came back to the seat, he said " waa . A lot fans hor ." and he was looking at the front pouch of my bag . LOL . Fans -_____- They are friends . Not fans . As in I would have fans . What would they like ? My eccentric lameness and randomness ? Or the ability to be happy for a second and hurt at the other ?

Saw PinYe . Helped her with her computing I guess . LOL . Somehow or the other :X WeiQin and YangJie came in too . Was finalising the CVD thing . Jolene was going crazy trying to be Bubbles from Powerpuff girls . She even tied her hair into two . I had no idea who came up with the idea to cosplay cartoon characters though it's a high possiblity that it's Mr Ho . He was like trying to force me to cosplay like Bubbles at first . I was rejecting like crazy saying that I have to settle the money stuff . Then I shifted his attention to Jolene . Luckily Jolene was interested in it . LOL :X Cosplay Powerpuff girls ? No way . Anime characters, I'll think about it ! :P I wana cosplay one day too ~ :DD

Last lesson was Physics . Jas crashed our lesson . Bribed Mr Phang with Nougats . LOL . Kidding . 

Went for dance after that . Guess it was okay . The dance is great . Everyone synchronized and all . Gosh . I finally saw that effect Daph wanted . She was praising the J1s like crazy and the J2s were like " aww " . When she told them to give themselves a pat on their back, Candice was doing it . Then she turned around and told us that we don't deserve it, they do . LOL . She was in the kidding tone of course but seriously the JC1s learn so fast ! And the studio is suddenly so small ><" Blehs .

Ate dinner with WeiQin, KaiLi, Tsu Qin and Cassandra . 1000 calories x.x LOL ><" It was a great dinner . Missed having dinner with Cassie . Last time before tuition and all . Yeah .

Tomorrow is Valentine's and I guess I'm going to spend it with the Dance people till 4pm ? x.x Oh well . Wanted to chill out with friends and all but I guess they might not be free . Spending one's Valentine's with family members may not be the best choice but it's better than being alone ? ><"

Now I'm going to turn in for the night I guess .

Goodnight people . Sweet dreams :D Happy Valentine's Day !

"Roses . Thorns they may have but without them, the rose would simply seem like a simple flower . " - EmotIc

Should I or should I not .. ?

A person that can't do much . How helpless can a person be ? Words that I just can't say . Feelings that I can just never describe and yet the only word that is left hanging in silence is "sorry" . There's too much that one have to do and too little that one can ever achieve . Sometimes there's really too much stuff that's pulling you back . The burden that just doesn't decrease no matter how much you strive to move forward . 

If I could turn back time, I wish that I didn't ever went through all these . And at that time, what kind of person would I have been ? A person that runs away . A person who tries so hard to avoid . Yes . You're looking at her .

Even if I say it a thousand times . Say it like I mean it, it doesn't mean that I would believe it . I don't have the confidence you want to see . 

Smiles just don't do the trick . 

Tears just don't rub off the pain .

Hard work just don't always pay off .

Waiting makes someone too weak .

Air that feels as heavy as mud .

When it is too difficult to even breathe, 

what is it that would push you on .. ?

when i say that it's the last gift ever .

i mean it ..

i hate myself

Random Rantings : RR - XiaoFiFi

Okay . Decided to blog about XiaoFi . Apparently it's not fifi . I don't know why I gave it a new name though x.x

Uhh .. This bread look a like thing . Made me ponder for quite sometime . I was thinking why would they sell such stuff . It's like it's weird . It's not edible or anything . It's not even good to hug . So it's kind of . And it's weird hugging it even if it's huggable . And the point is it's not that cheap or anything . Why not just buy an edible one and eat it up ?

I think we have really run out of creative juices . Trying so hard to think of something cute . Something that will make girls go " eee ~ so cute ! " Well . Is it that hard actually ? Or is competition really too hard out there that we have to resort to some weird ideas already . 

And if you look in the market, it's not only bread look a like soft toys . There are also cake and stuff . The point is that they made it really alike to the real thing . Even with the "smell" . So it kind of make me wonder of the real purpose of it . To trick someone ? Well . I don't really have any idea .

bored life :l

I'm bored . Thorough and through . Well . Asked Jas for a topic and she gave me one . I think I should change my blog a little . 2 sections . One for daily stuff and the other for my comments or thoughts about some topic . No fixed topic . I'll talk about anything . Isn't that a good idea ? LOL .

Okay . So here goes the topic for today . Xiaofifi . I have NO idea what can I type with regards to this WEIRD topic . It's not like I know it well or anything . I mean it's Jas's soft toy right . Or can it even be considered as a soft toy at all ? Anyways those that are lost . Here it is . The main character for today .

Ah . Okay forget it . I don't wana type about it anymore . Nothing to say . I shall read my newspapers while listening to We The King songs . I think their songs are really nice ~ :DD

"Where are your guts to fly?

Soaring through, through the night

And if you take that last step

I'll follow you

Leave the edge and fly

We're finally alive"

i need a miracle .. where's my blue moon ?

OGLs ~~ Missed ya lots :l

Well . Today overall . FUN DAY ! Maybe because the OGLs are back in class . Without the 7 of them, class is a complete boredom except the random jokes frm perhaps Melvin or WeiQin .

Met Jolene today at the gate as usual . Her peeling Michael Jackson nose was like the main focus of everyone . Oh . And Joyce had some of her tooth removed . So now she's currenly spreakring rlike thris :X Hehe . LingLan and I are such meanies ~ Whee :P LingLan was helping me with DC circuit tutorial on the way to school . THANKS . Without you, I'm a gone case-er . LOL . New word formed :X Oh . Thanks to Shannon too .

Let's continue with school shall we ? Well . PE was AHHH . Aching like crazy still . Can't laugh properly either because when I laugh, ache ache ache . Gosh . I feel so old . And I can't sneeze too . Ache ! x.x Haix . PE circuit training . I hate them . I rather do 2.4 . I think the only thing I can do in PE is run ? I suck . Ah . I realised I have this habit to keep saying gosh lately . LOL . Wonder why . Maybe I should use jeez instead . 

Now my leg muscles are aching so much that I just want to sit and sleep forever . After PE was .. computing . A little stoney here and there . Was worrying about the physics test . Haix ..

Physics test was .. Well . I think I still won't pass . I should seriously consider about physics tuition . Darn .. Somehow those diagrams just make me so confused and all . I wondered why did I even bother taking Physics in the first place when I already know I suck at it ! AHH ! x.x

Well . Oh . And Jolene edited CheeWee's SGC . IT's HILARIOUS but true :X LOL . Shall put it up on class blog or something . Cheewee didn't really mind and was laughing at it also x.x

Jolene was going crazy during school . Keep "honey" this and that to CheeWee. LOL . Funny :X She was telling everyone that she's free on saturday . XueEr was like telling her that they should go out together so would not be so lonely and stuff .

Okay . Time to sleep ~ :D Nites people ..

"I have this really bad feeling that I'm gona be really hurt in a few days time . Hah . Like I'm not usually " - emotIC

Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings

Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back.
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance.
Don't sell your heart.
Don't say we're not meant to be.
Run, baby, run.
Forever will be
You and me.

"the last gift ever .. may you have a happy valentine's day (: " - EmotIC

Well . What have I been doing these few days ? :DD Okay . LOL . I'm a little crazy . Starting with this kind of weird question .

Let me continue from the previous post :DD Oh anyways . I WANT GET SUSPENDERS !! :P okay randomness ~ Whee . Let's talk about something else . Oh . And did I mention that my mum bought me a halter neck vest from Genting ? Whee ~

Okayokay . Continue ><" If not I think the post would be sooooo long and I haven't type anything worth reading yet :X

Melvin was a little crazy . Acting like a retard and stuff . And he had this really WEIRD accent . During Physics class he was acting like an old wise man or something . Giving those advices and stuff. Oh well . But thanks for making the lesson bearable . If not I would have fallen asleep already . 

After that was dance . Lots of people came in for dance audition . Most of them were really good ! Gosh . I feel so inferior to them T____T Haix .. And we learnt more stuff . As in SYF . Changed quite a lot . Well . 

After that went for Jam n Hop . Gosh . Not as fun as ours I guess . Think it's because it wasn't in an enclosed area . So no one was high and all . And everyone was busy bbq-ing and eating . LOL . Oh . The satay was great :X 

Saturday . 8 more people came . Guess what ? All of them can split . Whoo ~ Cool right . Just showed how much I suck again . Gosh . AHHH . Haix ..

WenJia came my house to settle the talentime stuff . On Wednesday we are going to be the emcee ! :D So come and support us okay ! Ziyan, JiaWei, WeiQin and Shayrul are performing ! COME SUPPORT THE EMCEES ! :X I MEAN ALSO THE CONTESTANTS . But emcees more important xP Oh . WenJia was SOOO FUNNY . During lunch break we were talking about Rock Band . There's 3 people in dance who have it ! AHHH . Rich people :X Oh well . Then Janice said that she would bring her guitar over to HuiNa's house next time . So HuiNa asked if can connect another one . Janice was nodding away . Suddenly WenJia interrupted and said she would bring Violin . Then we were like ... LOL . Then I asked " Do you know what is rock band ? " . She was like uhh .. When I told her it's a game . She was like oh gosh x.x LOL . The others were laughing like crazy . LOL . She's like living in a well or something :X

We did the talentime thing till 7 plus 8pm ? The script is absolutely lame :X So it's like . Look forward to it on Wednesday okay . At Wednesday Expresso :D Come okay people ! WenJia ate my entire packet of Ruffles x.x She also bought sushi . And also ate quite a lot of love letters . And the point is she's on a diet . LOL . She was like never mind . Today off day . She has been eating salad for the past few days and now all wasted . LOL . Tempted by the food in my house :X

Has been working on a blogskin that I want to submit for competition from morning till 6plus 7 just now. Well . Now gona study and do homework already ~ Bye people :D

" If I could kill someone now, it would be myself" - emotIC

Aslyn - Gotta get over you

If I wanted to believe you, I guess I could
And if I wanted to understand you, I guess I would
But my days would go blank and I'd be freezing naked
Cuz stripped of you, well, that's modestly all that I know
So I'm not ready to get over you cuz

If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over every piece that puzzled you and me
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over feeling my heart and tasting and seeing
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over Earth, Wind, and Fire
Change the soap in the shower
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over singing this song for hundreds of hours

So boy while you chip in some understanding, I'll make a deal with my mess
And cleaning up what I WANNA BE SAYING is my first big step
When I close my eyes and everything I run into
Is stubbing me with bruises of memories of you
I'm not ready to get over you cuz

If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over every piece that puzzled you and me
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over feeling my heart and tasting and seeing
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over Earth, Wind, and Fire
Change the soap in the shower
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over singing this song for hundreds of hours

Waffle house jokes and romantic comedies
Avon cologne and credit card entries
Butter on popcorn and that mercury sable
The whole darn state of north carolina
My pink leather jacket and cherry hi-c
When I'm finally without you
Can't figure out what'll be left of me

If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over every piece that puzzled you and me
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over feeling my heart and tasting and feeling
If I gotta get over you, I gotta get over Earth, Wind, and Fire
Change the soap in the shower
If I gotta get over you, I gotta STOP singing this song for hundreds of hours

Aches and more ~

Well . Just thought I might blog before I leave the house for dance practise later . I'm currently really aching like crazy . And I'm still sick . Congratulations to those that have figured that out and those that haven't, it's fine . Okay . I'm a little insane right now so whatever I type might just be crap ! So live with it yeah . I hate to sneeze right now, because my muscles would ache . Especially the back muscles . It's a little crazy . And I'm like fighting with myself not to sneeze . So it's a little weird . 

Well . I can't really remember what happened in the past few days but yeah . I slept really early, did my homework and hence , I was more energetic in school . Wait . Too energetic . Scared my friends a little . But yeah . Life is being happy right ?

During Wednesday Expresso, which is on a wednesday, DUH ? There was a cultural exchange with the NingBo students . Both YJC and NingBo students did their best to put up performances .

Below is Jane with her great calligraphy skills . She's really nervous . I could see her hands shaking away but nevertheless, IT'S GREAT . I've always admire those that could do calligraphy . I mean, it's so difficult .

Above is the NingBo student and her with their completed pieces . Really nice yeah . Both have a different style of writing but it's still so nice . 

The close up shot . WenJia and me were trying to find a way to bring them back home but yeah . We ain't supposed to do that . LOL . But gosh .. It's too nice ~ A picture is better htan nothing yeah :D

Two NingBo students singing "如果的事" by Fan Wei Qi and Angela . Everyone enjoyed themselves and of course it included themselves :D

Teck Seng and Jamie performing "只对你有感觉" by Fahrenheit and Hebe . It was really funny . He was whipping out flowers one after the other . At first Jamie took the flower and threw it on the floor . But the second time she accepted it . And they were really high and all so everyone really enjoyed it .

Last but not least, a performance by ZiYan and Salizan . My memory died halfway so I couldn't take the whole performance . Well still .. enjoy (:

That was all for Wednesday Expresso . Next Wednesday is going to be the preliminary rounds for Talentime . To those that have joined, good luck :D Try your best yeah . WenJia and me are really nervous . Nope . We ain't participating in it . But we are the emcee ! ><" Gosh . Scary but might be a good experience after all :D 

Yesterday was a hectic day I guess . Well, not really hectic though . Oh wait . What nonsense am I blabbering ? 

Apparently Melvin was crazy . Acting like Smeagold and stuff . Drew the entire Lord Of The Rings mindmap on my paper ..

Oh wait . It's so late already . Shall blog again when I come back home . Bye guys :D Have a nice day !

no matter how much i sleep, it still doesnt change .. 

darn ..

haix ...

what a failure

contradictions 

dummy ..

zzz

flying free ..

Today during gp lecture, we did this comprehension exercise . In the text, they talked about courage . What is real courage and all . And how true it is . Makes me laugh somehow . How funny that whatever the author said was so true . Somehow it makes me feel so awkward inside . And I'm sure that everyone feels the same way deep inside too .

Courage . Just what is it ? Whatever it is . I'm sure I lacked too much of it . Always trying to run away from things that would be risky . Things that I'm unsure of the outcome . Lacking the strength to carry on . To be the person who you truly are inside . Is it even possible ?

Often, I won't deny that I feel way too insecure . I would never do things that is risky . Never do stuff that I have no idea what the ending is . No way . And I would seldom do stuff that are against the flow . Why ? The strength to be who I am . Is it that difficult ? What is it that I fear ? Even if I've figured it out .. Why can't I stand up against it ? And why I need someone to be there for me .. Why do I feel like I'm stranded alone in the dark ? 

Fake . I've mentioned this many times already . Always feeling like I'm doing stuff for a motive . Finally, I've found the answers to this question in the text today . A boring text it may seem to some people but it has enlightened me in many ways . Being unable to fit into society is one of the deepest fears of not only me, but often everyone . Even if you deny, you would realise one day that everyone is actually the same . And we all lack the same old thing . Courage . 

More often, you would find yourself doing things that you don't like but just because you want to go with the flow, just because you don't want to be the odd one out . Doing things just because of the way other people look at you . Is it dumb ? To me, yes . And I've finally realised that . What's the point of not showing who you really are ? What's the point of acting to be nice when you're actually not . Trying so hard to set up an impression that other people wants . On one hand, you want to fit in but on the other, you don't have the strength to move on like this .

I guess I should be myself . Be who I really am even though people oppose of it . I should stop acting like I'm really interested in something when I'm not . Stop doing all these kind of superficial stuff . Because in the end, there's no point and I don't want to lose myself anymore .. Not being able to feel myself feels terrible . Putting up a front, acting all nice . It just ain't me . In the end, I don't even recognize the girl in the mirror anymore .

Love and accept yourself . Who you really are . Stop going with the flow just because you're afraid . Speak up for yourself because no one is going to except yourself . And perhaps at that time, you would realise that you're actually not that different from others . You have no need at all .. to act like you're someone else just to fit .. into the crowd .

Lastly, a song that I really love . Sang this song during choir in secondary school ! :DD

The flute solo in front . GOSH . I LOVEEEE IT !! :DD

Flying free ( The one below is not in english )

Flying free ( This one is .. But I can't find the one with flute in front ): )

There is a place I call my own
Where I can stand by the sea
And look beyond the things I've known
And dream that I might be free

Like a bird above the trees
Gliding gently on the breeze
I wish that all my life I'd be
Without a care and flying free

But life is not a distant sky
Without a cloud, without rain
And I can never hope that I
Can travel on without pain

Time goes swiftly on it's way
All too soon we've lost today
I cannot wait for skies of blue
Or dream so long
That life is blue

Altos: So life's a song that I must sing, a gift of love I must share
Sopranos: so lifes a song, a gift of life I must share

Altos: And when I see the joy it brings, my spirits soar through the air
Sopranos: and when I see, my spirits soar through the air

All: Liek that bird up in the sky, life has taught me how to fly

For now I know I can be
And now my heart is flying free
Oooooo...

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending

haix .. dad and bro quarelling again . i'm so tired of it . been so moody lately and listening to them argue is the last thing i want to do right now . been doing my homework .. can't focus . can't do them . no idea now . haix .. no idea who to ask . ain't in the mood lately . really tired . shoulders are aching . mum says it's flu . haix . every time i have flu, shoulders sure ache . then i'm gona feel so tired like right now ..

desperate times call for desperate measures

Japan Trip . Mass photos !

Whee . I'm seriously too lazy to type already . So let photos do the work ! :DD They are in random order and yeah .. They might be repeats because I didn't organize them . Lazy lazy ! :PP

Anyways all of these are still from the Japan trip . Might just say some words in between the photos :DD

Jessica caught all of our " I'm tired and sian diao" look . LOL . Anyways this is the subway .

The salmon rocks !! AND PUMPKIN ! :DD

Nice ~~

LOL :XX

AHHH . What a big OCTOPUS LEGGG . AHHHH ..

The beatbox peformance that got all the girls going crazy . They were chasing after the bus . It was kinda insane . LOL .

Aya-san and Emi-san :DD

I study overseas too :P

Yum Yum . Nice beef xD

They are juice . Really . LOL :X

WA . WHAT BIG SLIPPERS .

Kyung lied to Jessica . It was so cold at that time . He told Jess that the water was warm . And yeah . She got tricked . In the end our hands were freezing .

RAMEN ~~ YUMMY :DD

Jap guys . ROCKERS MAN !!!

Ain't this gona disturb the traffic ? oO

DISNEY LANDDDDD 

KAWAI NE

Fate Stay Night ~~

Wow ..

I love this one ..

I wana be the princess too ~

How magical is magical ?

Disney parade !!

This already exceeded the ticket's worth .

HEEEEE :DD

TapDance ~~

Colourful elmos all over the place !! :DD

Well . Gona upload the others next time . Still the same old thing . JAPAN ROCKS ! :DD