no idea why . but i really feel like crying ..

Been really lazy the past few days .. Don't really have the mood to do anything though holidays are approaching . At this point of time, I'm usually in the mood to play . To game . Yeah . But now .. I don't really feel like playing anymore . Just wana sleep or something . Tired though I sleep really early already . Perhaps its my cold ><

Don't feel like typing what happened these past few days . Laziness . Shall just talk about today . If on the way, I remember anything from yesterday, then I'll just add it in then . 

Now featuring .. JOLENE THE .. .. .. NEWSPAPER WARRIOR ! At least that's what she called herself . Was really bored . Then Jolene was sacrificed by us :X In the end she was numb and just played along . 

POSE 1 !

POSE 2 ! Oh . And realised that I'm wearing rodney's house shirt ? :P Exchanged it with XueEr :X Heh . Quite a number said that I looked better in this shirt xD I agree :X

POSE 3!

POSE 4 !

POSE 5 ! "Gloves" added by MingSheng last minute . Who really wants it to be in .

The shoes . They are Crocs :X I tried my best . LOL . Cut holes and everything .

My newspaper tie ! :D

Deisgners to be ! :X

Check out a short introduction by herself and laugh out LOUD ! :P

Thats kind of the only fun thing that happened today . The other hours were spent in .. boredness or something . Guess I would have quite a packed schedule for the following days . Well .. To prepare for the upcoming Japan trip you see ><>

Oh yeahs . Suddenly remember bits and pieces of what happened yesterday . After school accompanied XueEr to find MingSheng and others to get back her laptop . As I had a dance meeting only at 5pm, so I tagged along . Saw YeowKeng, YangJie and MingSheng playing badminton with Shannon and their secondary school friends . XueEr was blaming YangJie like crazy for ruining her shoes :X Actually it wasn't his fault either . But indirectly yes . She stepped into the mud because of him .

The story went like this . YangJie was supposed to help XueEr call MingSheng over and return her her laptop but in the end he got distracted and played badminton with them . We decided that he is really similar to that FedEx commercial . That doggy . LOL . If you watch tv, you would understand xD After XueEr left, played badminton with Shannon's friends . Han Hui and ... Wee Liang if I didn't remember the names wrongly . Been SOOO LONG since I played badminton . Fun :D Heh .

I miss volleyball ! ><>

Hm .. yeah . Thats all I remember . Kind of distracted because beside this window, I'm watching Taiyou no Uta . YUI ~ ! :D Quite a nice movie but its a little draggy ><" And I TAKE BACK MY WORDS :X YUI IS GOOD LOOKING . LOL . Her singing rocks seriously and can't doubt her guitar skills . One part of the movie where she was moving the bus stop stand was hilarious . The last part when she wore the "ALIEN" suit was really touching . And the song rocks . GOODBYE DAYS . nice nice ~ ><><>

Here it is :DD Love it people ..

GoodBye Days - YUI 

dakara ima ai ni yuku sou kimetanda 

That's why now, I'm coming to meet you . That's what I've decided .
poketto no kono kyoku wo kimi ni kikasetai 
The song in my pocket, I want to let you listen to it .
sotto voryuumu wo agete tashikamete mita yo 
Raising the soft volume, to make sure it's just right

OH GOOD BYE DAYS ima kawaru ki ga suru kinou made ni SO LONG 
oh goodbye days, now I know things are going to change . Until yesterday, SO LONG
kakko yokunai yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara 
unstylishly but staying gently by my side, that's why
La la la ~WITH YOU 
with you 

katahou no earphone wo kimi ni watasu 
passing you one side of my earphones
yukkuri to nagare komu kono shunkan 
slowly, in that moment when the music starts flowing
 umaku aisete imasu ka? tama ni mayou kedo 
do I have the ability to love you properly ? But sometime's I'll get lost

OH GOOD BYE DAYS ima kawari hajimeta mune no oku ALL RIGHT 
oh goodbye days, now, its beginning to change but deep inside my heart it's alright
kakko yokunai yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara 
unstylishly but staying gently by my side, that's why
La la la ~WITH YOU 
with you 

dekireba kanashii omoi nante shitakunai 
If I could, I don't want to think about the sadness
demo yatte kuru deshou? 
But you'll definitely turn up, won't you ?
sono toki egao de YEAH HELLO! MY FRIEND nantesa 
At this time, with a smile, YEAH HELLO MY FRIEND, how shall I say this ?
ieta nara ii noni... 
Its fine even if I said it out loud 

onaji uta wo kuchi zusamu toki soba ni ite I WISH 
When I humming the same song, I wish I was by your side
kakko yokunai yasashisa ni aete yokatta yo 
I'm glad that I met your uncool brand of kindness

La la la …Good-bye days 
La la la …Good-bye days
La la la …Good-bye days 

i love you . each and everyone one of you (:

Yeah . You're right I'm INSANE ! Or myself think so . Its only a feel minutes till I'm going to leave for school . I mean from home . Yupp . Currently everyone is not in a stable state of mind . And of course I'm not too . Damn . I don't want to say goodbye yet .. I'm afraid that some people might not come up with us . Yet some people are already seperated from us . These last four days .. Every second would be cherished right ?

Can I say that we would be keeping in touch even ? It seems like we are finally friends . Finally a class . And now .. It seems like some people would not be with us next year anymore . Its going to be weird . Really weird . Because the class would always remain with the same people . Everyone is part of the class . We can't live without anyone together . 

What if some people don't make it ? I think I'm seriously going to cry . Can't say I'm such a sentimental person . I'm shocked myself . I have never really felt this way before . Or was it because I never faced this kind of problem ? Everyone just seems to move on with me . Have I taken all these for granted ? I guess its time to smile and be happy . CHERISH that we are given the chance to be together for no one knows if we be seperated soon . It feels so fast . JC life is unfair . Friends are made no matter what . Two years ain't enough . Its just like when we are finally comfortable with one around, suddenly we are no longer in contact . Just weird .

I hate life like this . Life should be full of friends that would stay together . Because no matter how long, I'm sure I would NEVER want to be just a passer-by in someone's life . And I'm sure others feel so too . Just wana say that each and every friend I make . You all make an impact on my life . No passer-bys . No superficial relationships . If after so long, you still say that I'm not your friend, I think I'm gona cry . I'm going to be so hurt . 

Even if we can't keep in touch .. At least let those memories stay because you are my friend . Not " once " only . Not "were " . You will always be (: I love you guys out there . Those concern and care you shower me with just can't be replaced by someone else . Everything that you've done , I felt it . Each and every single one of it . 

We would be together . Lets walk down the next part of our lives together . Stay in touch people :D

i know you're probably sick of all these but sometimes i wonder why you are doing all these . full of hate you have but seems like you're still doing things that contradict yourself . i just want to say . even if they are going to be memories , i'll cherish them cause you're not a passerby . 

i'm not good with these . feelings . i never tried opening my heart in the past . i just kept everything inside . now i'm trying to say .. perhaps . a clean break would result in something better . maybe even friends (:

:D

Whee ~ ! :DD Promoted ! It must be some miracle or I have really done some good deeds in my life before . Thanks to it, I get so lucky sometimes . I should started working hard and cherishing my good luck xD

Promotional Exams

Chinese Language : 70 (A)

Economics              : 53 (D)

General Paper       : 72 (A)

Computing             : 60 (C)

Mathematics         : 52 (D)

Physics                   : 42 (S)

Yeah . Its not very good . But its a big difference as compared to block test ! My hard work pain off . Though I can't say I had placed a lot of hard work in ><" But yeah ! Glad that I'm promoted . Shocked for my General Paper grade . Many people were shocked too . Jeannette said that " Waa . Really shocked sia . Cause normally you always speak chinese all these one . Then suddenly so good " . Oh well ><" Its natural that I speak chinese because my family can't speak english . As in, we are better in chinese . So yeah . The secret to getting good grades for english ! READ THE TWILIGHT SAGA ! LOL :X Kidding . Okay . I was reading them when it was promotional exams period ><" It has nothing to do with GP because it was already over when I was reading the book . LOL . That resulting in my other subjects like crap -_-

Happy with my academic :D Love ya people . I'm so glad that "AI-family in YJC" promoted . Those that I know promoted . Happy happy ! We rock :D Love ya lots ! SO HAPPY WE GONA BE TOGETHER ! And yeah . Work hard together people . We are going to be schoolmates for 6 years . And know what ? I'm enjoying every second of it . 

And to my classmates . Thanks . We're going to be together . Those taking the supplementary paper . WORK HARD 'cause you can't get away ! You MUST come with us :DDD WORK HARD ! Need a study companion ? I'm always here xDD

Time to finish watching lord of the rings ! Heh ~ Ciao now :D

its not your fault . you don't need to reply to whatever i say . and sometimes they aren't for u ya know ? i wonder why is my heart gripping on so tightly because its kind of dumb . i'm sure i'll get over it . if you don't even want to be friends, its fine with me . i'm sure im not at the losing end (:

생일축하합니다 (saengil chukha hamnida)

Time check : 9.25pm . I wonder how long I would use to type this really long post . Or should I say that I predict that it would be a long post xP Wonder if it would be .

Yesterday, reached school late . Suffered an hour and half of maths tutorials . They really make me sleep . I guess the school doesn't understand that till we get our results back, we are just too distracted . Can't focus during lessons at all . Agreed with Jolene to go late, said that we would be arriving at 8.10am . In the end I still arrived early . Reached school around 7.55am ? Oh well . Many people were late . 

Mr Wen started to accept this fact that everyone would be late and just started class . Chen Hong came to school which was like a miracle ? Seems like Mr Ho has done his work this time and Chen Hong came . But its still not that effective . Because he left after maths lesson . Not much yeah . Luckily, Mr Wen said that anyone after me would be the cleaner for that day . Hence I was spared . After that came Jeannette and RenZhi . Actually both of them needed to be cleaners, but RenZhi being the "smart" guy took everything so in the end Mr Wen told Jeannette to take a break . YangJie and me started ordering RenZhi around asking him to sweep around our area because there were pieces of litter around . Then came MingSheng and ShunYu . Thought they really didn't meet . Read ShunYu's blog and realised they did -.- 

After that was XueEr and Melvin laughing happily while strolling into the classroom because they saw Jolene lost, not knowing where is the class but didn't bother to tell her . So when Jolene came in, everyone stood and greeted her . She was quite happy in fact that we greeted her . Then came HanWee the infamous late guy . If he is ever punctual, it would be a blue moon that night . We stood up to greet him too . But his response was a lost look . Last person to come in was CheeWee . Came in at 8.30am . Mr Wen said he broke record . "Gratz" to CheeWee . So he became the cleaner for that day . Oh yeah . Jolene and him have the same traits . When we greeted him, he was smirking and gestured us to sit down . So I told Jolene that "the same master, same pet " . CheeWee is Jolene's wildcat after all .

Following that, we went to .. to .. =l Hm .. what did we do ? OH YEAH . Eat ! And also strolled around school . Found Melvin with a cat . So went to play with the cat . XueEr is such an animal lover . Influenced me . Make me want to play with it too . But I had nails so I didn't want to scratch the cat . Look was all I could . Tried to use keys to attract its attention but it didn't even care about me ! ><" Oh well . Guess cats don't really like me like how I don't really like them . I prefer dogs . They are just cuter somehow .

And we started to follow XueEr around the school because she had to find a place to charge her laptop if not she can't watch HotShot . So we moved from place to place around school . Finally settled down in a classroom . Took some pictures . In XueEr's camera . Wonder if she posted them on her blog . Shall check later :X We had gambling addicts, game addicts, storybook addicts, drama-serial addicts and one sleepyhead . And thats me . Sleepyhead ! :X Slept through the time they were watching HotShot . I wonder how they can bear the heat and humid . Makes me want to sleep . Or maybe because its daytime :X I'm a vampire thats why yeah :P

Went for the last malay lesson . Check out XueEr and Jolene doing "head-rolling" . This dance is invented by Jolene and her only . 

We took pictures with the teacher after that . And we just realised that he is a emcee . Cool yeah . Economics lesson was kind of boring . Little people were present . What really baffled me was that Ms Kwok thank us for being present . At that point of time, I was thinking . I thought we WERE supposed to be here . Why thank ? Its kind of weird . Oh well .

Walked home with XueEr after that . Look at this ! WeiQin pasted her pen's price tag on her . 1 buck only . She's cheaper than my pen :X

Reached home . Played audition . Just realised why guys don't really have nice clothes . Because the dens clothes in audition sucks . So without A-cash, you are stuck with nothing basically . See no future for my JASPERex . Don't really want to spend money on it . My other character was enough . I think I spent like .. 50 bucks on it already ? I think more than that . I feel really crappy when I play audition . Lost to clubbers though I'm an amateur ? Its pretty dumb when you see yourself losing because you're SUPPOSED to be better . And somehow I'm not . Lost touch with it for several months . Didn't touch it at all . Now I suck . When I play, I feel crappy . Fustrated . What's the point . Came to realise that my form won't come back anymore . So basically whatever I have now would be stuck with me . Too bad about that . Whatever that I did are in the past . No matter how good I was, now I suck . That's the truth . Darn ~

Then played maple with Jas . Helped her train . No pots needed since she was a cleric . Earned some money . Though I would have earned more in grupin . But at least it was fun being with a friend . Halfway through Yx came online . So we went to bain together in ZiPangGu . Without his character, we suck . Basically I screwed up my skills . As in the order . Therefore my character is pretty much noob . Can't kill or anything . Without his freeze, I can't do anything . Oh well . Either I level and make it back or I'm stuck with this . But with such bad skills adding, it kinds of impedes on my leveling progression . Sad yeah .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAS ! HUASHENG ! PEANUT ! AI QI !

Stay happy always ! And of course cute :D And SAME AS ME . Don't ever change okay ! We still must be alike :P That's what is cool about both of us . Click though we only know each other for a short period of time . Not only physically similiar but also mentally . Its so cool when you realise that someone know what you're thinking and we have the same thinking for most things . Its really cool . My huasheng always ! And I shall remain as your xiansheng . Love ya lots .

Woke up real early today . Kind of deserved it because I haven't finish the board ><" A major change to it . Forgot to take a picture of it . Really simple this time . I had such a headache while thinking of something to decorate or even write . Guess I'm not in the correct state of mind recently . Have to quickly adjust back to my normal self .

Met up with WeiQin . Had lunch together and went to Junction 8 . We seeked for a cap ! And tadah, after much discussion, bought one . Then WeiQin went to get her's . Thankfully we got something . Actually I was quite disappointed . The FOX's cap was nicer but the size is so small ! Jas and I had the same head size I presume and I can't wear it so she can't too =/ While searching for the cap, I was pestering WeiQin to try them on . But she have a bigger head than us :X So I had to suffer the humilation of the shopkeepers staring at me . I don't look good in caps and I accept that fact . For that, I tried on so much caps today just to get a nice cap ><" But at least we got a really nice one ! :DD 

Had a headache again after that . Was thinking if I should buy the pink greyish white beanie in FOX . I really want to buy it ! But not sure what clothes I can wear with it . Darn ! Should I buy ? ><" I love it ! =l Anyways got to get my hair cut ! Its long again . I want a shorter fringe .

Met up with Jas .

The perfect Swensens cookies and cream ice-cream cake ! :D

A foreign tool I just learnt of today . Quite cool xP

Comical scene of "give me all your chocolates and no one gets hurt" :X

My cake ! And uh .. I hate strawberries ? Thought it was pretty obvious already ><"

We added salt to Jas's water . After taking so much sips, she just realised it was salty . She even thought that it was sweet in the first place ! We were all so shocked . Actually I thought that she weren't gona drink it already . Quite disappointed . Then Sha persuaded her to drink :P And yeah . She still didn't realise after she drank her water bottle water to test it out . Good job guys ! We acted great . We had that innocent face and muttered " huh . whats wrong . mine is fine . " . Hilarious :P

We went to arcade . I spent $5.50 there today . Quite shocked . I ain't really those arcade kind of girl . I like online games better ><" Played drums . I offically SUCK in it . I finally realised why Jas had to hit so hard . Because that stupid game can't detect it at all unless you hit it with all your strength . And I ADMIT my arms have no strength at all . When I had to hit with my left hand, I missed all of it . I did hit . But the strength weren't there . In the end had to only depend on my right hand . And apparently that wasn't a feasible idea with so much notes to hit . I give up . I hate arcade games :X Oh well . MAYBE . LOL . And also have to admit the game was designed properly . You wouldn't need to apply so MUCH force on a real drum set . I think you would most probably get a hole out of it if you used such strength .

Played DJ something something . Accidentally pressed tutorial mode . Wasted money . Then tried standard . WeiQin and me died . Jas played before so she was quite good in it . WeiQin and I were so lost . We didn't even know where to put our fingers because there were SO MANY buttons . In the end after observing how Jas play, I just realised the placing of the fingers but it was too late . So oh well . Next time when I play, I would know better ><"

Irritated WeiQin to the core :X I was there asking them if I should buy that beanie . Heh :P In the end I said that if I promote, I would buy . If failed, sayonara to it . Hope I pass ><" I WANT THAT BEANIE ! =/

Before leaving, took some pictures :DD

Jas wearing the cap that I gave her ! xP Put it to good use yeah :P And of course WeiQin ! :DD

XshengXD & HshengXD

Complaints by Jas " Why my face so big ! Why you put your face so behind ! " WeiQin told her " Cause she want her face smaller mah ~ "

Candid shot x.x

I was supposed to be a "model" . Ended up kind of laughing :X 

Heh heh ! Quite nice :P

Oh well . And yeah . I'm wearing shorts . Shocked ? Bad experience . Ask WeiQin about it man . Okay . Bye guys ! Love ya lots .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHI WEI TOO ! LOVE YA ! :D AND ALSO TO SENGYI ! LOL . 

So many people birthday today . Some "holy" day yeah sengyi ? :P

Now I've finally completed my post, time check again . 10.18pm . Wow . Do the maths and you would understand why I spend such a long time using the computer ><

doesn't it matter at all .. ?

with tears ..

The song that have been in my head lately . A song that I've really loved when I first listened to it on TV . Even without looking at the lyrics, I could even cry . After looking at the lyrics, I love the song even more ! A great song that everyone should at least try listening to . Addiction guranteed :P

The song :D Couldn't find any audio one . So the video :D

J ft LeeJung - With Tears

Lyrics

Chaarari eeje ee julle
Han cha ma han dego dashi hae..haedo..
Shigan hae moduda bo dyi jyo..
Na jyo cha molla bohgae..

Khaaramae..hulyon boh nae lae
Naen mae mareun gi youk suh molli hohw nae buhlae..
Tangshin cham jie mohtal guk suhro..
Eee sarangeul bohgae mollae..

Nunmullo hah nunmool..Orae ya hah gaeji..
Tuh gurohkae..mol da gajie wo hamyon
Sarang hae suh thon mosub thon..
Uri giyouk nomu sarajyo kha gejyi..

Kuraedun nunmullae...hae mosub cho geum shi..
Nal chi heumyon..Neul gi youk moe sal tuhrok...nahn mahda nunteul tehn mahda..
Tuh ee sarang moullo jihgae..

Saa nun gae..kugaen geuh rah go..
Sarang hago ghurigo dashi gou nae chugo
Bogeun na yae ha na cheun duh neul..
Eejae modue eechoe bohlae..

Nunmullo hah nunmool..Orae ya hah gaeji..
Tuh gurohkae..mol da gajie wo hamyon
Sarang hae suh thon mosub thon..
Uri giyouk nomu sarajyo kha gejyi..

Kuraedun nunmullae...hae mosub cho geum shi..
Nal chi heumyon..Neul gi youk moe sal tuhrok...nahn mahda nunteul tehn mahda..
Tuh ee sarang moullo jihgae..

Modue hullyo ji gaejie
Appeun chi geum shigan jou cha dou
Congmal ji wou ji gaejie

Saram han neun dou
Congmal ee mie ryou nae ya man han dah go
Para thon pharae eejae.

Nun wohdo hullyodo
Nun yohgi obneunde
Babo gatchi nun meul myo suh muhruji
Mou..rojo gan nun mosubhi
Gie..youk joukkhan nun reul hie mie hae ji gaetjie...

Kuraedun nunmullae...hae mosub cho geum shi..
Hullyo ho nae nahn li nahn baram suhge
Eebsu gahn nie yang gie mahjyo.
Modue dah sarang ji gae..

Credits to WASABI29

With tears-J feat. Leejung

I'd rather forget right now
So that even if I linger for a long while
everything will fade in time 
and I, myself wont remember

I want to send it away with the wind
I want to send my harsh memories far away
to a place where I'll never find it again
I want to send away this love

*I'll probably spend a day in tears
But if I erase everything with my tears
the image that I loved 
can become a vague memory and disappear 

*With my flowing tears I'll erase your image little by little
until I won't be able to remember you 
So that when I open my eyes each morning
our love will move farther away

That's how life is 
Loving and sending it away again 
How I hugged you warmly 
I want to forget it all now 

*repeat

It will all probably fade away.
Even if this time is painful
everything will be erased
I have to push you far away 
That's what I wish again and again now

Even if I call for you over and over again, you won't be here
But as I'm crying, I'm calling for you like a fool
The constantly receding image of you 
Will probably grow faint in my memories

With my flowing tears I'll erase your image little by little
So that the last of your familiar scent flowing within the rushing wind will completely disappear

Credits to sunmi_byul