i wonder what i'm even happy about ><

Been real lazy these days :P Have to start being hardworking already and start blogging ! xP Now lets start from the days that I've been lazy and just slacked off typing some really crappy posts that everyone must have been turned off by :X

Have been vandalising a lot on my papers lately :P My new cartoon character ! Teddy ! :X

Yeah . You didn't see wrongly . Its "Basic Conversational Malay" . Had mentioned it a few days earlier that I'm currently learning malay due to one sole reason . Chinese A levels is over ! And now, I'm learning malay . Just communication one though . But I've been trying hard and everyone too . Had been having a lot of fun lately during Malay lessosn . Xue Er going crazy, trying to mix all kind of languages together in a sentence . And also Jolene getting all hyped up . MingSheng trying his best while I'm there teasing that he should master English first :X And also YangJie who seemed really good in malay now . Today's lesson was really funny . Jolene kept squirting water out of her waterbottle into MingSheng's shirt while MingSheng revenging by pouring water on her hair . Jolene started using highlighter and draw on everyone due to my influence . Drew a smiley face on YangJie's face :P The photo is in Jolene's phone . Halfway through Shannon came, then CheeWee was showing off to him saying that he is multilingual because he knows English, Chinese, Hokkien, Korean and Malay . Then I retorted saying that Hokkien is not a language . But now I just remember that his english and chinese ain't good :X And also his Korean is just barely on the mark :X Multilingual yeah :P

Played a little basketball today . Didn't really want to play . Been tired and sick of basketball . Oh wait before that . Met up with Jas today to have Burger King breakfast ! Been a long time since I had been able to eat it ! So happy :P Heh . Computing lesson today was practical . Screwed . Hate practical . Haix .. Need so much help in it . Yet its so hard to get help . After that met up with Jas at Yishun mrt with some other people together . Slacked there for really long . Sha brought his twilight book . He bought it for 13 bucks while I bought it at 17 bucks . But its smaller in size and there's no introduction to NewMoon in it . CheeWee said that I've been scammed . Oh well ><" Forget it . At least I got to read the book real early xD Love it to bits ! Waiting for the movie ! Hehe . 

After that went to "play basketball " . Slacked most of the time . Jolene helped me to finish the other part of my manicure . Whee ~ ! :P

Then, slacked and played PSP . Tired of it already too ><" Been playing so much of it lately because I'm so bored ! ><" After that, some people found fruits on the floor and starting throwing at each other . With Ibrahim, Shannon and Ash on a team while MingSheng, YeowKeng and YangJie on the other . Nono . Plus the other sitting statues which are us :X The sitting statues are part of YangJie's, Yeowkeng's and MingSheng's group . The "bullets" which are the fruits were really attracted to Jolene . Jolene was sitting right beside me . But no matter how it flew, they would just hit her somehow and none of them hit me . YangJie was owning them . His accuracy is really good ! And though he is scrawny thin, he has so much strength ! Throwing really far . I tried, but it only reached half of the distance ><" Forget it man . Let them do the throwing . YangJie should really join baseball . He can pitch well and also throw well xDD

After that, started playing cards . Bored ! MingSheng and the others ran an errand for us and bought bubble tea for us . Perfect for a hot day . Following that, I finally played a little basketball . So warm ! Sweating like crazy . Only played for half an hour but I was drenched ><" At least for the back . Blehs . That's why I hate playing when wearing uniform . Just played for such a short time and guess what happened ! I have sunburn now . Hurray ! -.- Darn . Anyways at least I'm getting tanned ! Muahah ! Its so difficult for me to get tanned . Most of the time, only my face gets tanned but my hands and legs remain the same . It sucks ! =l 

Went for malay class after that which I've already talked about it earlier . 

After that was Arts education programme . Today had people from The Singapore Repertory Theatre talking to us about ShakeSpear's stories . Guess it can be really fun . So much difference from what happened during literature lessons in secondary school . Agreed with one of the speakers that literature during secondary school is DULL ! But I guess watching plays are cool ! Wouldn't mind watching one :D They talked about their acting career and stuff . Guess its quite exciting but its not for me . 

Home sweet home after that xD

Anyways yesterday during break . Oh wait was it yesterday ? Couldn't remember what yeah . Xue Er was looking for jobs . Flipped through newspapers and dialled some numbers . After that she was really hyped up and starting finding cleaner jobs . Then she also called one which your job is to lose weight . She lied that her weight is 81kg and her height is 158cm . Her goal weight would be 60kg . We were there laughing like crazy . She couldn't stand it . But wanted to continue with her plans and continued with cleaning jobs too . Hilarious :P

These few days had been slacking off because of audition ! And also anime ! They have been filling up most of my time . The anime that I'm crazy over now is Zero no Tsukaima ! Nice ! xP

Oh yeahs . Forgot to take pictures of the shirts I have bought that time when I'm out with WeiQin . This is the shirt I love best ! So cute xD

The others ~!

My shorts ! No idea why it is upside down . Bought this on Saturday night .

My new Levi's ! Dark coloured xP

Yupp . That's all .

Gona watch my anime already ! :X BYE BYE ! XP

it's getting really difficult to breathe lately ..

wondering why ..

Really tired right now . Turning in for the night soon . These past 2 days, had been slacking off in school during breaks and all . Yesterday watched HighSchoolMusical3 during the 5 hours break we had . Was quite disappointed . The plot just ain't that good . Or maybe it was because most of the people said that it as great and I expected something really amazing . But in the end, it was just 20% goodness and the others were just fillers . The music is still good of course, but I'm sure most of the people would agree that the first one is still the best .

Was quite disappointed too because I didn't manage to catch Twilight's trailer in cinemas . Bet the movie is going to be good . Another Harry Potter they said . I'm sure its going to be better . Hope so yeah . High expectations on it again (:

After that we played basketball, just like what we did today during breaks .

Been learning malay for the past two lessons . Learnt quite a lot already . Its not bad to learn another language yeah xD Shall work on it . But I would really want to learn japanese if there's a chance . But its going to be a lot of determination . The grammer part can already kill you off .

Oh well . Shall elaborate more when I'm free . Time to sleep . Peace out (:

its either you ... or no one else .

friendships are something that I can only afford now ..

Well . On Saturday, I was too depressed . Didn't even remember that I've had found some photos in Jolene's house . Now look what I've found ! 

DONG BANG SHIN KI POSTERS ! :DD I took a long look at it and gave each of them a caption . Junsu's one is "I'm a wizard" . Micky's one is "I'm a werewolf" . JaeJoong's one is "I must have went to the wrong phototaking place" . ChangMing's " I'm hot and you know it. " Yunho's "I'm a vampire. Above them all" . Hehe . Thats the feeling each of them gave me in the poster . Jolene was laughing like crazy xD

Now, next up, prepare yourself . JAEJOONG ! :P

Wanted to tae Junsu only . But oh well, since micky is just beside, and this is one of the best photos taken . So yeahs . He got in somehow :X

Yesterday, Jolene was asking her friends this simple yet complex question . If I would have the chance, I would like to know the answer too . Well, the question was " What do I mean to you ? " . She posted this question to most of her friends . I replied her " Baobei lor .. Still need say mehs ? " . Well . Because at that time, I was stumped . Couldn't give an accurate answer . Just one word . But now, since I'm free . Here goes :

Jolene is one of the best person I've ever met . She always uses her cheerfulness to influence others around her . Although she's always being teased by people around her, she does not take it seriously and does not bear grudges towards people . She always tries her best to help others out of sincerity and care, not with some other motives . She's one of the only friends that would care about me when she sense something wrong . One of the little friends that would dare to come near me and lift my spirits when I'm depressed or moody . She's the one that would go crazy with me over DongBangShinKi though I always give her a cold shoulder . She's the person who can influence me with minor stuff for example, even singing a song . Once she have started singing it, I would get addicted and sing too . She's a friend that I would never want to lose . Our friendship is not superficial (: BaoBei forever ! XD

Enough of all these, now lets move on to what happened today . 

Woke up real early today, about 6.30am ? Okay fine . Later than the usual time but that was because there was something important happening . Today is OralPresentation . Not just any normal presentation but it was for A levels and it makes up a huge component of our ProjectWork grades . When I was walking to school, I was really tired . Eyes closing and all .

Reached school just in time to be audience for Jeannette's group . I guess their presentation was fine . The QuestionAndAnswer part was scary . I've never expected them to ask questions that specific and in depth . Broadened my horizons a little about that . Now I finally understood how tense the atmosphere is .

Next up was Jen's group . The best group ever . The entire group have really good oral presentation skills . Especially Ibrahim . He rocked ! The entire presenation, I bet everyone was just like me, absorbed into what he was saying . His pace, hand gestures and eye contact . Everything was just nice . I didn't even realise he was reading off his cue cards because most of the time, he spoke with confidence and makes you feel at ease . Good job done there (:

When it was nearing my group's turn, Jolene and I walked to the physics lab to practise our speech . I was joking with her that I was so astonished that even though I'm so far away from her, I can still hear her voice . LOL . But she's good yeah . Never doubt her ability in presenatation . I guess OP was fine for me . A little rushed . Forgot a slide . Darn . My fault on that part . Was too nervous and couldn't think straight . YangJie and me both agreed that we were summarizing up all the points we had . Or should I say because we wrote in point form, thats why our speech would be different every time . And this time, its really short . After my presenation, I really felt like hitting myself ><" Oh well . But friends around were cheering me up telling me that its already over so don't think too much about it already :D

Then was XueEr's group . Crashed into her group's presentation . This time XueEr impressed us with her presenation . A suffice amount of smiles and eye contact made us all surprised because normally she was using this really bored voice . Not us that were bored, it was her that drove the atmosphere in that direction . But this time, I could sense the hype in her voice . Great job there too (:

Jolene's group . Can't doubt that Jolene was perfect . Her presentation and of course her QnA . QnA for her was like some "no-kick" stuff . She replied confidently, without any stammers and her answers were really substantial . Great work ! You're the "MVP" this time round for our class :X

Oh wait . Before I carry on, we had a break before Jolene's group presentation so we ate a little .

Then Melvin was there lightening the atmosphere with his "insults" oops . I meant uh .. jokes ? Heh . XueEr was telling him what did she reply to the question that Jolene posed . XueEr said that Jolene was a radio . Then Melvin immediately agreed saying that she's a radio that has a spoilt volume control and cannot switch channel . The best thing is that he doesn't even know where the power supply came from ! The best insult aka joke for the entire day . Missed his jokes  a lot . Class just isn't the same without the seniors yeah .

After that, went to northpoint . Pretty hilarious stuff happened . We sat down on the bench on the 2nd storey while waiting for MingSheng and Yangjie to finish their drink and icecream respectively . YangJie was saying that he could sit there forever till the next day . I told him yeah . You can stay here alone . Jolene added in telling him to buy breakfast for us . LOL . Then I told YangJie and Mingsheng that they can fight over who sleeps on the floor and who gets the bench . So funny :P

Went home . Auditioned ! :D So happy . Missed the old songs . Was shocked at how I can even play those songs . Its so fast now . My audtion skills are like some stock market . When I just started, I was like some crap player . Then I improved tremendously and then it hit a peak point . But after that, I stopped playing when the korean songs were gone . Thats when I sucked . Now I still suck but at least I'm better already . The only thing is that I have to use the desktop to play as I can't play it on my laptop . And hence, I feel that the keyboard is really hard . Normally using the laptop, I would just slide down my finger on the up arrow to the down arrow when needed . But using the keyboard, I can't do that unless I want a swollen finger at the end of the entire audition playing session . A little disappointed . Oh well . Lets wait till my laptop accepts audition yeah ?

During the game, Wx came . Shocked . Long time never talk already :P He crashed in apparently because he want to see how much I've deproved . LOL . As expected, he was still "godly" . Recognize the link there . His past nick xGod and his skills . Okay . This is lame . LOL . But when he came, he accidentally brought his "fan club" over . That's what I use to address them . Okay fine . They are his friends . Yeah :X Too much manga and you get weird ideas like me . 

Hm .. yeah . So today was kind of a messed up day . A little messy here and there . Before I go off, leave you all with these two pictures . The top one is the card that Jolene had . Women in engineering advertisement while the one following up is the price list of haircut and styling of a shop . 

Time to sleep ! Peace out :D

What you want, I can't give it to you .

It just hurts somehow . I thought I had gotten over it . But that scene of .. was just too much to bear . I just had to get away somehow . I wonder if you realised what I have realised . Perhaps .. You would realise it soon . A woman's instinct can never be too far off .. 

never ..

Those melodies . I've heard them before somewhere .

Woke up real early today . But was still late . Well . Was quite ... I don't know . Depressed angry ? 

Yeah . You're right to say I have a low EQ . Because I'm tired of all these crap . It seems like they would never end . YangJie reminded us . He remembered that in the past when we were sorted into groups, we were the only group that had five members . And one person commented " I wonder if its a blessing or a curse ? " That time, I was quite happy . And now, I only wished that we would really complete this entire journey together . I can't doubt the fact that we are the group that went through the most and met with the most problems. And now its only a little more, lets just do it shall we ?

Through all these time, I've found out a lot and also learnt a lot from everyone . 

Today, almost half the class were in Jolene's house . Went there quite late . Thanks Jolene for the double chocolate doughnut xD My breakfast ! Yummy . Did quite a bit of stuff .

Actually, I was really happy that most of us wanted to help each other and hence decided to meet up . In the end, I was really disappointed . I know its not your fault or anyone's . I know I'm selfish to think this way . But its really .. rude ? I have no idea how to describe it already . People who presented saying that they want to leave and those others behind . I'm not angry because my group was last . I'm fine with it . But what about those who wanted them to comment ? Its quite unfair you know . When you're presenting, everyone is paying attention and really wants to help you . But when its other people's turn, you take it like its none of your business and just leave . Sometimes I wonder .. If people are really that kind and helpful afterall . Really disappointed ..

After most of the people left, we started to slack around . Played cards . Ash taught us how to play the game "four cards" . Quite fun . If you want to learn can ask me (: Its a real cool strategy game . And I found out that I suck in "cheat" . Seems like I can never guess if other people are cheating or not . And I don't lie . Once I lie, its seen through immediately . So in the end I had almost half the deck in my hands . 

Played Ps2 . Suck like crap :X MingSheng YangJie and Jiakiang . Pros in PS2 games . Borrowed YeowKeng's PSP to play :X I had no idea I have been playing DJMax all along -.- I thought it was just some music game . And everyone keep talking about the game . I thought it was something else . Oh well . YeowKeng is a crazy pro in that . His fingers . When he play you can't even see it . Its so fast ! ><"

Crapped around . Blehs . Found some really nice DBSK posters on Jolene's walls .

After that went for dinner with family . Ate pasta mania . Carbonara. Yummy .

Bought another pair of Levis today . Finally bought a dark coloured one XDD Guess that's the only thing I'm happy with today .

Oh well . Peace out .

Sometimes I really just want to cry it all out . Why is it so difficult to be thoughtful for others ? I'm so sick of all these excuses that people make to get out of something . Why can't they just understand what is more important ? 

Was it wrong to be too hopeful in the first place ? Maybe I'm just too naive . Maybe I should start walking out of my comfort zone and understand how people really work outside . How much it is different ..

Those melodies . They were sad . I think I've heard them before .. somewhere ..

my eyes will always be at the same direction . it never changes ..