firstly, i apologize for everything im gona post . if u hate to see vulgarities, den dun read any further ..

i think i can spout like a million expletives right now .

i need a break, a really long break from all of these .

not just school work and dance .

everything . my life . it's crashing down at a freaking high speed .

till i don't even know what is going on . 

i'm too lost . i can't find my way out .

it just keeps on coming and it's not stopping .

it's even difficult to breathe .

and when i tell myself that i should try harder .

or perhaps its me that im too weak .

stop running away and avoiding everything .

it just keeps on crashing down .

one by one . doesn't stop does it ?

when would it happen ?

when im finally dead ?

damn it .

damn you .

damn everything that's happening .

damn all these nonsense that im facing .

damn shit .

freaking hell .

brain dead .

whatever .

ass .

damn .

i hate everything right now .

a thousand hate posts also won't do anything .

im gona be selfish .

so selfish tomorrow .

and i don't freaking care if i hurt anyone around .

'cause that's just too bad .

your too unlucky to be around me .

or should i say you deserve it ?

hah .

freaking shit .

whatever .

you suck .

well . don't worry .

'cause i suck more than you ..

all those voices around,

if you can't be there for me forever,

then don't come near me in the first place .

i don't want any superificial care and concern,

makes me feel worse .

one moment you're there, and then you're not .

it's better if you're not even there at all .

Runaway - Avril lavigne

Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah

Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late

My phone doesn't work cus it's out of range

Looks like it's just one of those kind of days

You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground

No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow

Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no

Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud

And I feel so alive

I can't help myself

Don't you realize

[Chorus]

I just wanna scream and lose control

Throw my hands up and let it go

Forget about everything and run away, yeah

I just wanna fall and lose myself

Laughing so hard it hurts like hell

Forget about everything and run away, yeah

So-so's how I'm doing, if you're wondering

I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning

Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk

Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch

And I feel so alive

I can't help myself

Don't you realize

[Chorus]

Run away, run away [Repeat]

[Chorus X2]