today was another day of lessons ! ><" just realised how screwed i am . BLOCK TESTS ARE APPROACHING and yet im here still struggling with my studies so much . i feel so dumb . all my worksheets and stuff . i guess i ain't stupid its just that i AREN'T thinking . what the hell ! can only blame myself if i don't score for block test . got to start studying RIGHT NOW ! we can PLAY if we in turn STUDY . but most of all the time we play and don't even bother to study .

oh yeahs . yesterday night found out that i had so much blisters from the basketball match earlier T_T because i wasn't wearing proper shoes . haix . kinda hurt . but well . its okay =/ hahas ..

yesterday night before i said bye to dar i was telling him have a good sleep if you can without feeling guilty because of not doing homework . i just realised .. how many times have i even completed mine ? darn . feel like a failure ! a student's role is to study and i can't even fulfill the basic criteria which is to finish my homework and i ain't even feeling guilty . this is SO stupid . so im going to DO MY PILE OF HOMEWORK NOW ! and i SO mean it ! :DD

im so sorry for not understand what i should do .. guess i wasn't even trying at all ..

i've been standing outside the door of happiness for so long,
and now i've realized it was me that was wrong.
for now i'll stop saying sorry and start unlocking the door ..

i love you