darn . i thought i've stood firmed and now just something minor crashes it totally . this is wrong ! i shouldn't run away from it . i should become stronger . i know i'm lagging behind like crazy but if i keep running away, i would just get worse . is this what i want ? and if this happens, it would always remain the same . i need to put in more effort . i need to become better . the verdict is already out . i should be happy for myself and now show that i ain't a disappointment ..

yet how come it's so difficult to stand .. ?