hey's . i'm tired , sick , fustrated . my headache is killing me . 

there's still so much to do and there's so little time . poor time management ? you're right . i always think about so much useless stuff that i spend so little time on my work ? which is much more useful as compared to this ..

i need a break . a long break . i need time to let my brain and heart rest . it's getting accumulated day after day and i feel like it's on the verge of collapsing already . if only life is so easy . when you want to end it all, you just do it . why do we need to stay in the middle of no where ? there ain't much choices after all i guess . no matter where you go .. it's d same .

different destinations ? perhaps not huh ..

day by day it just adds on . how long can i pretend and fake that i don't care and can't be bothered ? how long can my lips remained curled up ? when would i finally get too tired ..

whatiwantdoesntmatterbecauseiwon'tgetit.whatotherswantdoesn'tmattereitherbecauseidon'thave the strengthandpowertofufillorgiveit.whysoinsignificant?thatpowerless.thatweak.thatunimpactful.maybeallthisshouldjustend.ormaybeonedayiwouldwakeupandrealisethatnothinghashappenedbefore.