*this might make no sense to you . but oh well . sorry yeah*

say them out loud ... ?

so many . none the right one .

i ain't practising what i preach .

believe in yourself . like its so easy to look at the bright side and have confidence .

i was shut out i guess .

confused ?

not really huh ..

can't feel it .

and the gaze casted upon .

disappointment ? 

pain ? 

over and over again .

contradictions .

ironic .

misunderstandings ?

questions .

unanswered .

three .. two .. one .. im counting to the end of my limit .

struggling isn't a choice anymore .

surviving is another issue .

what's the suspense for ?

was it already planned ?

destiny and fate don't work the same way ?

why think so much ?

why even bother ?

why hold on on something ?

its not worth it .

i've heard a million times .

hope was thrown away .

its not that much anyways .

maybe it was an illusion .

unrequited .

correct person, wrong time ?

denial .